Friday, December 26, 2008

alot of overdue photos and some recent ones.
actually alot more but i lazy to upload...
wait damn long ...
haha...
Yeah, bling blings!

biibii and mi at illuzion

random photo with love again

mi, elaine and agnes
(bofore going ph)

doing.....
done :)


waiting for elaine to finish work, haha..
we love to take photo!

meiling and mi at wild wild wet

ling ling at wild wild wet. see my hair?!?!

mmm... yummy!

haha, see there!

Amelia and mi at powerhse!
yeah, caught a minnie! i got one for u too debbie!

mickey mickey!

wad the hell?

today went down to eat with genie.

wad the f***. walking towards the foodcourt and a china woman knocked mi from behind and continue walking in front of mi, lyk i invisible, lyk she knock onto mi she nv feel anything. wad the hell.

so i exclaim to genie, no manners lorz, in chinese. then the stupid woman nv apologise or wad nvm lorz, she still turn ard and say, is u ownself block the way lorz.

WAD THE F**K LARZ! U BEHIND MI CROSS CANNOT SAY EXCUSE MI ARHZ? AT LEAST MAKE SOME SOUND RITE?

BUT SHE JUS KNOCK INTO MI AND WALK OF, LYK NTH HAPPEN LORZ.

COMEON, U NOT CHILDREN NOT OLD ELDERLY CANNOT SAY SRY ARHZ?

SO I SAY, WAD I BLOCK U, MY BEHIND NO EYES LEHZ.

AND SHE DARE TELL MI, " U WAN FIND FIGHT IZZT? U BELIEVE I KILL U ARH I TELL U... BLAH BLAH BLAH !!!" THROWING ASSAULTING WORDS AT MI.

WAD THE HELL LORZ...

IDIOT LEHZ..


AND U NOE WAD?

I MET ONE SIMILAR WAN AT JP BEFORE.

is all these stupid china women acting lyk tt, tts why all ppl stereotype against other good china ppl.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

wow unbelievable!

wish everyone a happy merry christmas!!!!!!!!!

ho ho ho...

true to the song,

ALL I WAN FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU!!
LOVE U LOTS DARLING DEAR!

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just as i was scrutinising at some other stuffs, i hear a news tt shocked me quite literally.

wow, really? i wondered, but it din take mi a quarter of a second to realise its true.

why?

it goes to the credibility of the person. i figured tt they hav no reasons to paint a bad image of the other person. :)

hmm, why?

this is always the question.

是他本来就是这样吗?还是鹤蚌相争, 渔翁得利呢?

反话这门学问, 说难不难, 但若说易却不易。说得好,能赢得全场的信任。但是说得头不对尾, 就会让你的公信力从此贬为复数。

幸好大家都知道他的个性, 否哲我岂不是变成了他的代罪羔羊吗?对此, 我感到万分的庆幸。

谢谢你把这件事告诉我, 不然我就像个笨蛋一样。

Monday, December 22, 2008

sth to tink about

what if something is actually nothing, and nothing becomes something?
what would u do?




:)





haha, just thought of some incidents, makes mi want to laugh.

狗抓老鼠。

此地无银。

;)



flu flu go away lol...

its nearing

yah, x'mas is near whahaha...
hav u prepared ur pressies?? hee...

went to jp to shop with seetin for 2 days.
haiz... ppl ppl everywhere. so many choices but all seem so normal, later clash how? lol

long long time nv see her liao. tok alot haha, everything can be a topic.
gossips gossips gossips... :)

finally bought something tt i tink i nice and suited to the christmas mood, can use and 'you xin yi'.

sick at home now, lol, flu. but cant slp, so now preparing my pressies. one by one thread, tie, fold, hook. :)

oh yah, thanks lilian for the watch, damn nice i love it. hee... my earliest christmas present. :)


ate roti prata with darling and frenz at river valley ytd. tried banana prata, lol, okie okie, but if got icecream to go with it i tink nicer ... :) tok cock gossip and complain abt the food and service haha...

nxt headed to terry's hse for a drink, the guys only larz, cuz they wan to watch soccer. then we girls go inside room to again, no need to mention, haha, tok lorz, wad can we do? tok about everything, from sch days, bfs and rebellious days with teachers, things unforgetable. haha
pel showed us her bdae gifts, we k-po k-po haha. terry gave her a LV wallet. so sweet rite. cuz she always hav no space to put her gucci long wallet, so hence now a short wan. :) most importantly, its the thought tt counts. Pel, u make us all jealous lehz...hahaha!



so so so, where to this x'mas???

i wanna hav fun!
:)

Thursday, December 18, 2008

i noe why le, it might be...

DISCLAIMER: if u tink tt reading my posts will make u angry, offend u or wadsoever, then pls kindly stop here and exit. or else dun say tt i am offending u( general)






i was tinking and thinking as to wad made some ppl sensitive towards my posting and do not lyk wad i wrote.

and suddenly i understand why the post tt is meant to point at guys, made girl dun lyk wad i wrote.

cuz of the underlying points tt i brought up.
i shall not write it here cuz its a sort of a taboo topic.
yeap, the least respect tt i give or i tink i shd give.
and also to save me from verbal assaults and backstabbings.
who noes rite?
if not ppl will say i am writing about them. laughs.

but do u see names here?

NO.
okie except Pel but no, pel its not refering to u. its not even related to ur case. :)

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hmm, if u write about something and ppl say u are writing about them or feel tt way. (but u are not, not even tinking about them when u write)

then why still ppl will feel offended?

is it becuz my post is REALLY misleading?

or

is it becuz my post TICK A NERVE DEEP DOWN IN UR HEART?
(u noe its somewad true, u relate to the post, then u feel guilty so u tink i offend u if i write it online)

well, all are welcome to answer my question thru my tagboard.
:)

haha...

its so funny, i just heard the joke of the day lol..

but i shall not post it here.. haha...
ask mi if u are curious. :)

on the other hand, pls dun get too excited, :)

let mi clarify afew things.

i am not quarreling with pel. lol. we r jus having some exchange of idea on the blog.

wad is a blog?

its an online diary where we can write down all our thought and feelings, no restriction no nth. as long as we do not malign ppl, do not post nudity or racism, everything under the sun is possible.

Rite?

if anywan still feel tt i am writing about him or her, being too over sensitive, pls read my post one more time carefully. if the general topic still looks lyk it is pin pointing to u in ur opinion, tell me. if it the reason u provide is justifiable, i'll remove my post. :)

smile, cuz everyday is a wonderful day!

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okie here goes,

xiao hui was walking on the street one fine day when she suddenly felt a sharp pain and drop to the ground. the doctor could not find any physical wound on her but she was certain tt she was in terrible pain. dianogsis shows nothing unusual. but she keep saying she has a terrible back pain.
WHY?

haha...

who noes the answer?

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Mercy is really mercy?

inspired by lovelyn, i found some of JODI's books.

interesting, touching and somewhat freaking real.

Mercy:
What would you do for someone you love? Would you lie? Would you leave? Would you kill?

-about love, mercy killing aka euthanasia.( in singapore its called end-of-life)

to side track alittle:

do u agree to mercy killing?
wad is ur stand?
more and more countries are granting the green light toward euthanasia. but how would it affect our moral obligation?
how far will u go?

Quoted from the book,

Jamie says, "You know it's never fifty-fifty in a marriage. It's always seventy-thirty, or sixty-forty. Someone falls in love first. Someone puts someone else up on a pedestal. Someone works very hard to keep things rolling smoothly; someone else sails along for the ride."

Do you agree?


I agree. 50-50 is the ideal that many would wan to achieve but some how its impossible. its just a matter of who is putting in more effort then the other. sadly.


The Pact:

i jus bought hee hee.. :P

Refer to my post on guys and clubs

TO ALL TT READ MY POST BRIEFLY AND MISUNDERSTOOD WAD I WAS TRYING TO BRING ACROSS!


PLS OPEN UR EYES BIG BIG AND READ CAREFULLY THEN RETORT.
THANK U FOR UR COOPERATION.



FIRSTLY, wad i wrote was IN GENERAL.


from the dictionary-

General :
1. of, pertaining to, or true of such persons or things in the main, with possible exceptions; common to most; prevalent; usual: the general mood of the people.

2. considering or dealing with overall characteristics, universal aspects, or important elements, esp. without considering all details or specific aspects: general instructions; a general description; a general resemblance one to another.

IN GENERAL,
a.
with respect to the whole class referred to; as a whole: He likes people in general.
b.
as a rule; usually: In general, the bus is here by 9 a.m.


AND as for ur post, u can go do more research, ask more ppl- guys who play or who got frenz who play. get them to be honest. :)

nowadays, most guys looking for fun as in more than wad normal frenz do, dun go to those chinese ktv liao.( THIS STATEMENT IS BACKED BY MY GUY FRENZ)

WHY?

its simple, it cost money.

if u pick up some girls tt are willing to go back with u from pubs or clubs, mostly its free.

go geylang also need money.

In clubs etc, there is such a huge selection, a wide array of choices, and when its mostly free, why not? THAT IS WHY IT IS CALLED A ONE NIGHT STAND, AND NOT PROSTITUTION.


BUT BUT BUT, NEITHER AM I SAYING THAT EVERY GUY PLAYS ,NOR SAYING THAT EVERY GIRL IS EASILY AVAILABLE.

I STATE ONCE AGAIN, ITS IN GENERAL.

if you think tt my post is offensive to anyone, then i tink again u read a little too much in depth. once again, any coincidence of clashing senarios is purely coincidental.

ppl who met their bf, husband, ppl who just happen to work or once worked in a pub or club, pls refer to the above point if u get offended.


i still maintain my stand tt no one, absolutely no one in the right state of mind will go to a club or pub with the SINGLE agenda to look for a life partner(companion).

if anyone knew their partner in such places and are still together, it will be they are there to know more frenz of the opposite sex in the first place. then through more contact with each other, thus decided tt the girl or guy is not bad, and hence, stayed together.

Alicia, correct me if i am wrong. :)

I dun tink this is bad, cuz alot of my frenz knew their partners this way. some still together
, some separated.

of cuz, i also noe some guys who had fetched girls home from pubs before, some of my frenz even go home with guys they met there, much to our dismay and warnings.
some girls go clubs but they will definitely go home, their principle is simply different.
some guys just dont want to play around.
there are all sorts of ppl in this world.

if anyone think i am still wrong, feel free to correct mi.

BUT
FYI PLS READ CAREFULLY AND THOROUGHLY UNDERSTAND WAD I MEAN BEFORE U ANYHOW TWIST MY POINT.
THANK YOU!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

happy happy HAPPY!!

haha, finally got to meet up with elaine, alicia, amelia, cheryl, lovelyn.

its SUPAFLY! haha...

some of their frenz came too.. wad fun!

meet them at ard 10 plus. stupid orchard jam! Amelia and co reached ard 12 i tink.
lovelyn booked a table already but cuz darling say he will be going with raymond and amelia's bf, so we also sat at the table reserved for darling and co too.

i tink i saw a familiar name on the reservation tag near our table and wondered, the world so small mehz? after asking ard, they all say tink is different ppl larz, so we just forget about it.

BUT BUT BUT, it turned out that Elaine saw staciy there at powerhouse too, and which means the reservation for Rueben is the same person !! lol such a small small world.

AND AND AND yeap, later tt night i bumped into her ard i tink 3 times arhz? just greeted with a wave and a smile each time cuz there very crowded and in a rush so nv tok thou.

waited for darling to arrive before i join the girls to hav some fun. hee, they did waited with mi thou, thxz. hee. darling allowed mi to go enjoy myself tt night, awesome! haha thx a million, love u lots.

partying with alicia, cheryl and co really bring lots of laughter and not to mention craziness lol. helped cheryl to tink of her action to go with her introduction, rite cheryl? muz get some petent fee from u for the action liao lol. haha

drink, laugh, drink, playing and teasing, soon, we were all standing on stage, dancing lyk crazy lol. i was so scared tt darling will scold mi after seeing mi there, but he said it was okie, really okie, no blackface or anything. muacks, i am so happy, partying with my frenz, and together with my darling! spotted raymond and darling awhile later on the dancefloor too. when i ask darling how come so on go dancefloor, he say, "bo bian, pei raymond leh..." and shakes head. lol.

oh yeah, met a new fren, joycely. she's lovelyn's colleague, a nice, crazy bubbly girl.

stayed at powerhouse until ard 4plus 5 then went over to dragonfly cuz darling wanna go find fren and ALICIA WANTS TO GO! lol. :)

drink, dance, chatted and wait for john to finish work before we left for t.blangah rise for curry rice. john told mi he and darling together for very long liao. lol laughs. :)

joycely told mi that she can see tt darling dotes on mi very much while eating, and i told darling hee. he responded with a smile. cute.

bade goodbye to raymond, john and co, sent elaine and joycely to the main road for cab before heading home.

sweet dreams to all. haiz, sad, alicia nv join us. nxt time alrite?
:)

Friday, December 12, 2008

i wonder

i cant help but wonder,

hmm,

what do guys do when they accompany their fren out to party to "xian" girls?
do they just sit at a corner and observe?
or do they join in to jio the girl/girls too? so as to help their fren? ( may be a gd excuse if questioned? lol)

hmm, i tink most likely is the latter ba?
especially when it is a sort of guys night out?
the guys tt are jus accompanying maybe appear to be boring ppl, or be looked down on if they did not join in the fun?

if under peer pressure, i say if, how much could u stand? will u decend to tt level?

i trust u tts true, but i also could only trust u rite? contradicting huh?

dun worry. the bottom line is still - i trust u.

but i just cant help but wonder.
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the below is only my and mine opinion. any matching of events or scenario is just a coincidence.

if u wan to know a decent girl, have a stable relationship, not a problematic wan, and have long term plans together, will u find her in a club or pub?

any guy with common sense will know the answer will definitely be NO rite?
apologies to those ppl married, stable down and know each other in such places, u are the minor minor ones. i am speaking in general.

guys, if u wan to play, u wan to have a one night stand, u wan to enjoy urself with no strings attached, ( except with the possibility of having STDs in random), and having no need to pay for sex, except maybe for the drinks etc, WHERE WILL U GO?

PUBS AND CLUBS! BINGO!

so u see my point now?

GETIT ??


sorry for being so straight to the point but dare u say i am wrong?

i asked my guy frenz before i post this, they say its nth, every guy noes this point.



so my question now is,


tell mi in plain language

U are going to club to find a girl to start a relationship?

or

U are just finding an excuse find a one night stand?

i tink all guys can help u answer. lol.
its so obvious.

haiz, no wonder i always hear ppl say they cant be bothered to even scold u liao.

你要和“堕落” 做朋友吗?

powerhouse!

yeah!

finally can meet up with the girls le.

i miss them so. it has been quite some time, in fact, very long time since we last met up.

Alicia, elaine, amelia, cheryl, and lovelyn.

haha. see ya later!

Alicia, dun be late arhz.. hee lol...

yeah.. haha

yeah, today lady luck is on my side...
completed my collection for baby disney characters with my last catch for donald. hee...
lets see, spent about $3 or $4. hee. happy happy. :)

genie wanted the new collection haha. keep catching the bunny and mickey or winnie but funnily cannot catch, but caught a few mickeys and minnie. lol repeated de, she had the whole collection le. she say nvm, give her fren baby. haha, finally i buay ta han, try my luck help her caught. and so coincidentally i hook the bunny up and it fell out. whahaha, we laugh until stomach pain. hope the next few days we return already got refill le or got ppl help us push the winnie or mickey over then genie can try her luck again. i wanna try winnie with drum. waiting patiently for ppl to position for mi lol.

mayne say she will be free tentatively on 21st. then we go safra swim .
lol wait for u . haha

oh yah, i ate the chicken chop burger. nice lorz..
haha delicious!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

babykins i love u !

haiz,
u arh u , everything because of u, all all all because of u .
even the first song tt we shared, the ringtone tt we use only for us, is " because of u " .

haha.. lol

and just because of u, are u , tts why i love u .

today darling actually wanted to open shop at 8 plus, so cant slp after majonging.(tinking tt h can come home after jimmy arrive, ard evening time to catch his beauty slp) but then dunno why he suddenly fell aslp while watching tv beside mi.

suddenly jerk up from my slp to find darling still beside mi at 10 plus, lol. shock! immediately shook him up and he woke up damn fast larz, lol. super surprising. i continued to slp after he went to bath.

darling called ard 6 plus, izzt? i forgot, but ard there larz. faster go bath and meet him downstairs to buy groceries, hee, wanna cook some food for dardarz. he look so shag larz, lyk any time wan to fall down and slp liao. sayang sayang...

haha, dardar now already doze off liao. lol so fast.
muacks!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

do u feel it?

i dun noe why but i am starting to miss u more when u are at home
than when u are not in my presence.

okie, maybe i noe why, cuz u are already used to being together, seeing my at hme/knowing i am at home waiting for u. its kinda lyk a sure thing huh?

maybe, maybe i am aware, but living in denial?

many will mock mi for being foolish. u are sucha nice guy, no fooling around, better EQ, better temper than last time, no sweet talking to just anybody and the list may go on.

BUT well, treat it tt i am greedy okie. for once, i wan back the guy who treated mi so well back then. its the same guy, but how come it seems so different now? it can be abit different, not so enthusiastic as before i understand but then at least not to the extent of lyk a little bit better than heck care marz? rite? haiz, this is really how i feel this few weeks, more than half of the time...

once in a blue moon, u will be super sweet, even jus for tt few mins or secs i dun care, cuz u made mi fall in love with u all over again, but sometimes u really make mi feel tt u and i are only 2 frenz tt slp side by side. S-I-A-N, u noe? (i put sian cuz its still not to the extent of being pathetic and the words sounds somehow rude to our relationship.)

i noe compare to alot of other ppl, our prob is lyk a molehill only but i wan our relationship to move forward, slowly but forward, i dun wan it to stop there, worse still go backwards and tts where all sorts of nonsense starts to come out of our mouth and there will soon be nothing left to say and ends with a FULLSTOP.

I DUN WAN US TO BE LYK TT. tts why when i dun feel rite, i will tell u, always so softly, without quarrels and all, but u almost always appear to be not listening/ taking in my words fully. its lyk u nod, say okie, but ur heart says otherwise. cuz ur facial expression and ur gestures looked tt way so well, i jus finish wad i wan to say and stop.

if 1 day, u tink tt its better for us to go our own way, jus tell mi, dun keep to urself, i dun wan to end up lyk someone.
( its out of the context but somehow i suddenly jus feel tt : its better to noe tt we cant be together anymore, than to end up bumping into u holding on someone else's hand out of nowhere.. tt hurts more, infinite...)

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

haha, no time to online, catching serials at lightning speed, lol.



acc genie go downstairs eat. finally i got to drink my bubble tea, so near but i always forget lol.



went to safra next to see got chance to catch toys not.

genie pro lehz, upgrade to big winnie the pooh liao lorz. lol. she catch the big winnie ke-long lol. cuz got stuck, machine restart then the winnie fell down haha. but the tiger too heavy cannot catch. she love the tiger more. lol. had my try and same kena stuck then the stupid bowling ppl restart the machine then the winnie fell backwards. sian half. nvm. next time. i will have u. lol.

caught a mickey for genie too. own her 1 mickey cuz she give mi a daisy. hee. my next target, donald wahaha, if possible winnie or tiger..



mei lan jie!!! now its genie turning housewife horz. cuz she call mi. "wan go down eat? i also wan go shop and save buy groceries."
haha

read someone's blog, some or most of the post actually wrote out my feelings too.

why is sensitivity, patience and other empathetic qualities not in a guy's dictionary ?

haiz, sometimes love him lyk crazy, miss him lyk crazy, but sometimes he really can make u angry lyk dun wad, sad lyk duno wad too. haiz...

darling u really power lor u. haiz. but i noe u really dote on mi de. i love u !

Friday, November 28, 2008

was still in bed when pelpel called. lol. asked whether safra open to public on friday.
thus i called keong kor kor to ask. yeap was the ans. haha

so confirm with pel and she is meeting mi at darling's place. prepared, wash up, change wahaha.
time for SWIMMING! okie larz, more lyk play with water... lol

ate ya kun for late brkfast haha then back to aunt hse for dinner. then headed over to pel's place. they playing majong haha. and ml came for sec round haha.


omg, i am so sian now, when is the person going to giving a call?

oh yah, the day before went to loyang pray with darling, gf, genie, hh, elaine, ml, boon, mj, keong. went to changi to eat the famous nasi lemak. heng joined us there too, was quite surprise haha.

crapped while eating, laugh till side pain lol.

next stop: illuzion, cuz da jie da ml wan to drink lol. so we jus went lorz. haha. ml keep losing in games, drink until lyk tt day is her birthdae lol.

Monday, November 24, 2008

haha, genie called again. dinner! lol
met her in ard 20 mins at blk 10 again. i jus had dinner though but nvm, pei her lorz.
she jus finish work. gf, darling and co all still in my'sia. lol

tok tok wait for food to come. damn long larz.
then when finally she go ask the vendor then she say "oh sry, we forget ur order. "wth? ppl so hungry liao then the person reply forget ur order. (faint on floor)

the food finally came, discount 50cent. laugh out loud!
initially plan to go safra play pool awhile then go home cuz gf and co every monday will go drink. but surprisingly today nv haha.

came home, waited for darling to reach home. he said he will be over at terry hse to pass him sth. and he said he wun be playing majong.

then came a msg at 12am. Dear we playing majong.

wow! great lorz. wad u promise mi? u jus played 2 times a few days ago? and? the result?
你已经快一个头两个大了你还要玩?u say u stress already but u still go ahead? then wad is the use of saying tt? and when i ask why u agree u say come home then say?

how to come home then say u tell mi? come home u already finish ur majong, win or lose already happen? come home then say can turn back time meh? if u win lucky lorz, if u lose lehz? then come home will say ai yah, nv hand itch then good, and regret.

cant tell u too much in the phone also, must keep my tone gd in the phone also, cannot be a wet blanket since u already decided to play. very tiring, 很辛苦你知道吗?cuz if u lose will say i curse u lose. but then i want to remind u what u told mi before but muz hint and be discrete. worse when u return with a monotonous answer.

sometimes i jus hate this feeling. everything say ai yah, ppl jio marz, cannot be wet blanket to not play but then u should think of ur situation wad. if gd then u play all u wan i wun care cuz not stress. but the truth is not gd marz. ur frenz will understand wan wad. tts why they are u frenz marz. also if its a 100% win situation u tink i wun let u play mehz? but then its not wad. win or lose is pure luck lehz. everywan also wan to win.

haiz. i not blaming anywan i jus dun feel gd, want to rant on my blog.

hope to hav gd news over at kristen's side.

elaine, tml i see how. if not then wed. lol haha

planning to learn driving, after settling down on my job.

everyone is upgrading, haha, suddenly miss studying and exams, practical lessons.

sir ur fortuneight haha, interesting articles. u are rite, y i nv listen to u earlier, but not a bad time to start learning though. citi group bail out S&P500 futures rise. sure u earn quite abit in there. haha

slack

went down to crescent to slack off almost half the day on saturday.

haha, genie called ard 2 30pm to ask if i hav any program, she's hungry and wanted to hav some food. since i am already tossing on the bed doing nth, i met her ard 40 mins later at blk 10. ate chicken rice, haha, long time nv had tt le, tok about almost everything. prisy came down 50 mins later? i dunno how long larz, lol, but we finishing our food liao she den come down. eat le then go terry hse dry swimming( majong) lol.

we walked over to safra planning to do manicure but the safra outlet close le, lol, so went back to crescent and did our manicure there. she did her legs too. we took such a long time choosing color lorz, lol. next time round we will exchange color lol. cuz i lyk her color and she lky mine. haha. the whole thing ended around 7 plus. drank at coffee shop, ate rojak cuz auntie and gf mum got cook, need to go back eat, haha. went to shop and save next.

planning to make salad for darling. haha, bought the ingredients and joke ard. genie at first say buy groceries back to gf hse very wierd, but then after a while she did took quite alot of stuffs and i asked her tot u say very wierd?
she replied," in the night nth to eat more jia lat than the awkwardness of buying stuff up. haha!"
funny haha.

got hme, she called again to ask if wan to go movie with gf, anson and co. help them check the time slot online and excitedly called darling but he said he jus agreed to a majong session.
so no movie sian. haiz.

called heng kor kor to fetch mi over after my dinner. darling drove there straight. the girls were still playing when everyone reach lol. then the guys wanted to come over to play majong but then someone lyk cannot so no choice, wait lorz. haha.

played blackjack, round up won $10 bucks. lucky lol.

yawns.

hme sweet home then.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

after reading so much, the misunderstandings got worser i guess.
u keep saying ppl scold u on ur tagboard so u post their addresses online. well.
read and thought tt somehow with only the ip address but no exact posts, u unforturnately appear to be blubbering. sorry cuz it looks abit like larz. i dun wan u to look bad too.

but posting about other ppl with names attached then ppl post back about u and the thing gets worse and worse.

honestly, the purpose of a tagboard is for random ppl to leave comments. unfortunately, there are only two types of comments; good or bad. we cannot do anything about it. unless we dun blog lorz.. or change to private. retaliating will only make the matter worse.

to all my frenz, take care. to u , well if u still treat us as frenz ba.
ps: elaine is really a gd fren. even though she is young. i nv say she is correct or wrg but u shd noe elaine better to trust her.
randomly read some stuffs online jus now.

Hmm.

Men; a love-hate relationship we feel about them.

we love them for their affection they hav for us, the way they make us feel about ourselves(positive ones), the security that they are able to provide, the way the look at u differently from others tt u know u r the only wan. the way they want to do everything for u( generally speaking), the way they care for u tt is different from how they treat ppl in general. the way u noe tt they already tried their very best to let u feel loved( or at least makes u feel tt way).

we hate them for not being sensitive enough, or at least to know tt we are not alright at times even if we say "nth." they will nv learn tt there is actually sth in tt "nth". they will not probe further, enough to get us to tok about what is wrg. we can't understand why they jus cant listen long enough to understand what is wrg. they jus dun understand why we will get angry or jealous when some girls get too near to them. they will think tt we are being unreasonable, because to them the girl is nth so even in close proximate they dun really take note and dun really care. ( but u will care if some guys stand close or tok to us rite? bingo its the same.)

haiz. troublesome huh?

Man and woman. we are totally different.
we are from a different universe, with different point of views, different outlook, different beliefs, okie, i am repeating i noe. but the point is why can ppl with some much different genetically, emotionally, physically, mentally, be attracted to each other? omg! its more of lyk 2 worlds clashing together. yeap.

man out there. listen carefully. we women are highly emotional creatures. we tink less logically and more emotionally. thus most of the time our tinking will be overruled by our emotions. to a man, it may be a bad ting cuz then it leads to us being mistakenly jealous over some small actions of urs but well, being emotional leads us to empathise with ppl easily, good and bad, cuz we may get cheated or the good thing will be we feel more about certain issues and it also leads us to be more sensitive than man. we will noe someting is wrg even before u say it out.

when we love a man, we will try to do everything to make u happy, feel proud of us.(even if its not everything, its almost there). jus a little appreciation will go a long way in making our day.
no appreciation? we will feel lost, not appreciated as the time goes by, lose interest and well, u wont wan to know the end.

we noe man tinks logically. too logically sometimes, most of the time in fact tt they lost their emotions, tink more like a machine then a human. tts why most almost all mathematicians, occupations tt requires tonnes of formulaes and calculations are topped by man.
but if we start to talk the way like u guys do, wun u feel wierd, pissed or hurt? because some tings in a relationship especially, cannot be answered logically, cuz in this cause logic hurts, sometimes badly. cuz its blunt, straight and unfeeling. so when toking to the opposite sex, especially ur girl, pls tink before u speak. it jus takes a few seconds and u will be taken as a great sensitive guy. why not? a new-age guy perhaps?

okie thanks for listening to my rantings, but well, its not anyhow write wan okie. go read more if u tink i am wrong.






okie. this is the real ranting part. dun read cuz it may be boring.
the below are all general stuffs. not toking about anyone. jus my opinions and feelings.

i will be very pissed if my bf scold mi in front of other ppl especially my frens or his frens. no exceptions! ( u can scold mi IF I AM WRG when we are alone. tell mi wad i do wrg and i will apologise and not do again. u wan to save face wad about mi? it reads the same and wad will others tink? )

totally pissed if u throw vulgarities at mi in front of others.
(it will not reflect good on u and if there is a first time, there will be a second time, third time...)

i will not make a big fuss in a public place cuz i noe u will be pissed. and in front of ur frenz even if they dun say u will not feel good too. i value my reputation in the public as much as u do. thus even if i want to be more headstrong then u, it will be when we are alone. as u said before, guys have a standard stronger image to potray outside and i agree with u. ( sorry if i translate abit funny cuz its in chinese and i lazy to change language) :)
but a small wan okie larz, hee, as long as its not too loud, over the limit its interesting once in a while. :)

respect is very important between couples and its one of the basic building blocks of a healthy, great relationship.




Elaine, i noe alot of things happen and u are down. dun worry, all will be well soon. jus take care, dun tink so much and work and play ur time away ba. at least better then tink and tink rite? will go down and find u when i hav the time. take care gal. have a good week end. :)

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

so its all as such

人的一生都在认识新事故,新环境,新朋友。从一个不懂得分辨是非的黄毛丫头,慢慢学习认别对错与是否。

人人都有朋友,新的,旧的,要好的,不熟悉的。但你有多认识他们呢?

看了那么多,听了这么多,想,拼,了解了才发现,原来大家都一样。人性本是如此。好人的定义何在呢?大家都有偏见的。不完美者方为“人”。无论你是小孩或大人,甚至年长者都一样。

有时候,你以为这一群朋友看似感情深厚,但却又不是如此。在一起是因环境的共同,群体的一种需求。 从外表上看似平静, 但私底下却零乱复杂。甲嫌乙的一些举动,乙嫌甲谈话上的无知, 丙和丁却对彼此有着同样的偏见。

从不同的角度与观点来看,他们是对的,却也是错的。乱吧?

其实有很多事都处于灰色地带, 不对,应该是像“道” 的标制一样,阴阳及是相隔, 但也相承。

写到这里,我看我的思路也乱了。 想说的话不是言语笔墨所能形容的。只能说古人云;“人不为己, 天诛地灭。” 一点也没错。

Man are creatures of curiosity.

sometimes you dun lyk someting but u are nt allow to voice out as it would unfortunately cause a butterfly effect tt could seriously injure u too. badly. so u've got no choice but to keep quiet.

sometimes u tink this person could be trusted so u tell him ur problem or opinion and in the end, boo! u get stabbed and the same others thought u are the bad one, no clarifications, u have totally no clue about ur injustice death.

原来大家都口不对心。

Monday, November 17, 2008

HaPpY 24th biRthDae Hubbiihoney!!!

hubbii de 24th bdae, hee.

reaccount:
majong on the 14th nite, haha
slpt till 3plus on 15th, went to plaza singapura with kor, boon, and co.
ate at cafe cartel, then up to the arcade for some fun.
darling caught a kitty keychain for mi cuz i failed to do so. haha, thx muacks.
a few of them were hard at work at the sweets machine, haha- the craze of jackpot.
played at the basketball machine with the girls, the guys were reminiscencing their childhood at the soccer machine( the wan lyk bbqing satays while playing de)
bought the bbq stuffs at carrefour, and off we went to jurong for our prawning session.

darling prawn first so i try to catch some small fish from the pond for his bait. haha, its damn fun lorz. me and prisy jie was lyk looking and looking at the surface of the pond and then a sudden scoop and up came the net and a fish or 2 . but at first we are too slow and they got away. prisy jie came up with a slogan, yan ming shou kuai, see-aim-pounce! haha, we look so funny tt the employers there tot we catching prawns with the net lorz. lol.

haha, its also the first time i see prawning also can drink so many bottles of beer, lyk more then a box lorz.. lol

long time nv see seetin le, tok to her bout lots of things, haha. ur desmond super ka po arhz. haha, hope to see ur baby soon.

darling thank everyone for their bdae prezzies! :) and a unique bdae celebration !!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

much better

feeling much better leh, except for the coughing. kept coughing till there's blood at a certain point when i spit the phlegm out. yewww!

it rained the whole day today and guess wad? haha, i slpt till 5 plus and tot its only 2 plus lol. darling also slpt in till quite late hee. thx to him( my warmer) so i did not feel cold in the nite. love u so much darling!

a few days later jiu shi darling de birthday le, haha, celebrating it by going prawning with quite a big group of frenz, at least darling can enjoy prawning, bbq, and the company of his bros, even those tt cant go drink. :P hmm, wad should we buy for bbq.

darling's favourite! haha
1. cheese hotdogs lots of it.
2. hotdogs
3. bacons/ sausages
4. sweet potatoes/corns
5. sotong balls hee
6. marshmallows
7. bring lotsa salt for the prawns (always not enough de ) lol
of cuz with butter, satay sticks and plates etc, tissues
oh, ah boon say he will bring crabs ? lol , bbq nice arhz? haha..

hee we'll go ah ping's shop opening first, shopping, then buy food to bbq then reach the prawning place :) cant wait.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

sick Sick SICK!

haiz, sick from 4th evening till now. and tml is our 21st month-iversary.
jus great man.

and guess wad? darling is sick together will mi too. haiz.. poor guy.

darling said is i spread to him de, then i say dun slp beside mi lorz, and he replied, ai yah, then we yi qi shen bing lorz.( then we sick together lorz in chinese) uber sweetness, love u darling.

but i tink its also a good thing ba, a blessing in disguise? but a very xin ku de blessing lorz. hee

darling cook hot water for mi, i cook mian sian for darling, we sneeze together, coop inside the bedroom without the fan together. headache together, darling still turn ard to pamper mi abit, to tell mi he is still with mi. darling heat up the food for mi, wash the dishes, and we took turns so the other can rest. hee, wo meng yi qi tong gan gong ku... :)

DARLING, THX FOR EVERYTHING, I LOVE U ! (i noe i tell u tis almost every day every few hrs but tis true u noe.)

going to bed le, update when i feel better.
tata!

Monday, November 3, 2008

well, a summary of my days.

went wild wild wet with pel and her baby, meiling and pel's neighbours.
had a great fun. lyk meiling said, its lyk an excursion haha. ( ya teacher meiling!!)

went to try the u-shaped thingy( i dunno wad its called) and i screamed lyk hell( hey, its common of me k, cuz i am very afraid of heights and not to mention falling down from it.)

meiling laughed at mi after we went down. nvm at least i dun get urinated on 2 times, horz meiling? hee...


went prawning too, with alan, kor and many more. i tink almost the whole gang turned up. haha.
caught a few prawns yeah! happy-face!

oh yah, the bbq, u noe wad? someone forgot to buy butter, lol... so we bbq the hotdogs dry. lol. lyk survival cooking. haha


accompanied darling to terry's hse. the guys play majong and we played blackjack. was very slow haha till pel keep rushing mi. sry larz, cuz i dunno how to count somemore with A's. whether its 1, 10, or 11. haha, blur. almost eveery time A's is with mi, i will get 7 , 3, 2, 5, and nv 10, or picture. sianz...


haiz, i sense some communication misunderstandings. cuz someone told mi the secret tt we talk was somehow leaked out. but there was only us few. and they are a close-knitted group. i fear they will tink it was mi, cuz nobody will tink its the other two marz, and i dun tink its them too, but it also wasnt mi cuz i told nobody, not even darling which i sometimes will if the content is still okie okie, lyk some gossips between mi and s buddy. haiz, i noe they are trying to find out its who but dunno why they nv ask mi or they tink its mi already or something? i also dun dare to go and kapo already later make everything worse. or maybe they dun wan to malign(is this the spelling) mi or something cuz haven prove is who? haiz. very confusing, i dun wan to lose friendships.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

WHY?

u came to mi, smiled, bringing back all tt memories that had became blurred.

it all seems so vivid now, as i helplessly remember all the times that we spent together,
i hate to admit but every single detail was harshly put in place.

sch; u and ur frenz teasing mi ard the stairs; the bridge; the bus trip home; u and yf de siaoing manfred when he is giving us drills; u playing bball; shopping; eating; cabs; calls in the middle of the night; msges; the exact words tt u told mi tt made mi redo my experiment in AVA. those words still does haunt mi.

i haven been looking at ur profile for ages, cuz u are already a past, sweet but bitter at the end.
if i had thought abt u, i could not even put a face to ur name already.

but why have u came back to mi so sudden?

i dun seem to comprehend.

is it becuz i hav been feeling uptight recently?

is it becuz the first is always hardest to forget?

or is it,

is its becuz

deep down in my heart

i am still struggling to find an answer?

an answer tt u owe mi from yr 2 till now?

an answer tt i need to forget about u completely which u denied mi?

maybe jus maybe

wo bu gan xin.

wo bu gan xin jiu zhe yang si le, wo bu gan xin si de bu ming bu bai, bu gan xin zhe muo ming qi miao de an pai, bu gan xin ni de yi ju: " when the time comes, you will know." ba bu zhi tou xu de wo ta xia le di yu.

can ren de ni que bu duo jia jie shi.

i wanted to hate u, but i couldnt.

at least u taught mi sth, u let mi understand that ai qing bu shi dan chun de, yong yuan bu hui.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

haiz, today suppose to go meet angeline. but cuz ytd watch the coffin, then slpt till 8 plus in the morning darling wake up then i dun dare to slp le cuz darling went to work and i am lyk all alone at home.

whenever i closed my eyes i will tink of the movie scenes so i decided to play psp till i am so tired to tink of other things and fell aslp. woke up at ard 4pm with stomach cramps. wth. maybe i ate sth wrg or sth. haiz, cancelled my date with angeline and stayed at home, surfing net, doing my stuffs online.

called darling cuz i tot he might be going fishing with his buddies, turned out no, they are going prawning and darling will go join them later.haiz, but darling nv ask mi whether i wanna join so i keep quiet.

have been wanting to go prawning since ages but since nobody is going so well, no go lorz. i tot darling will onli go there lyk 9 plus cuz he say he go there tok tok awhile then will be back. jus called him and he is already there. haiz. sad.

asked him how come there so early and nv ask mi whether i wan to go, have he forgotten i keep asking him tt i want to go prawning for lyk ages long ago?

he replied," i nv prawn wad, i only here watch them, u also nv say u wan to come larz."

but i told u uber lots of times i wanna go prawning wad, u forgot?

and he replied," i tot u meeting ur fren? how i noe u nv meet them u at home?"

but u nv ask wad, if u ask mi then even if i got meet my frenz or not i will still go wad.

then u enjoy lorz, bye.

and he said," then u ownself angry lorz."

wad is this lorz? i called u 2 times today and u nv even mentioned t mi, u jus tell mi U are going to watch them later. i ask when? u say after work. BUT u nv ask mi whether i wan to go or not wad. lyk tt how i dare to ask u if i could go or not? if later i did ask and u say( as usual most of the time u replied mi this way) " ai yah, u stay at home larz k, i very fast come back liao." then how?

then wouldnt i be dissappointed again? then i will feel more sad rite? tts why i nv ask, tts why i only hint but nv ask direct. till now u still dun understand mi?

i rmb once telling u that among all my relationships, together with u makes mi the happiest gal in the world. but my happiest times are becuz of u. ironically, my saddest moments are also becuz of u. i am so confused so tired. i dun wan to be sad anymore with u.

but u told mi in the eyes tt becuz you make mi the happiest of cuz when compared equally, when i am sad becuz of u, it will be always my saddest moment.

i am hurt tt u said those words to mi. " ni zi ji angry lorz, bye."

it shows tt u dun understand mi at all.

i am sad because u forgot wad i said. period.
not cuz of anything.

Friday, October 24, 2008

omg!

omg omg OMG!!!

ELAINE HATES MI !
ELAINE HATES MI !
ELAINE HATES MI !
ELAINE HATES MI !

what what???

" I HATE SHERYL!
I HATE SHERYL!
I HATE SHERYL!
I HATE SHERYL!
I HATE SHERYL!
*
*
*
*
Elaine Hate Sheryl so much, as why she can read out whats my thinking easily.
Elaine: sheryl, I think......... *forget it, don say out better.
Sheryl: I know, you gonna tell me you like XXX. right?
Elaine: Jitao *blur* LOL. I din even tell you what i'm trying to say lehs.
"

LOL! not my fault lehz, able to noe what u are tinking
even before u voice it out not good mehz?
huh huh huh ???

hee, u dun hate mi larz, is u too shock beyond words nia haha... i forgive u , lol!

:)

Monday, October 20, 2008

techno craze

watched eagle eye with darling and frenz.
gd show which i rate 9/10. :)

the plot is predictable somehow,
somewhere from the scene where the mysterious caller showed jerry and racheal tt she indeed had all info that she knew about them. (from the numerous tv screens in a certain room).
thus my suspect changes from an incredulous cyber terrorist, to aileen, the eagle eye.

ha! talk about how man created powerful machines, to aid us in our quest to take over the universe, only to end up almost nearly killing everyone. aileen actually can even have human manipulation powers, where she can trick jerry into impostering ethan, to unlock her. power lorz.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

i noe, my blog is lyk totally dying soon.

okie okie guys, i ma kinda busy u noe, roadshows, work, sick, stressed,
but i did accompanied my frenz and darling out in the little time tt i had larz.

hmm, not in order but jus a very brief update:

went out to eat with chin boon at serangoon gardenssome days ago i tink , the food is awesome!
then headed down to AMK for signing, yes, waited for my client for uber long hrs.lol
yah not to mention he fly mi aeroplane the day before so i stayed in PH to acc elaine, feryln, alicia, amelia, audrey. cheryl and cheryl's fren. did i miss anywan out lol?
oh yah, PH tt nite was so packed tt nite, so many things happened but its alrite, i wun mention it here, but nevertheless its F-U-N man! been a few light yrs since i last stepped in there, i tink its with staciy and the RX-8 guy tt i forgot his name and gang. lol

went jalan at far east plaza after work and ended up doing retail therapy, erm, i tink 1 week ago ba. spent 100+ at osmose and guess who i bumped into there, uber shockness! to tink tt i nv see her face to face for lyk 2 yrs( yah only photos) and there she is suddenly when i came out of the changing room. wth, at places which she frequent also nv bump into, but at osmose?!?!?! wad kinda world is this? stunned but nvm, its not lyk she can stare at mi and i will die marz, so i proceed to choosing my purchases yap and i called darling to whine too, cuz i jus feel lyk at tt moment. haha, power!

met elaine at her counter whenever i hav the time. elaine, see how good i am to u lol, slap mi ba, hahaha. pei her eat dinner etc, tok and gossip, recollecting the past lol. nth to do marz. oh yah, she gave mi a lip cream/lip balm from kose, her free make-up, the perfect antidote for mi chap lips, okie larz, not so chap but cuz i used to using lip balms le, and it totally became my favourite liao okie!
then we went to far east to find cheryl and alicia, and guess wad we did again? no prizes though, haha shopping lorz. lol. elaine wanted to find the kimono tt alicia bought but no luck, haha ended with eating at KFC. topics tt we talk made us laugh till side pain sia.

sun went out with my darling biibii, and his frenz, first stop to eat, which pardon mi for forgetting where. then to JP arcade, why? to catch bear bear! haha, the sweeeeetz machine. u noe the jackpot machine where u keep digging out sweets then pile them up to push the sweets in front etc then jackpot and a big soft toy will be yours? haha, yap, and darling got for mi a big big winnie the pooh ard half my size lol, and a mickey and minnie weddings pillow, pink satin and lace, haha i lyk. bleah. after tt darling went fishing and he took mi along. happy face+bliss :)
watch them catch fish and gossip with nichole and steph. as usual :)

3 consecutive days of rdshows at the interchange spells T-I-R-I-N-G! u try and see lorz, no aircon, ppl rejecting u tinking they noe all abt ins when they dun noe abit, the "talk-to-my-hand signals", and i hate J***S. i just reach rdshow and u spoil my mood. u are a godamn manager (thank god not my manager) and u shd jolly well know tt if u spoil the consultant's mood how is she going to face the strangers out there and still smile and be motivated? wtf larz u. and my whole day for the roadshow is spoiled and i had fcuking paid money u noe, PAID MONEY FOR IT HORZ! (sry for the vulgarities cuz i am very angry writing this)

tts about it i guess.

nxt i will upload the long overdued photos i promise. lol

Friday, October 10, 2008

random array of photos tt i dug out:)

Edna and mi at seetin's wedding day.



















Vivian and mi during work way long ago.















Tia and mi @soup spoon















when i still had my curls....



















took on the morning of seetin and desmond's wedding















the bros got sabotaged. haha















"marry mi will ya? "















Brenda and mi @ her birthdae chalet















brenda's baby boy :)















ME! When i am ard 3 or 4 i tink. haha



















mi @ chalet; minimum make-up!





















Steph and mi on our way to wild wild wet.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

lol.

outing with darling

hee, finally darling hav some time for mi!

woke up ard 11 plus 12 o'clock to bath , make up, and woke darling up at ard 1pm.
went to tiong bahru plaza for the movie CONNECTED. its lyk the chinese version of CELLULAR.
someone kinda kidnapped for no reason. randomly called some guy to plead for help. asking him not to not to NOT TO put down the phone. so the fguy hav no choice but to help and investigate blah blah blah...

Ate at sakae sushi, its a long time since we last tasted its delicacy lol. say until lyk macham hotel food lyk tt. shopped ard for bling bling for darling's car. actually i wan go arab street buy de but then nvm ba. darling say no need so jus buy normal de.

went home at ard 7pm or so, cuz darling got a dinner at nite. his brother's fren wedding. haiz, so mi jiu guai guai stay at home do my things after helping him dress for the wedding lorz. FUN hee. :)

haha, such a short post.
alot of photos lehz, but cannot upload. wait for mi yah?

Thursday, September 25, 2008

a true story to be told.

i was living my life happily, saddness were fast forgotten when jus ytd, sth blow mi off. i wun say wad it is but its huge, to mi at the very least.

do u all have friends or friend's friends who unfortunately is female and oh-so unfortunately is your bf's friend or your bf's friend's friend? confusing huh?

Hav u been silently disapproving them for their actions but still keep quiet?
(cuz the way they behave is just wrg and u noe it cuz tt guy tt they are closed to or seemingly very close to, FORTUNATELY but very unfortunately to them, has a gf.)

to me, i'll keep my calm till the very day when they crossed the line. yes, the limit.

Everyone everything has a limit. if your tested them, you'll be hit back HARD for sure.

but these girls lyk to challenge. they dun mind having scandals, they do incredulous things for god know wad in turn they will get back- money( this is the least nowadays), more of branded stuffs, expensive gifts, jewelleries, even trips! some even get emotions back. the poor gf.

Now i am going to tell all of u a true story. if the gal, happens to read it from here, haha, so be it. its true, i am not faking it,i dun hav the need to, and i really feel tt its time to get it off my heart.

**(names hav been changed to protection the poor gf and bf, (or u can say they are already husband and wife, and ppl linked to them)**

Emmy- bernard's wife to be
Bernard- Emmy's husband to be
Wendy- The girl in question ( i am being polite) tt "Princess"
Alicia- Emmy's colleague/ friend
John- Alicia's bf / casual friend of Wendy
Lorraine- knows Wendy long time ago/ Emmy and Alicia's friend

Emmy, Alicia and Lorraine work together in the same company. when they are bored, they'll gossip around, chat about their own happiness or they problems. solutions will be thought of together, sorrows shared.

one day, Emmy was sharing that recently, her bf, Bernard keep staying out late, msging other ppl, their feeling for each other was somehow not on the right track. then she saw the msgs were to a gal stated in his handphone as " princess" .
they were a happy family, with her child and all, nice and sweet. but things arent right anymore. she did some digging and found the gal to be called Wendy. some descriptions, and abit of this abit of tt.

Alicia was unhappy too. doubts surround her. she had seen some very close photo of her bf, John and a person name Wendy too. but she keep quiet. it was until the photos and caption seems to read very wrong, lyk they were a couple, she told her friends, Emmy and Lorraine about it.

after toking to Emmy, Alicia realize something, (because Alicia has seen Wendy before due to the places tt Wendy will appear), they may be the same person. so tt means if Wendy is having some emotional play with Bernard, tt means she is not with John, or the other way round.

Lorraine then blurted out, i noe her, i got her on friendster. so she gave her friendster password to Alicia and Emmy. they checked and yes, its the same person. how bizzare can this be. the world is tt small. haha. all thanks to friendster.

the details of the nabbing i wont say much cuz it would easily give the couple away. all i can say is becuz of good old timely rescue,their relationship was safe, and they are now happily wed.

as to that Wendy? well, she is still out there, preying on other guys, and yes, gifts, hugs, scandals and all. its true.

(its great knowing frenz who club frequently. u get all the info u need cuz tt gal thrives in these sleazy, clubbing, boozing environment)

Monday, September 22, 2008

i miss my sweet sweet darling

darling is so tired nowadays when he reach home.
after his bath or after eating wad i heated up or cook for him,
he would almost immediately fall aslp in bed in ard 10 to 15 mins.
so although my darling is still at home accompanying mi,
i still miss him, his attentiveness, his cheekiness, conversing with him.
but i noe its not his fault, he's jus tired out the whole day working.
i miss my babykins, loves...

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

i dun understand

Actually i dunno wad i wan to tok about in this post, i jus feel lyk blabbering, and its lyk getting out of point, too far away. i tink all i wanna noe is the question at the end of this post ba. lol

ask u a question:

if u say u dun feel lyk going somewhere, u dun wan to go blah blah...

will u still go ?

well, strictly speaking, i dun understand AT ALL.

why will anyone still go after saying he doesnt feel lyk, he dun wan to, he sian of going?

okie okie, i noe.
sometimes we hav to do some "patronising" u noe as in sometimes u dun wan to but its ur frenz, ur clients, ur bosses..
well, but not everytime u hav to rite?
i mean yes, u hav to give face or so but u hav to balance it out rite?
ppl ask u but YOU hav the right to say no rite?
no wan can get a knife and ask u to go rite?

i noe u already rejected some frenz when they ask u to go out but then haiz, cuz u said tt u would be long today and its with ur long forgotten fren 3 guys only so thus i hav no say.

then i call and msg u ard 3 plus and u said u were still drinking.
okie then i called at 4 30am cuz rmbing u said u wont be back very late today, and u did not reply the rest of my msg and frankly speaking, i got worried u noe? cuz its lyk i dun even noe ur tt fren. 2 msges and 2 calls, and all i got back was "darling i at fly."

seriously i dun lyk it. so if i dun call and msg u i dun even noe where u r.
i am not allowed to go to fly or ph on my own, (actually tt included most of tt kin of places) or with my frenz, unless i am going with ur frenz or u.
But u can go everywhere and i almost always hav no say. if i say anything, it will be equivelant to nothing said cuz you'll be lyk ,"wad, ai yah, i not go look for girls or wad, jus out to relax u need to lyk tt meh?" but when i say the same thing i will get shot by u totally. ya TOTALLY. dun get me started on ur black face, ur tone change and ur sarcarsm.

I noe u are worried when i go such places, u dun wan anything to happen to mi, but i dun wan anything to happen to u too. i get worried too. u told mi stories about fights etc, ur frenz when drunk will agitate ppl to come and get going then a fight occures. i really thank you for telling mi all these at least i noe wad happen when u are outside, seriously thank you cuz i dun wanna be lyk others who dun noe a thing cuz their bfs dun tell them cuz they dun wan their gfs to worry.
but for mi, i wan to noe all these, cuz wad if something big happened, serious stuffs,(of cuz i will do anything for you to be safe and sound but jus wad if), i dun wan to live only in the happy moments tt we shared and then all of a sudden the phone rings and someone said," sheryl, come to the hospital qiuck, NOW!" PS: I DUN WAN TO BE THE BLUR GF, I WAN TO AS LEAST IF SOMETHING HAPPEN I HAVE SOME CLUES AS TO WAD IT IS GONNA BE, I DUN WAN TO BE STUNNED. well, if u ppl noe wad i mean.

okie, i tink i got alittle to far over.
but well, i need a life too, jus as u do.

can someone clue mi in as to how i get go out party with my frenz without him thinking i jus wanna play and ditching mi in the end?
haiz

The AIG turmoil

The post below is all according to my opinion, not meant to harm anyone nor organisation. :)

what will u tink of if ppl tells u about AIG?

Wow; grand; insurance; good place to work in; money rollling in... etc, all the good stuffs i guess.
Cuz its a insurance giant, with humongous earnings and influence ard the world. Tell mi, who does know wad is AIG?

since the Lehman brother bankurpcy, Merill Lynch buy over by the Bank of America, AIG was hit lyk nv before,yup in fact nv ever before. It was in danger of collapsing.

ppl in singapore, well, being fearful of their monies turning to the word "default", had since frantically rushed to AIA ( which is linked to AIG) to terminate their policies, getting back wad was left even if they would make a loss in doing so. haha typical huh? :)

friends have been asking me, "so how? muz terminate my AIA policies not? later no money how? later they collapse my monies cannot take back liao leh!", " transfer my investments over to your side larz, better horz?"

haha, actually not really larz, as i told them, AIG wun fall tt easily. Organisations will need to help her. why? AIG is too big, the influence is too great a presence. if they dun do sth, and AIG really falls, the impact will hit back at them de. so they need to save AIG to save themselves, to a certain extent. :) and with such bad news, almost every investments lyk the shares, money markets, futures will be affected de. u jus hav to wait and give thm time to revive.

now the question is only how long can they save AIG?

and when will the subprime crisis, mortgage related crisis end?

are we safe from the financial crisis?

Friday, September 12, 2008

totally no mood

ate E*, meses came early, haven recovered from my sickness, and the cramps added on to the heavy load tt i am carrying.

SH*TTY. i dun lyk this feeling.
dun really noe wad i am toking, dun really noe why i do some things, have no mood to do things, slp on bed also cant slp. wad is this?

darling ytd came back and say i am lazy. okie fine. u can say everything u wan.

darling came back home straight ytd, i tot darling came back to pei mi( cuz i told him i am feeling unwell) , but then i realize he came home early to slp, ate a midazolam pill and knocked off unconscious liao.
BEST, jus when i need all the care and concern, i jus got several pat on the head or thigh and u arent even looking at mi.

The words tt u spatted at mi ytd at fly was still vividly echoing in my mind; "you tink i dunno you ? you just wan to come out and play marz... you just wan to come out and play marz... you tink i dunno you ? you just wan to come out and play marz... you just wan to come out and play marz... come out and play marz... you tink i dunno you... jus wan to come out and play marz... play marz play marz play marz....."

Dun blame mi, i cant get rid of tt echo, its already locked in my subconsciuos mind.

When i asked u why u said all those words, you said," ai yah, you noe marz, i angry marz, angry so say until lyk tt lar..."

Angry can say until lyk tt larz.
angry means everything okie larz, angry means got excuse arh?
then how come i angry with u (and tts when i got the rite reason too) i cannot say u until lyk tt larz?
Come to tink of tt, only when pplis angry then say de words is abit strong but almost true, straight from the heart. so when we are together for so long, in my heart there is only u allowed in, this is wad i get; wad u actually think of me?

I noe u are a chivanistic male but then had u even given a thought to mi, jus once?
i noe when u are angry u will spat hurtful words, even nonsense, but have you even thought wad these seemingly harmless words to u could do to mi? Dont u learnt after all these times we hav been together?

someone once said to mi, we cant blame guys for being lyk tt, its all because we girls spoilt them, thus we cant blame them totally.

well, i guess its true.
i promise myself i willl change, i dun wan to be lyk staciy and zc.
i wan us to be forever.
do u ?

Thursday, September 11, 2008

why mus u treat mi lyk tt.?

well, its a long story i guess.

in short:

was out meeting my client at safra mt faber.

elaine asked mi to go powerhouse with her, alicia, cheryl, evon and co.
asked darling the nite before but he got angry thus i cant go.
then elaine say they will go fly look for mi thus i msg darling tt if he going fly call mi i wan go to.

( it has been ages since i last went clubbing and becuz evon they all will be there thus i am really tempted. but darling said no, cuz he say power house alot of guys go there looking for 1 nite stand and drugging cases alot thus darling ban mi from going. but then i say i go before le, okie wad, there all xiao di di , nvm larz, i am so not interested but he still insisted no. so okie lorz. he go illuzion opening and i went back home.)

then ard twelve plus darling msg mi ask mi to go get dressed cuz he coming back to fetch mi go fly. of cuz i happy larz, quickly go dress and wait for him to come and fetch mi.
reached illuzion to settle some problem, then go fly.

msg elaine to ask her to come but dunno for wad reason she dun wan come. ask mi to go over,so i ask darling lor.

and darling said, " why u muz go ph find her, why cannot she come here find u?"

i say, " i dunno, she dun wan come, say fly very sian, i go over awhile nia can?"

darling retorted," y she dun wan come u muz go over?she very big arh? i already bring u here liao, actually i dun want to come de, wan go home liao, but u wan come so i bring come. then now wan lyk tt arhz?"

so i resign to fate tt i cannot go so i sat down and type my feelings into my phone msg, somewhat hiding cuz i dun wan other ppl to see wad i typing cuz i dun wan other ppl to know i sad or we quarrel or sth. then darling fiercely look at me and say," msg who, why muz hide? cannot let ppl see arh huh?

in shock, i replied," i nv msg anywan, i am typing my feelings down only cuz i noe i cant cry here."

taking a tissue out to save my glistering eyes, i told him tt i wan to go toilet becuz i noe he is a MCP, he wun lyk it if i cry in the dancefloor, and i dun wan to make him lose face.

he said to mi again fiercely," go toilet for wad? dun cry here hor, u cry here next time i wont bring u here anymore."

and i said," cuz i dun wan to let u lost face and i dun wan to cry here, thats why i need to go to the toilet to relieve myself, calm myself down."


after he nodded then i went.
meilan jia came after mi to look over.
i broke down in the toilet for a brief moment, i felt trapped, confused and sad.

why cant i go anywhere i want. its not lyk i am alone. i am with my frenz. and its once in a blue moon. ONCE IN A BLUE MOON! u r in fly, its only next door, i will be back in ard 15 to 20 mins. but u dun allow. i forgot its before i went into the toilet or after i came out u said to mi, dun msg elaine already, AND I DID NOT/ WAS NOT.
THEN U SUDDENLY SAY," U JUS WANT TO COME OUT AND PLAY MARZ, U ARE OUT ALREADY LORZ, U WAN TO GO FIND ELAINE THEN GO LORZ, I BRING U OVER LORZ, GO LARZ, STAND UP AND GO LORZ..." when :
1.i am already calming myself down,
2.not hoping to go look for elaine and evon they all already,
3.knowing tt u will get angry if i go,
4.not wanting u to be angry with mi,
5.wanting only to enjoy myself with u there.

darling, if u really tink i will or i want to make u lose face at fly ytd,
let mi tell u now tt ytd at fly:

i wanted purely to meet up with my frenz only, coincidentally its at powerhouse. ( i haven meet evon for lyk 6 mths at least le)
i wanted not to be sad after u say i cannot go fly so i secretly type down my feelings all into my phone. (but u accuse mi of msging others)
i wanted to not let u lose face but i noe i am about to tear and cry already thus i wanted to go to the toilet. (but u wun let mi go, and u scolded mi tt if i cry at fly u wun bring mi again with u)
i wanted to forget everything liao and u aggitate mi and say 'go lorz, i bring u over go larz, go larz...'

if ur frenz ever noe ( i tink they all noe le ba) we had a quarrel at fly rite, its all because u let them see, NOT MI, seriously (if u tink again, i was trying very hard to not let ppl noe, TO STUPIDLY HELP U TO SAVE FACE BUT U PRACTICALLY SCOLDED MI IN FRONT OF THEM)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

antibiotics sucks

yucks, i'm still on medication.
and they totally sucks.
the worst-ever-biter-ever pills i hav ever eaten.
haiz, at home waiting for darling to return home from his fren's bday celebration.
he said he wont be long so i gladly waited for him to come home.
then there came a msg to say tt he will be late back but wont be drunk. okie, was suppose to wait for him to come back and eat together but now i'll hav to prepare my own food, cuz the medication is after food. haiz.
ate, struggled not to vomit again, giddy, lay down on bed, played psp.

darling finally called at ard 5 plus and ask mi whether i wan to eat. so i said no, but ask him to buy fishermen's fren extra strong mints back cuz i totally depend on THAT when i am on medication.

guess wad he did? he bought the rite wan, but bought another packet of citrus twist for he said he always see mi eat tt and so he bought another wan jus in cause the first pack is the wrg wan.
LOL.
"but i tot i said i wan strong mints wad? only got 1 extra strong wan nia wad..." i said.
then tt cheeky baby of mine said," ai yah, ur darling scare buy wrg marz, see i so good, where got ppl scare buy wrg de, only mi lorz. so ur hubbii is good horz?"

haiz, i tink arh, he high high on alcohol liao larz..
lol

Monday, September 8, 2008

uber sweetness

hee,
darling is very sweet to mi these few days.
although he still got go out relax with his frenz awhile larz, but he'll come back
and cook food for mi to eat before i take my med. :)
fried rice twice and drunk prawns and mee ytd, lol i eat abit only larz
but they are all super nice larz. delicious, finger-licking good. :)
shall upload the pics when darling come home. :P

Sunday, September 7, 2008

sick

haiz, i am sick lehz, help.
stay at home cant go out.
baby brought mi to the doctor on fri evening.
loads of med to eat. feel so shity.
after doctor visit we went to loyang pray.
lont time nv go le. :)
me and darling bought a new pair of flats each simple and nice.
home sweet home after tt.

these few days darling has been very sweet to mi. :)
cooked fried rice for mi when he reach home for 2 days hee.
thx baby darling. i love u.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

back from granny's hse

hehe, sry larz, i noe spidey's coming forming webs le. jus got back from my granny's hse in malaysia. haiz. rain rain and more rain. so damn sian nv shop much there cuz firstly there is not much time to shop, kluang is such a small place, and thirdly, yes, it keeps raining.

well, it feels good to go back to granny's hse once in a while. why? cuz i totally love grandpa's cooking. his dishes are utterly, ubsurdly, ridiculously, amazingly so delicious. U CANT KEEP TO A DIET IF U GOT TO TRY MY GRANDPA'S DISHES. that's a guarantee. :)

hear sth from my granny too. haha, the maid tt was suppose to take care of my baby cousin is lyk treating herself as if she is a princess at home lorz.
some of the things she did:
  1. my grandparents give her a hp for convinence sake and she totally take the thought for granted. she stole money to top up her prepaid card, ask my cousins' and grandpa to fetch her on motorcycle to go top up her card lyk every week at least( each time at least ard $10).
  2. tok on the phone for god knows how long, and dun wan to do things. take 100% she only did ard say 50%?
  3. ask my granny to switch on the tv she wan to watch show at certain time slots.
  4. watch tv till my baby cousin cry alrdy still dun wan to go attend to himm. my granny jus hav an operation on her leg and she took her crutches and walk slowly to go attend to the baby. (wad the fcuk?)
  5. borrow dvd from my younger cousin, and manage to watch finish the whole thing BEFORE my younger cousin finish the whole series. (my younger cousin alrdy hav lyk nothing to do alrdy cannot finish the dvd but SHE CAN FINISH BEFORE MY COUSIN???!!!)
  6. more arh, i so tired now dun wan to type liao. haiz...

read alrdy will angry not? but cannot change wad, if not hav to waste ard $7000 to hav a new wan lehz. so wait till her contract is up lorz. ll bo bian. haiz...

i tink i go slp liao tired.

bye.

Friday, August 29, 2008

redundance

went to sentosa to meet kong ju and her kids in the evening. ate steamboat and spent some time strolling along the beach before eading back to darling's hse.

darling called ard 10 plus to say tt he's going to meet tortoise to bring him his phone and then will be back for dinner. then i rushed back home, not forgetting to buy some food back to prepare for my dear darling.

arrived home, prepared the food and put them into the fridge tinking tt i will cook later when darling gets back ard 12 or 1 plus.

then the horror starts...

darling called to say he come back to change and is going to fly with his frenz?
i was lyk wad? u say u after meeting tortoise downstairs u will come back and i prepare everything waiting for u le. but he said nvm, i cook le then he come back then eat.

then when he reached home to change, i tried to either change his mind or to ask him bring mi along, but then he appeared very irritated. he jus told mi to"u stay at home larz." when i ask him," why u need to always go out with ur frenz de?" he jus said in a irritated tone, ai yah, u wan to tink lyk tt then u tink lyk tt lorz." and jus went out.

darling, i rush home buy things back to cook for u cuz u said u will be home. and i waited to be able to eat together with u. u noe how sad i am now? its lyk i put in alot of effort but u lyk dun even appreciate. I not dun wan u to go out but i really very disappointed u noe? And u jus now treat mi tt way.

sometimes i wan to do lots of things for u, wan to make u happy, then suddenly u say u not coming back, u noe how i feel?u ask urself, not the first time le rite? is it then u wan me to not put in so much effort in our relationship? becuz i cant feel tt u appreciate. ur fren juz ask and u can go meet them. u say say wan go le cannot reject. then y can reject mi?darling, i really very very sad.really. is this how u show mi u love mi?

then jus now u still show mi a very irritated face. shdnt i be the wan who shd be angry instead? but u xiong mi!

everytime u ask mi to go out, i got reject u marz? u always tell mi last min and i hav to cancel my plans jus to accomodate u, but i nv complain before. why i need to do so? cuz u are more impt. yes, u are more impt tts why i cancel my plans jus to make myself available for u. i do everything jus for u. i try to do alot of diff stuff for u, i go all out to show how much i love u, how much u meant to mi. u? wad did u do?

i dun need to do all these. all these juz make mi more busy and tired. but i do all becuz u meant everything to mi.

ask u alittle u will get irritated. if u wan mi to dun care about u, dun care wad u do, where u go, who u are with, how u feel, i can. u jus hav to give mi time to stop loving u. then i guess y life will be easier. ask staciy elaine they all, ask my colleagues, why everytime they ask mi go club i nv go? ask them and they will tell u its all becuz of u. becuz i dun wan u to worry, becuz i dun wan u to get angry, becuz i noe u dun lyk becuz u are everything to mi, becuz of u.

my world turns colorful becuz of u,my world turn dull becuz of u. my world turns bright becuz of u, my world turns pitch-black becuz of u. ALL BECUZ OF U.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

the post tt elaine requested a few days back :)

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Okie, so elaine, here is a hundred of ELAINEs for u. Happy? u better be lorz, later staciy and alicia see le will jealous and if i get bash up horz, is u hai mi de lorz. haha.lol
(jus joking, they wun do this de haha)

rushing out now, will come back to post more after i return home. :)