lol.

outing with darling

hee, finally darling hav some time for mi!

woke up ard 11 plus 12 o'clock to bath , make up, and woke darling up at ard 1pm.
went to tiong bahru plaza for the movie CONNECTED. its lyk the chinese version of CELLULAR.
someone kinda kidnapped for no reason. randomly called some guy to plead for help. asking him not to not to NOT TO put down the phone. so the fguy hav no choice but to help and investigate blah blah blah...

Ate at sakae sushi, its a long time since we last tasted its delicacy lol. say until lyk macham hotel food lyk tt. shopped ard for bling bling for darling's car. actually i wan go arab street buy de but then nvm ba. darling say no need so jus buy normal de.

went home at ard 7pm or so, cuz darling got a dinner at nite. his brother's fren wedding. haiz, so mi jiu guai guai stay at home do my things after helping him dress for the wedding lorz. FUN hee. :)

haha, such a short post.
alot of photos lehz, but cannot upload. wait for mi yah?

a true story to be told.

i was living my life happily, saddness were fast forgotten when jus ytd, sth blow mi off. i wun say wad it is but its huge, to mi at the very least.

do u all have friends or friend's friends who unfortunately is female and oh-so unfortunately is your bf's friend or your bf's friend's friend? confusing huh?

Hav u been silently disapproving them for their actions but still keep quiet?
(cuz the way they behave is just wrg and u noe it cuz tt guy tt they are closed to or seemingly very close to, FORTUNATELY but very unfortunately to them, has a gf.)

to me, i'll keep my calm till the very day when they crossed the line. yes, the limit.

Everyone everything has a limit. if your tested them, you'll be hit back HARD for sure.

but these girls lyk to challenge. they dun mind having scandals, they do incredulous things for god know wad in turn they will get back- money( this is the least nowadays), more of branded stuffs, expensive gifts, jewelleries, even trips! some even get emotions back. the poor gf.

Now i am going to tell all of u a true story. if the gal, happens to read it from here, haha, so be it. its true, i am not faking it,i dun hav the need to, and i really feel tt its time to get it off my heart.

**(names hav been changed to protection the poor gf and bf, (or u can say they are already husband and wife, and ppl linked to them)**

Emmy- bernard's wife to be
Bernard- Emmy's husband to be
Wendy- The girl in question ( i am being polite) tt "Princess"
Alicia- Emmy's colleague/ friend
John- Alicia's bf / casual friend of Wendy
Lorraine- knows Wendy long time ago/ Emmy and Alicia's friend

Emmy, Alicia and Lorraine work together in the same company. when they are bored, they'll gossip around, chat about their own happiness or they problems. solutions will be thought of together, sorrows shared.

one day, Emmy was sharing that recently, her bf, Bernard keep staying out late, msging other ppl, their feeling for each other was somehow not on the right track. then she saw the msgs were to a gal stated in his handphone as " princess" .
they were a happy family, with her child and all, nice and sweet. but things arent right anymore. she did some digging and found the gal to be called Wendy. some descriptions, and abit of this abit of tt.

Alicia was unhappy too. doubts surround her. she had seen some very close photo of her bf, John and a person name Wendy too. but she keep quiet. it was until the photos and caption seems to read very wrong, lyk they were a couple, she told her friends, Emmy and Lorraine about it.

after toking to Emmy, Alicia realize something, (because Alicia has seen Wendy before due to the places tt Wendy will appear), they may be the same person. so tt means if Wendy is having some emotional play with Bernard, tt means she is not with John, or the other way round.

Lorraine then blurted out, i noe her, i got her on friendster. so she gave her friendster password to Alicia and Emmy. they checked and yes, its the same person. how bizzare can this be. the world is tt small. haha. all thanks to friendster.

the details of the nabbing i wont say much cuz it would easily give the couple away. all i can say is becuz of good old timely rescue,their relationship was safe, and they are now happily wed.

as to that Wendy? well, she is still out there, preying on other guys, and yes, gifts, hugs, scandals and all. its true.

(its great knowing frenz who club frequently. u get all the info u need cuz tt gal thrives in these sleazy, clubbing, boozing environment)

i miss my sweet sweet darling

darling is so tired nowadays when he reach home.
after his bath or after eating wad i heated up or cook for him,
he would almost immediately fall aslp in bed in ard 10 to 15 mins.
so although my darling is still at home accompanying mi,
i still miss him, his attentiveness, his cheekiness, conversing with him.
but i noe its not his fault, he's jus tired out the whole day working.
i miss my babykins, loves...

i dun understand

Actually i dunno wad i wan to tok about in this post, i jus feel lyk blabbering, and its lyk getting out of point, too far away. i tink all i wanna noe is the question at the end of this post ba. lol

ask u a question:

if u say u dun feel lyk going somewhere, u dun wan to go blah blah...

will u still go ?

well, strictly speaking, i dun understand AT ALL.

why will anyone still go after saying he doesnt feel lyk, he dun wan to, he sian of going?

okie okie, i noe.
sometimes we hav to do some "patronising" u noe as in sometimes u dun wan to but its ur frenz, ur clients, ur bosses..
well, but not everytime u hav to rite?
i mean yes, u hav to give face or so but u hav to balance it out rite?
ppl ask u but YOU hav the right to say no rite?
no wan can get a knife and ask u to go rite?

i noe u already rejected some frenz when they ask u to go out but then haiz, cuz u said tt u would be long today and its with ur long forgotten fren 3 guys only so thus i hav no say.

then i call and msg u ard 3 plus and u said u were still drinking.
okie then i called at 4 30am cuz rmbing u said u wont be back very late today, and u did not reply the rest of my msg and frankly speaking, i got worried u noe? cuz its lyk i dun even noe ur tt fren. 2 msges and 2 calls, and all i got back was "darling i at fly."

seriously i dun lyk it. so if i dun call and msg u i dun even noe where u r.
i am not allowed to go to fly or ph on my own, (actually tt included most of tt kin of places) or with my frenz, unless i am going with ur frenz or u.
But u can go everywhere and i almost always hav no say. if i say anything, it will be equivelant to nothing said cuz you'll be lyk ,"wad, ai yah, i not go look for girls or wad, jus out to relax u need to lyk tt meh?" but when i say the same thing i will get shot by u totally. ya TOTALLY. dun get me started on ur black face, ur tone change and ur sarcarsm.

I noe u are worried when i go such places, u dun wan anything to happen to mi, but i dun wan anything to happen to u too. i get worried too. u told mi stories about fights etc, ur frenz when drunk will agitate ppl to come and get going then a fight occures. i really thank you for telling mi all these at least i noe wad happen when u are outside, seriously thank you cuz i dun wanna be lyk others who dun noe a thing cuz their bfs dun tell them cuz they dun wan their gfs to worry.
but for mi, i wan to noe all these, cuz wad if something big happened, serious stuffs,(of cuz i will do anything for you to be safe and sound but jus wad if), i dun wan to live only in the happy moments tt we shared and then all of a sudden the phone rings and someone said," sheryl, come to the hospital qiuck, NOW!" PS: I DUN WAN TO BE THE BLUR GF, I WAN TO AS LEAST IF SOMETHING HAPPEN I HAVE SOME CLUES AS TO WAD IT IS GONNA BE, I DUN WAN TO BE STUNNED. well, if u ppl noe wad i mean.

okie, i tink i got alittle to far over.
but well, i need a life too, jus as u do.

can someone clue mi in as to how i get go out party with my frenz without him thinking i jus wanna play and ditching mi in the end?
haiz

The AIG turmoil

The post below is all according to my opinion, not meant to harm anyone nor organisation. :)

what will u tink of if ppl tells u about AIG?

Wow; grand; insurance; good place to work in; money rollling in... etc, all the good stuffs i guess.
Cuz its a insurance giant, with humongous earnings and influence ard the world. Tell mi, who does know wad is AIG?

since the Lehman brother bankurpcy, Merill Lynch buy over by the Bank of America, AIG was hit lyk nv before,yup in fact nv ever before. It was in danger of collapsing.

ppl in singapore, well, being fearful of their monies turning to the word "default", had since frantically rushed to AIA ( which is linked to AIG) to terminate their policies, getting back wad was left even if they would make a loss in doing so. haha typical huh? :)

friends have been asking me, "so how? muz terminate my AIA policies not? later no money how? later they collapse my monies cannot take back liao leh!", " transfer my investments over to your side larz, better horz?"

haha, actually not really larz, as i told them, AIG wun fall tt easily. Organisations will need to help her. why? AIG is too big, the influence is too great a presence. if they dun do sth, and AIG really falls, the impact will hit back at them de. so they need to save AIG to save themselves, to a certain extent. :) and with such bad news, almost every investments lyk the shares, money markets, futures will be affected de. u jus hav to wait and give thm time to revive.

now the question is only how long can they save AIG?

and when will the subprime crisis, mortgage related crisis end?

are we safe from the financial crisis?

totally no mood

ate E*, meses came early, haven recovered from my sickness, and the cramps added on to the heavy load tt i am carrying.

SH*TTY. i dun lyk this feeling.
dun really noe wad i am toking, dun really noe why i do some things, have no mood to do things, slp on bed also cant slp. wad is this?

darling ytd came back and say i am lazy. okie fine. u can say everything u wan.

darling came back home straight ytd, i tot darling came back to pei mi( cuz i told him i am feeling unwell) , but then i realize he came home early to slp, ate a midazolam pill and knocked off unconscious liao.
BEST, jus when i need all the care and concern, i jus got several pat on the head or thigh and u arent even looking at mi.

The words tt u spatted at mi ytd at fly was still vividly echoing in my mind; "you tink i dunno you ? you just wan to come out and play marz... you just wan to come out and play marz... you tink i dunno you ? you just wan to come out and play marz... you just wan to come out and play marz... come out and play marz... you tink i dunno you... jus wan to come out and play marz... play marz play marz play marz....."

Dun blame mi, i cant get rid of tt echo, its already locked in my subconsciuos mind.

When i asked u why u said all those words, you said," ai yah, you noe marz, i angry marz, angry so say until lyk tt lar..."

Angry can say until lyk tt larz.
angry means everything okie larz, angry means got excuse arh?
then how come i angry with u (and tts when i got the rite reason too) i cannot say u until lyk tt larz?
Come to tink of tt, only when pplis angry then say de words is abit strong but almost true, straight from the heart. so when we are together for so long, in my heart there is only u allowed in, this is wad i get; wad u actually think of me?

I noe u are a chivanistic male but then had u even given a thought to mi, jus once?
i noe when u are angry u will spat hurtful words, even nonsense, but have you even thought wad these seemingly harmless words to u could do to mi? Dont u learnt after all these times we hav been together?

someone once said to mi, we cant blame guys for being lyk tt, its all because we girls spoilt them, thus we cant blame them totally.

well, i guess its true.
i promise myself i willl change, i dun wan to be lyk staciy and zc.
i wan us to be forever.
do u ?

why mus u treat mi lyk tt.?

well, its a long story i guess.

in short:

was out meeting my client at safra mt faber.

elaine asked mi to go powerhouse with her, alicia, cheryl, evon and co.
asked darling the nite before but he got angry thus i cant go.
then elaine say they will go fly look for mi thus i msg darling tt if he going fly call mi i wan go to.

( it has been ages since i last went clubbing and becuz evon they all will be there thus i am really tempted. but darling said no, cuz he say power house alot of guys go there looking for 1 nite stand and drugging cases alot thus darling ban mi from going. but then i say i go before le, okie wad, there all xiao di di , nvm larz, i am so not interested but he still insisted no. so okie lorz. he go illuzion opening and i went back home.)

then ard twelve plus darling msg mi ask mi to go get dressed cuz he coming back to fetch mi go fly. of cuz i happy larz, quickly go dress and wait for him to come and fetch mi.
reached illuzion to settle some problem, then go fly.

msg elaine to ask her to come but dunno for wad reason she dun wan come. ask mi to go over,so i ask darling lor.

and darling said, " why u muz go ph find her, why cannot she come here find u?"

i say, " i dunno, she dun wan come, say fly very sian, i go over awhile nia can?"

darling retorted," y she dun wan come u muz go over?she very big arh? i already bring u here liao, actually i dun want to come de, wan go home liao, but u wan come so i bring come. then now wan lyk tt arhz?"

so i resign to fate tt i cannot go so i sat down and type my feelings into my phone msg, somewhat hiding cuz i dun wan other ppl to see wad i typing cuz i dun wan other ppl to know i sad or we quarrel or sth. then darling fiercely look at me and say," msg who, why muz hide? cannot let ppl see arh huh?

in shock, i replied," i nv msg anywan, i am typing my feelings down only cuz i noe i cant cry here."

taking a tissue out to save my glistering eyes, i told him tt i wan to go toilet becuz i noe he is a MCP, he wun lyk it if i cry in the dancefloor, and i dun wan to make him lose face.

he said to mi again fiercely," go toilet for wad? dun cry here hor, u cry here next time i wont bring u here anymore."

and i said," cuz i dun wan to let u lost face and i dun wan to cry here, thats why i need to go to the toilet to relieve myself, calm myself down."

after he nodded then i went.
meilan jia came after mi to look over.
i broke down in the toilet for a brief moment, i felt trapped, confused and sad.

why cant i go anywhere i want. its not lyk i am alone. i am with my frenz. and its once in a blue moon. ONCE IN A BLUE MOON! u r in fly, its only next door, i will be back in ard 15 to 20 mins. but u dun allow. i forgot its before i went into the toilet or after i came out u said to mi, dun msg elaine already, AND I DID NOT/ WAS NOT.
THEN U SUDDENLY SAY," U JUS WANT TO COME OUT AND PLAY MARZ, U ARE OUT ALREADY LORZ, U WAN TO GO FIND ELAINE THEN GO LORZ, I BRING U OVER LORZ, GO LARZ, STAND UP AND GO LORZ..." when :
1.i am already calming myself down,
2.not hoping to go look for elaine and evon they all already,
3.knowing tt u will get angry if i go,
4.not wanting u to be angry with mi,
5.wanting only to enjoy myself with u there.

darling, if u really tink i will or i want to make u lose face at fly ytd,
let mi tell u now tt ytd at fly:
i wanted purely to meet up with my frenz only, coincidentally its at powerhouse. ( i haven meet evon for lyk 6 mths at least le)
i wanted not to be sad after u say i cannot go fly so i secretly type down my feelings all into my phone. (but u accuse mi of msging others)
i wanted to not let u lose face but i noe i am about to tear and cry already thus i wanted to go to the toilet. (but u wun let mi go, and u scolded mi tt if i cry at fly u wun bring mi again with u)
i wanted to forget everything liao and u aggitate mi and say 'go lorz, i bring u over go larz, go larz...'

if ur frenz ever noe ( i tink they all noe le ba) we had a quarrel at fly rite, its all because u let them see, NOT MI, seriously (if u tink again, i was trying very hard to not let ppl noe, TO STUPIDLY HELP U TO SAVE FACE BUT U PRACTICALLY SCOLDED MI IN FRONT OF THEM)

antibiotics sucks

yucks, i'm still on medication.
and they totally sucks.
the worst-ever-biter-ever pills i hav ever eaten.
haiz, at home waiting for darling to return home from his fren's bday celebration.
he said he wont be long so i gladly waited for him to come home.
then there came a msg to say tt he will be late back but wont be drunk. okie, was suppose to wait for him to come back and eat together but now i'll hav to prepare my own food, cuz the medication is after food. haiz.
ate, struggled not to vomit again, giddy, lay down on bed, played psp.

darling finally called at ard 5 plus and ask mi whether i wan to eat. so i said no, but ask him to buy fishermen's fren extra strong mints back cuz i totally depend on THAT when i am on medication.

guess wad he did? he bought the rite wan, but bought another packet of citrus twist for he said he always see mi eat tt and so he bought another wan jus in cause the first pack is the wrg wan.
LOL.
"but i tot i said i wan strong mints wad? only got 1 extra strong wan nia wad..." i said.
then tt cheeky baby of mine said," ai yah, ur darling scare buy wrg marz, see i so good, where got ppl scare buy wrg de, only mi lorz. so ur hubbii is good horz?"

haiz, i tink arh, he high high on alcohol liao larz..
lol

uber sweetness

hee,
darling is very sweet to mi these few days.
although he still got go out relax with his frenz awhile larz, but he'll come back
and cook food for mi to eat before i take my med. :)
fried rice twice and drunk prawns and mee ytd, lol i eat abit only larz
but they are all super nice larz. delicious, finger-licking good. :)
shall upload the pics when darling come home. :P

sick

haiz, i am sick lehz, help.
stay at home cant go out.
baby brought mi to the doctor on fri evening.
loads of med to eat. feel so shity.
after doctor visit we went to loyang pray.
lont time nv go le. :)
me and darling bought a new pair of flats each simple and nice.
home sweet home after tt.

these few days darling has been very sweet to mi. :)
cooked fried rice for mi when he reach home for 2 days hee.
thx baby darling. i love u.

back from granny's hse

hehe, sry larz, i noe spidey's coming forming webs le. jus got back from my granny's hse in malaysia. haiz. rain rain and more rain. so damn sian nv shop much there cuz firstly there is not much time to shop, kluang is such a small place, and thirdly, yes, it keeps raining.

well, it feels good to go back to granny's hse once in a while. why? cuz i totally love grandpa's cooking. his dishes are utterly, ubsurdly, ridiculously, amazingly so delicious. U CANT KEEP TO A DIET IF U GOT TO TRY MY GRANDPA'S DISHES. that's a guarantee. :)

hear sth from my granny too. haha, the maid tt was suppose to take care of my baby cousin is lyk treating herself as if she is a princess at home lorz.
some of the things she did:

1. my grandparents give her a hp for convinence sake and she totally take the thought for granted. she stole money to top up her prepaid card, ask my cousins' and grandpa to fetch her on motorcycle to go top up her card lyk every week at least( each time at least ard $10).
2. tok on the phone for god knows how long, and dun wan to do things. take 100% she only did ard say 50%?
3. ask my granny to switch on the tv she wan to watch show at certain time slots.
4. watch tv till my baby cousin cry alrdy still dun wan to go attend to himm. my granny jus hav an operation on her leg and she took her crutches and walk slowly to go attend to the baby. (wad the fcuk?)
5. borrow dvd from my younger cousin, and manage to watch finish the whole thing BEFORE my younger cousin finish the whole series. (my younger cousin alrdy hav lyk nothing to do alrdy cannot finish the dvd but SHE CAN FINISH BEFORE MY COUSIN???!!!)
6. more arh, i so tired now dun wan to type liao. haiz...

read alrdy will angry not? but cannot change wad, if not hav to waste ard $7000 to hav a new wan lehz. so wait till her contract is up lorz. ll bo bian. haiz...

i tink i go slp liao tired.

bye.