My World, My Solace.

2010-09-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

feeling very tired everyday; down, shag and messed up.
been acting lyk whatever-i-dun-care but still, haiz!
its not easy, acting lyk i dunno anything and everything cuz in the end, its still hard on myself/ourselves.

wherever there is ppl, tongue flares.
and wherever there is ladies, haha, there will be politics.
damn shyt...
why make things so so so difficult?

城门失火，殃及池鱼。你要死也不要把大家拉下去。

纸上谈兵的成绩，就真是你所为吗？

argh!!!

2010-03-29T20:31:00.000-07:00

fcuk larz..

just reach work 1hr nia my head is spinning liao...

izzt not enough slp or i eat too much heaty things liao...

ai yoh, siao le larz...

heng today appts so-so only,

wah but later maybe phone keep ringing then appt suddenly fcuking lots...

as always...

then last min cancel, triple sian!

totally no mood...

guess tonite shall go home watch cartoons and slp early..

haha yah la,

say only lol..

i'll try okie...

someone entertain mi lehz..

i damn bored..

mentally very tired....

2010-03-19T11:11:00.000-07:00

mont blac

woots so nice!!

supper some days ago....

@billy bombers

saturday's brkfast cum lunch cum dinner @4pm

very sian.. no mood to eat...

just bought my beauty diary masks online...
haha.. these are some only, more at work...

status: emo and sick

hot inside darn cold outside

erm, i tink my room is spinning...

help...

darling hug mi!!

2010-03-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

Very pain, i just feel lyk stoning!!!!!!!!!!!
Darling, where are u ...

2010-03-14T10:25:00.000-07:00

Yes,

i camwhored again... cuz i am damn emo and plain bored!

no wonder i feel lyk two person inside

mi and myself

I feel lyk curling my hair!

sometimes i just feel lyk drowning...

in drinks

in the rain

in a pool.

2010-03-12T07:41:00.000-08:00

this is my daily "supplement" yes! dun laugh, without this at work, i feel lykdying, my nose dropping, my head spinning.!! stupid aircon. !@#$%^%^&*

yah i noe, camwhoring...

emo can or not....

very tired... feel lyk i am draining away...

2010-02-25T10:17:00.000-08:00

我要的只是一段浪漫的爱情，美满的婚姻与幸福的家庭。你能实现吗？

2010-02-25T09:49:00.000-08:00

very lazy to write truck loads of words so well, pictures speaks a thousand words......

eating @ marche...

i totally love the rosti there, yummy...

yah i noe larz, was sick still eat this type of food but then i specially took leave to celebrate. if rest at home then my leave so wasted larz. plus darling also no time to pei mi le. muz open shop le.:(

boo!

i took a snap when darling was trying out the slippers. hee...

Darling i love u!

shower mi with all ur love can? :)

a very childish entry but i am seriously tired. sometimes simplicity is the best tt u could ask for.

2010-02-23T11:09:00.000-08:00

在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走

你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
还来不及对你说迟到的我的心动

你的好你的坏
我的脾气你最懂
我不要你心疼我(我不要你离开我)
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心)
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你

你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
我从来没对你说压抑的我的心动

我的好我的坏我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心)
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你

爱情总让人折磨
所以我们才选择做比情人更好的朋友

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心)
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福

darn, its my favourite song, sad, melancholic but meaningful...
my head is spinning... i want to take mc larz. but cannot.. haiz... sometimes, somethings is just so damn shitty. working is ewww..... haiz...

2010-02-22T12:06:00.000-08:00

i rmb someone told mi this: guys, if they go out nv meet gals, its obviously bluffing u. but if they are still coming back home, tt would good already."

its the most egoistic sentence i hav ever heard.

everywhere i go, i am bound to see things tt makes me feel dissappointed.

sometimes one may wonder, how much courage do we need to trust someone wholeheartedly.

我用尽所有的勇气去选择相信，请别告诉我换来的竟是最初的背叛。

2010-02-21T01:46:00.000-08:00

Happie Burfdae to mi!!!

Haha...

lets see, hmm...

wad i did for burfdae this year....

-partying with frenz

-steamboat with family

-shopping with frenz and mummy

and on the actual day itself, I HAV TO WORK!!!!! WTF?!?!?!
actualy intended to take leave on the 19 feb since november (Yes, months before!)but csm says she will be taking a very long cny break... tts the standard... well wad more can i say...

but anyway thx granny jean for the sweet little cake from Glace. of cuz together with my commission haha... money to spend... but pity she's always on the go...

thanks to everyone who celebrated my bdae with mi; deep appreciations...

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on the sidenote, i jus hav to complain...

during cny, my cousin had his birthdae, so mi and joyce and ben drove to kluang mall especially to buy a birthdae cake for him at 9.45pm! note tt its the first day of cny and the shops are about to close already.
the only few WHOLE cakes tt were left was the high fibre cheesecakes with berries and the lemon cheesecake. so we bought the lemon wan.
the taste was sweet and sour on the side. after everywan finished the cake, an idiot came up to us and spilled the words" ai yah, muz be nobody buy then you all buy this cake home." with a seriously fucked up face.
mi and joyce was lyk wtf, we dun owe u leh, and its cuz of 2nd uncle's son's bdae then we went out again to find a whole cake for his celebration. wad birthdae is it if its without a cake? meiqi was close already so only secret recipe was open and the cake was shared by joyce and mi, our money! its not lyk u shared or paid or gave any ang bao to him too. wtf are u flaring at us. serious! 撒泡尿照一照自己啦，恶心！

boring

2010-01-31T09:12:00.000-08:00

haiz, life is simply jus plain old boring...

is adult life lyk tt?--->work eat slp work eat slp...

its getting on to my nerves... i need an escapade, and fast...

haiz...

boring life is getting to my pocket too... which is not at all gd.

when i am bored, i'll go walk walk and then guess wad? i'll spend.

not tt its not gd cuz the things tt i buy are of use but still, well, my wardrobe has its limits you noe wad i mean...

laughs...

bought lingerie again, a cute leopard print bag, a top with vest, earrings and heels.

heels!! i am a sucker for heels and lingeries... haha not to mention costumes yes! u heard tt but then i hav got not much of a use for them so i hav to stop myself from buying them haha...

thou i seldom parade my collection already cuz my feet is going down on me, yes, working 9 to 10 hrs with heels everyday and u expect mi to go out with them too? OUCH!

who wans to go on a short trip with mi??? haha...

the future : unknown

2010-01-10T06:33:00.000-08:00

have u suddenly wondered lyk ya noe, before bedtime, " what if u just suddenly will never wake up again?

its lyk, "huh?" LIFE JUST ENDED LYK TT?

you planned lots and lots of tings to do, goals to achieve then tts it? u hvn even started?

haha, many will say i tink too much but then well, life is just unpredictable.

remember the recent news? an atelete died just after exercise and other similiar wans? i was lyk huhZ?

so wad if u are destined to die the next day? wad are u gonna do? weep?

well, i only wan to be with u, tts all.

its tt simple.

2010-01-07T07:04:00.000-08:00

haha, i noe, damn uber long time nv blog...

just damn lazy to even switch on the com sometimes.

freaking tired...

summary luh horz...

better than nothing...

spent my days work then shop, work then home, mc then rest at home.

its lyk a vicious cycle lol... say until lyk on drug or gambling.

into retail therapy recently, keep spending on cosmetics, clothes, lingeries, shoes etc... i need a bag lol.. see! shyt man... haha

met staciy on various occasion, she damn on larz, and end up shop lyk mad. shopping is our life man... if i bought a whole month of clothes etc, she already bought a whole year's supply liao wahahaa... you do the math- shiok!

im very into health supplements also. as of nw larz, cuz weak marz, no larz. dunno why keep feeling sick recently and the aircon at work is blasted directly over ur head de. imagine sitting there the whole fcuking day for lyk almost 10 hrs... sniff sniff... even if i switch to 25 degrees cel also very cold lorz... my bones can feel it too... damn jia lat... but most of them immune liao ... i fcuking cannot larz...

so how?
drink health supplements and pop health tabs lorz... i tink awhile later i will also lazy de larz...lol... bought a cute pills holder divider thingy. remind myself to bring them everyday if not means left the bottle at work, or left it at home. now eat later cannot eat.

lol...shiitty shiitty!!

i am so fcuking tired everyday..

the phrase of the moment, " tiu lei lou mou!"( throw ur mother)
the most used phrase at frontdesk... lol rite?

honest! hah!

no title; i dunno wad title to put lol

2009-11-28T14:00:00.000-08:00

anyways, life's fine for mi.

work, slp, work, shop, work, time with darling, slp, then the cycle goes on. no life... lol

haiz, kinda misses my sch days. till now then i realize schooling is lyk so much fun.
i miss sch, i miss lectures, i miss the gossips, the time tt we actually count how much lectures we can miss, how we skip lectures in the middle of the lecture itself( laugh out loud). how we still stayed in sch but in the library larz, looking for exam papers to photostate then try to piece out model answers cuz the questions for exams although is always changing but theres kinda pattern that we can detect and follow. lol smart eh?
i miss critisizing CSPY for MST2 and the super joke tt she was kenna poon-ed by kenneth's mum, totally can laugh and roll on the floor. i miss CY's lesson also, so fun and laughable. plus u only hav to open ur mouth and ask and he will sure find the answer for u and teach u until u really understand. He took the whole evening plus morning to teach mi and cheryl mainly 1 important question and some other random qestions on the past years' paper before the paper itself. serious damn gd larz, cuz he dun need to actually. cuz already stop lecture le for exam week.
but the wan tt i miss most is my IAP. i seriously love working in AVA-VPHL( sorry i funno whether the abrevation is correct not cuz it very long time ago liao) anyway, its some laboratories larz, doing microbiological, toxicology, pestcide, genetic, food quality and authentication, chemical testings and etc. but then also because of this there are some foodies i dun dare to eat already lol... ewww... haha

i miss so much stuffs tt i actually MISS HAVING EXAMINATIONS!!! i used to hate having exam and was ever so cursing who-the-hell actually tot of this stupidest ( i noe there is no such word but just let mi express myself in the way i lyk) of the stupidest idea of all.

i tink i muz hav too much things to miss till out of control le..

yawns... gonna go slp... mei is flying off to aussie in a few hrs. hav a gd trip... she is going to dreamworld there and guess wad?? her team got free ticlets to singapore dreamworld too!!!! haha, so fab rite, but its cuz they need to write comparision reports to hand in in sch. but stil its fab lorz... its not lyk the usual go-science-centre-and-go-home-write-report-for-summition thingy lehz, i also wan lorz... haha... wait long long...

HAHA randomness

2009-08-20T08:28:00.000-07:00

few things on my mind these past few weeks:

some ppl are jus so god damn pseudo. haha

i jus dun understand why some adults, bigger than mi by a lot, can be so so so childish. gosh.

becareful, nv let ur guard down against anyone around u. cuz u wun know how u die later.

ppl tt can hurt u most is the ppl tt u are closest to at heart, cuz they noe everything. rmb how jiang tze ya died? pitiful man, he was innocent, he died wronged, disappointed, jus becuz he trusted someone wrongly.

when u tink everything has subsided, u can heave a sigh of relief, look carefully, cuz the trauma has jus began. for still waters always comes before a storm.

when u did something wrong, there is no way to hide the truth. the more u try to cover, the more marks u leave behind.

friends are not always tt trusty. becuz of the word 'fren' u are blinded from the naked truth. sometimes wad u dunno can kill u eventually.

knowing something later only leads to bigger trouble.

so in fact, actually everyone speaks with two mouth.

lots more but i am too lazy to write...

ponder on these guys. haha

back in action

2009-07-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

hee, so long nv update le...

my blog's not dead yet, truck loads of photos but then i really dun hav the time to upload them.

been so so so busy with work, and so so so tired tt i keep feeling i haven slpt enough.

had a great spa experience in between work and it feels damn great. pampering and relaxing. :)

lots of thngs tt i would lyk to do but haiz, god pls give mi more time!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha..

XOXO,

charylle

there there, my life is lyk a cycle...

2009-06-10T21:11:00.000-07:00

read elaine yuki's blog and a sentence caught my attention.

"Would u rather go back to the person tt u love most but treated u badly, or go towards the person tt u dun love but treasure u and treat u very well?

if u are the person choosing, which wan will u take?

most girls actually will prefer somewan who treats us well rite, but too bad it isnt the person whom we love most, usually...

so being emotional creatures, we will end up choosing the person tt we love most, but unfortunately, hurts the most too.

my definition of hurt is when the person u love doesnt treasure u, doesnt pay attention to u. hurt can only be inflicted by the person u love. how others treat u doesnt matter cuz it doesnt matter at all.

pardon mi for my ramblings, my head is spinning.

i just dun understand why u can or tink tt u hav the luxury of giving mi attitude when i head out to chill with my girl frenz? when unjustifiably i seem to cannot hav any anger, or attitude or feel down when u say u are heading out to chill with ur bros..

talk about having double standards. men and their egos.

but did u ask y i went to fly after bq? No. i went there cuz my gf wans us to accompany her to find her bf, now ex bf cuz she was going there to brk up. yes. ask around. it should be easy to verify cuz they were shouting and quarreling plus pushing ard on the road! u ask mi to leave her there mehz? ur bro got anything u also will scare and stay rite? same wad. and we were there lyk less than an hr?

i am so so so tired..........

but i noe u love mi, so u lyk tt, but then still dun lyk tt can, i also will sad wad rite?
i nv go out alot marz, once a week or once a fortnight...

OH YAH, BUT THE WAY, I SAID BEFORE LE, PLS IF U WAN TO LEAVE DOWN ANY COMMENTS, CONSTRUCTIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE I DUN CARE, BUT LEAVE DOWN UR NAME. DUN HIDE BEHIND THE SCREEN NAME PASSERBY, ITS FOR COWARDS. DARE TO SAY DUN DARE TO STAND BY UR WORDS?

and actually, come to tink of tt, the comment did not get the effect u wanted. cuz basically, i dun believe wad u say, based on many facts tt u will not understand which only i noe. or u can try making mi believe...

xoxo,

sher-darling

你不曾发觉？？？

2009-06-04T10:29:00.000-07:00

总是
忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪
你才会给安慰

担心
短暂的晴天随时都可能
被阴霾收回

等待
有机会最坏也最甜美
我乐观却疲惫

因为
太怕失去你所以连快乐里
都装满伤悲

你不曾发觉
你总是用右手牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少的可怜

伸出右手想陪着你
向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
想信你会了解

总在
埋怨过你的冷漠之后又急着
说抱歉

仿佛
向疏远的你 乞求一点体贴
都是我不对

结果
有可能最美也最可悲
我做好了准备

也许
太自由的你心里面那个家
谁也不能回

你不曾发觉
你总是用右手牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少的可怜

伸出右手想陪着你
向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
想信你会了解

我一直相信
总有一天

你会用左手牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远却会实现
心在同一边就能够听见
你说的那句
我爱你

你不曾发觉
你总是用右手牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少的可怜

伸出右手想陪着你
向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
你一定看的见

i miss u

2009-05-31T09:19:00.000-07:00

i miss the old u.

i miss the alan tt will ask mi whether i wan to accompany him to go anywhere he is going.

i miss the alan tt constantly showed me with care and concern.

i miss the alan tt will consider my feelings and turn down invitations to gather cuz we haven spent time together.

i miss the alan tt will always call mi to say "dunno why suddenly i miss u alot..."

i miss the alan tt will always text me msgs saying he miss mi, asking hows my day.

i miss the alan tt will bring mi to mt faber, jurong hill, kent ridge park to view night sceneries.

i miss the alan tt will take initiative to ask mi wad i am tink, wad i want to do, where i wan to go.

i miss the alan tt will notice tt i am not happy and cheer mi up.

i miss the alan tt will whisper sweet-nothings to mi.

i miss the alan tt makes effort to spent time with mi though he is busy.

i miss the alan tt will tell mi everything.

i miss the alan tt i trust.

where are u now?

where are u when i need u most?

answer this truthfully.

the answer is tt u are always with ur frenz, entertaining ur frens. i noe, the guys always say brothers are forever, gf can always change/throw away.

if so, then tell mi is there difference between brotherly love and gf love?

if none then i suppose guys can marry the brothers and hav babies with their brothers liao rite?

obviously cannot rite?

then the sentence doesnt stand.

u told mi u dun lyk to wear couple ring. u say xue er also bought for u to wear but u only wear a few months.

u say u tink wear already very suay. i ask why u say cuz ur experience and ur frenz' experiences reflect to u tt wear le sooner or later will break.

its not lyk tt de. if u keep keeping quiet and dun speak up to resolve our probs then ur nightmare will come.

cuz quarrel quarrel also will tired wad. true?

tinking on the line, for all my past relationships, i dun endure this kind of nonsense. i wun wei qu myself. its becuz of u, U and YOU tt i keep holding on. i believe talking it all out can solve our prob. but u just dun wan to talk. u just wan to keep mumb. u tink tt toking out will make it bigger and more misunderstanding will happen. i really dunno why u tink lyk tt.

guy lie to girl when girl ask him sth.

cuz guy dun wan girl to misunderstand and be sad.

then girl found out tt guy lied.

then how?

girl more sad rite? and of cuz more angry rite?

then guy explain tt guy dun wan misunderstand cuz its nth much.

in the first place if guy tell the truth the everything will be alrite, jus question abit and angry abit.

lying jus increase the chances of misunderstanding and mistrust.

it jus made the whole thing worse.

understand?

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every group has little secrets- big ones, small ones, shocking ones.

u will nv noe who lets out the bomb even after u are busted.

cuz the remote often doesnt lies in a person's hand; its in several.

u noe u love mi,

xoxo

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actually the explanation was very unlogically, as a matter of fact it comes to mi as quick witted though.

in a timeline, it looks lyk a delibrate cover up. u noe ur reputation huh?

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i hate tt bitch, yes, u. and dun get flattered, cuz the naming of bitch was jus a mere subsitution of word. i dun lyk leaving blanks. u heard mi.

on a second thought, pseudo sounds better huh?

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tinking of renting a place to stay, cuz this cant go on forever. i dun care wad everybody tinks but u shd noe wad i mean. u are stressed doesnt mean i nv have to take the same thing. if not i wun wan to contemplate having this route.

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gosh!

2009-05-31T08:18:00.000-07:00

dl the last episode of gg but haven watch it until now.

oh my gosh!

is tt guy in the coffee shop scott- the long lost(tot was dead) son of L and D's father?
i tink it is.

and and and B and C finally got together, how nice!

hmm, couldnt wait for season 3 to come..

:)

tweet tweet tweet...

awsdfgyujkl

2009-05-24T10:29:00.000-07:00

why i say so much you still dun get it ?

totally dishearten..

2009-05-22T11:55:00.000-07:00

why do u hav to bluff mi?

u tink i would not find out mehz?

u say u dun wan let mi noe cuz dun wan mi sad cuz to u its nothing.

but then to mi its a big big thing.

and now i noe le, how?

more pain rite?

isnt it worse?

why is it tt u still dun understand?

how could i trust u in the future?

yah, u may not do anything wrong, but the fact tt u bluff mi how i noe u really nv do wrg thing?

u ownself say if change to mi, u will angry lyk hell, then same wad.

i also will ultra angry de k...

pls...

i really dun wan to let history repeat,

u wan to feel the pain once again mehz?

or u dun bother le cuz now u noe how to protect urself?

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i decided to let it pass, on the account of u and our memories, and the pain tt i hate .

damn not worth it.

but u seriously got to learn tt keeping quiet or telling a white lie is not not not acceptable and intolerated.

just change our scenario into u being mi and mi being u i tink i kenna scolded lyk fuck already, not to mention getting thrown out by u maybe. rite?

dun keep everything and just orh orh orh. pls communicate with mi. WE need it.

i still cherish u alot.

yah, really.

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u promised. pls keep it.

:)

2009-05-20T13:44:00.000-07:00

everything is alrite already tentatively...

haiz, becuz he always cannot express himself, i always cannot get an answer...

its all my fault haiz, who ask mi to fall for u?

not tt i am regreting, i'll not regret. jus tt sometimes u really make mi so so so dishearten...

haiz...

问世间情为何物。。。

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slight fever for a few days, sian...

will upload the photos soon...

:)

mi and baby's first trip to bankok!!

:)

2009-05-18T15:23:00.000-07:00

u promised to change, maybe u did, but for juz a few days.

why is it tt ur attention span is lyk so so short?

why is is tt u can always forgot things tt i said. or u said..??

why??

i dun worth the effort???

why ??

i am so freaking upset.

why i am sick at home but u can go patronise other ppl?
why ?
is it not worth spending the time with mi?

enlighten mi man, i really really dun understand...

i really said u treat ur frenz better then ur gf, lyk they are ur girlfren but i am ur fren.

BUT U ARE THE WAN TT SAY NO.

BUT WHY IS IT TT IT IS EVERYTIME LYK TT?

y ppl say ai yah, awhile only awhile only then u will say yes?

y i say awhile only then u say dun wan ?

y u always feel tt u muz patronise others but not mi.

In fact i am not even asking alot of u. i am serious. i already dun care alot of things liao.

y u muz still be lyk tt???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????/

2009-05-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

u promised to change.

u promise to treat mi better.

thanks for everything.

i feel loved.

back in singapore

2009-05-16T08:11:00.000-07:00

hee, back in singapore.

days of shopping bargaining= exhaustion.

so so so tired.

attending a wedding dinner tml.

i need some rest.

suddenly heard something and then it suddenly hit mi.
u will nv noe who stabbed u in the back.
trust is just bullshit.

nvm, after my job-hunting end, two can play the game.

1 can become 2 and then become 5 then 10 then 20 then 100.

u can nv noe who changed the number in the middle.

but 1 thing is the same.

MONEY is the culprit.

u can always buy ppls' trust with money.

welcome to the real world.

xoxo,
this is reality speaking

!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-11T13:28:00.000-07:00

utterly, uber, crazily, freakingly sad, dissapointed and wadsoever....

a waste of my time

2009-05-08T09:19:00.000-07:00

-.-

lol, woke up early to go to ICA today to change my passport photo.

stupid mi, not well informed enough larz, now cannot change photo liao lar, wan change muz change the whole passport lorz. lol. $70 bucks for 5 yrs. and i hav lyk 1 and a half yrs to spare lor.

queue up for hrs jus to tok to the officer in change then in the end, she say u can try lorz, no need change larz, cuz obviously tt guy tt say i need to change passport just wans to get money only. corrupted officer wad the hell. so yah, wasted a few hrs for nothing. damn it.

then head to far east to shop ard cuz mei mei is late larz. saw a satin pants tt i lyk but $39 leh, lyk not worth the money leh. but then still its very comfy leh, shit man how??? nvm, tink tink first. haha

met mei at wheelock place. why? cuz nokia phone sucks. spoilt for the-dunno-how-many times liao. sian. cant they just change a whole new phone. real piece of sh*t leh. i tink she really got utillise the warranty card well lorz, haha. every few week one trip to nokia. haha

mei wants to buy dress, belt, top and bling bling sandals. haha. only manage to buy her dress, belt and bling sandals. damn cheap larz the sandals, i was so so so tempted too. cuz i wanted one long ago. but tt design was worth the price larz. haha, $15.90 but well, hmm, i muz ren!! going thailand le, dun keep spending first. lol. go BKK then spend. yeah!

ate at pasta mania, and guess wad we walked all the way to cine to eat cuz mei mei crave for pasta. then guess wad, far east and shaw already hav pasta mania lorz. WTF??? how come i dunno ?? walk for nothing.

yeah yeah !!

so excited. going on a trip with darling baby and frenz.

*prancing and twirling ard darling's room in utmost excitedness!!!!!!!

lalalalalalaaa..............

:)

movieeee

2009-05-07T05:02:00.000-07:00

haha, watched "knowing"

i tink its quite nice. hmm, abit religion, hollywood-kind-end-of-the-world plus alien involvement movie, lol.

the numbers scribbled on a piece of paper was to predict date of events , GPS position of the places, how many died. how eerie can it be if u found the piece of paper and then search online, only to find tt every date coincidences with every major disaster tt happened. and the thing is, the paper was written by a sch elementary sch girl 50 yrs ago. wad the???!!??!!???

received a call early in the morning, and so coincidentally i couldnt slp much in the morning, woke up damn early though i slpt only at 7am. haha maybe was meant to receive the call. lol.
hope to get shortlisted quickly and then i can work once i come back from BKK. yeah!

continued the episodes of gossip girl, i jus love it man. blair is sucha an intriguing lady. and chuck, wad can i say, he is not lyk wad he portrays himself, he is a good guy, but u jus cant hav a relationship with him jus lyk tt. its so so torturous for both blair and chuck. hah! the wrath of the upper east side. devilish...

:):)

happy 2 yrs 3 months darling!!! so happy to be together with u from 070207 till now. :)
can u hear mi? muacks!

sweet

2009-05-06T19:53:00.000-07:00

oh yah, forget to update.

darling got my t700 for mi last week!!! yeah!!!

so happy :), but i actually wanted a second-hand de cuz if condition nice then also not much of a difference. but darling told mi to just take the new wan. hee...

THANKS darling!!!!

i lyk t700 cuz its pink, slim and plano... hmm, suddenly dun lyk flip phone, slide phone wadever phone liao, dunno why also...

ying ying say not nice to use, but okie larz, i nimble marz, lol, hee no larz.

an average phone for my average use lorz hee...

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ps: i noe its not lyk he bought mi an ultra expensive gift larz cuz obviously my darling dun print money de lorz, but still cuz is darling give de so its super valuable to mi so its gonna be raved in my blog heehee...

i love u baby, not becuz of the gift but becuz of the thought tt comes with it. its always the thought tt counts. :)

relax @ melody valley

2009-05-06T15:37:00.000-07:00

wanted to go out today but scare darling unhappy again . yap. so not heading to fly today.

initiately wanted to eat with darling when he finish work but then uncle bought my share le, haiz, so jus eat at home lorz.. then darling called to ask if i eat already. cannot say no wad, so say yah eat some, then darling replied " so no need to pei u eat le horz, then i go find ah boon arh.."

haiz, why why why. why wan to go out with u also so difficult. but then nvm, since not going out le and darling is out so went down melody to join lynn. planned to go fly today de yea but becuz i love darling too much to make him angry so haiz, give up going fly. jus sit there relax , drink and tok. and today again i am faster in preparing, even i surprise myself, haha! *winks* we hav so much in common lol. the only difference is the way i treat darling. lynn said " aiyoh, why u soo committed? he also always go out drink with frenz why u cannot."

haiz, obvious rite, when u love someone wholeheartedly then u will choose to commit marz. if u jus play play not-tink-about-the-future kind then of cuz dun need to commit larz. hee, one day u will understand de. haha and by tt time i will throw back this question at u . heehee... :)

but wad i lyk about lynn is she wouldnt push mi to do anything. she respects my decision and understands tt there are some things tt i cannot cross the line cuz of my principles and of cuz darling bf. she will jus jokingly say say nia. :) great fren and company to be with.

tok a few photos during drinking, shall upload them tml. i am so lazy now..

okie here, 2 enough, lol...

post afew resumes before slping, muz wait for hair to dry. haha...

haiz, job job come find mi, haha, lol, lyk real!!!

-------gd nite---------

tis true

2009-05-04T03:43:00.001-07:00

read audrey blog today and a short stanza caught my eye,

" Never dilute your emotions or chuck your pain.
It would only make you crave for more affection at the end of the day.
A never-ending cycle."

well, tts true ...

cuz then u will need to fill up the empty space tt u chucked or diluted away to feel full again.

in the end, its worse as u need more.

but who doesnt make this mistake?

we always tend to do away with unhappy emotions and feelings so tt even if we are bleeding inside, ppl will only see the facade of an ever smiling face. and again, that cycle is never gonna end unless we realize wad it is doing to us, to mi. which is darn hard. there are alot of things in this world tt we jus dun wan to face up to. we deny it, the realities of life. cuz once we admit tt they are there, we cant run from it anymore. we cant delete it, we cant chuck it away, we cant pretend tt they are not there.

but slowly , i will learn.

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on a lighter note, i figured out how it works. well, it has been a long long eons time since i last played a game lyk tt. and if u wan to play, im on it. the baseline is all the same, but u are not gonna get wad u are after.

every creature is after the same thing after all. pathetic.

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darling, i miss u.

i noe u are working.

and later u will be going out to find ah boon and co.

but are u going to sabai again with terry?

if so i will only see u late into the nite/morning haha.

i wanna hug u rite now!

great show

2009-05-03T05:47:00.000-07:00

haha, i am so so so into Hell's Kitchen rite now.

its lyk god damn great, its exciting and boils up ur blood man! haha...
all of u guys shd watch it.
go to youtube and search for hell's kitchen, starting from season 1. :)

u'll love it!

getting so easily tired nowadays. shit. wad is wrg with mi?

i lyk this song today

猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

interesting huh?
why is reality always lyk tt?
anyways, jus hope tt alls well will end well.

i hate it when u are mad at mi and u take of tt ring of urs.
then a day or 2 then put back.
actually come to tink of tt, i really dunno wad the ring stands for in ur mind. yap.
i hope its wad we r .

well....

outing with the girls

2009-05-02T06:43:00.000-07:00

went shopping/walking ard far east plaza and i saw this dress!! so kawaii nei! but then i dun tink the price is justifiable cuz its lyk a simple little dress only but it cost $69 bucks lehz, no brand de.. haha... and the wallpaper is so so so so so pretty! haha, i lyk, so tok a pic with the wall lol. hee :)

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haha, met up with huiwen, lynn, and shan shan at sabai sabai again yeap. cuz hui wen wants to go there.. mi, lynn and shan shan were all out for fly but nvm. hee

had so much fun with them haha. hui wen wans to be shu nv all the way lol. then when we laugh too loud we will say, hey, yi tai yi tai, muz bao chi xin xiang. lol

took photos with lynn too but i dunno at which part of my pictures liao lol.

chaned venue to fly ard 3 plus. yeah. cool to be in there again. was in front of the stage when lynn pulled mi along to the side of the stage, the small sofa there. lol and guess who i saw? YING YING! haha... lol second time i say her in fly. haha..

stupid, someone keep asking mi to drink, after martell change to heniken. heng nv vomit in fly. lol phey! if not i tink lao gong darling will ban mi going out with my frenz le.

i noe i reach home quite late but i am not out often rite? why do u hav to give mi the cold treatment lyk last time i go out also u lyk tt. its not lyk i go out find guys. i love u, and only u. but u are seldom home, i noe u hav to work late, then hav to pei frenz, u wan to relax and i am cooping up at home waiting for u, although i am in the midst of surfing net for jobs, playing games, watching tv, i still still still miss u so damn much. and when u are home, u are too too tired pei mi, tok to mi or anything. i tried telling u but it seems tt time spent with ur frenz were more worthy to u. so i tried reconnecting with my frenz, going out clubbing once in a while when u were out drinking with ur buddies too. am i wrg?

i just dun wan to keep feeling tt i am here waiting as always.

i am sorry i kept u worried, maybe or maybe u were not but jus angry. however, i swear i dun even dare to drink much with u or jie or kor kor not ard. u can ask lynn if u wan. she sees to every glass i drink. and keep saying i drink so little. haha but she nv push mi larz, cuz she understands tt i cannot afford to bear the consequences of over drinking, i dun wan to lose ur trust and lose u. i go out with them not to drink, i just want to go out relax, tok, and enjoy my frenz de companionship.

u wan to go out and i muz understand tt u MUZ go out with ur buddies, u cannot bring mi go cuz there all guys nia, u find bringing mi funny, u seldom bring mi go out drinking liao but tts all okie cuz i already accustom to u saying all this but why cant u understand t i hav to go out not as often as u but juz sometimes to relax in the company of my frenz too.. u were the wan when i ask how come u cannot bring mi go out and u replied tt i could go out if i wan, dun need u to bring mi. if tt is the cause why are u treating mi lyk tt.

i am not her, if u are tinking tt i am becoming more and more lyk her, i rmb u saying tt i lyk keep wanting to go out clubbing. NO! i only go once a week or once a fortnight, of cux depending on whether my frenz got off or not. if they work straight weeks then we will not be meeting. hui wen's husband also dun allow her to always go out or if he has morning shifts. so its not tt frequent. i will not be lyk her ever. most importantly, i dun *****. if not i would hav left u long ago. listen to ur heart closely and u will surely noe its true.

can u give mi more attention, pls? or should i jus choose to hack care and let time decide?

asdfghjkl

2009-04-30T04:30:00.000-07:00

oh my god... wrote a long long post but then blogger cannot post larz..
wad the hell. sian ..
now no mood to write down tue de events liao ..
sian .

but melody is nice. will go again with lynn when free.. :)

haiz... sianing at home...

y are u always out of reach, k not out of reach le, but where are when i wan u ... boo...

sayang mi, dotes mi, love mi, spent time to understand mi, pei mi and make mi feel lyk ur everything...

（我）最幸福的事

2009-04-26T08:22:00.000-07:00

我好喜欢的一首歌。。。

你乘着雨伞接我那次
已经足够我记得一辈子
我懂后来你不是不坚持
爱情本来就没万无一失

泪水离开了你的手指
那不如让它留在这信纸
我想女孩子最贴心的事
让爱的人选结束的方式

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
乘鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最后一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你终为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置
是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是童话故事
不能够永远依赖着王子
这难过情事只剩两个字
我拯能任性为难你解释

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
乘鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最后一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你终为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置
是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕都微笑着停制

我最幸福的事牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始只是分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事面那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起那时那天和你傻笑着认识
是最幸福的事

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我还记得那时是如何和你傻笑着认识
你接我回家笑着猜我住在那一层楼
我还说如果你猜不出就不和你再见面了
看着你那心急的表情我偷笑着

放学了到你的店找你等你打烊后一起去吃晚餐
考试的时侯没时间见面你却答应我等一切结束了会带我到处玩
夜游浪漫的景点感觉世界只有我们两个人是我最美丽最想重温的回忆

我最幸福的事当那爱着你的天使
最幸福的事是牵着你的日子看着你入睡的样子

遇到不开心的事鼻酸却总是不能掩饰
只想抱着你放纵的哭泣
不明白的事想问个清楚你却说我任性为难你解释

为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置
是最幸福的事也是我的一份坚持

可惜你好像完全不知道的样子

或许这就是你表达爱的方式
还是因为以前的付出换来的是背叛所以你已经不再那么拼命了。

我在等着。。。

WHEN PASSION AND PASSIVE COMES TOGETHER? WAD ARE THE ODDS?

不值得

2009-04-26T08:14:00.000-07:00

除了想你除了爱你
hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情
hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
ha~这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你坏了心情
ha~我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

除了想你除了爱你
hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记打开心情
hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
ha~这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
ha~我决定不为你而毁了心
不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心
ha~ha~我决定不为你而毁了心

放弃爱你

clubbing

2009-04-25T14:54:00.000-07:00

haha, went sabai to meet lynn and co cuz lynn says she had balance there. drink finish then go fly .. lol took so so so long to decide where to go. initially is keong saik street there first then fly de. haha

so yah, everyone was in taxi liao on the way haha i still dilly dally abit, change into my LBD then walk slowly to 7 eleven for a packet of mints( if i go clubbing with my frenz without darling, mints are my best fren lol) then flag for cab and off to shenton.

and guess wad guess wad? lol. I AM THE FIRST TO REACH LEH! haha... :)

lynn started to down martell once we reach haha, i cannot larz, she veteran liao lehz, mi i drink slowly de... was tinking "shit forget to eat fried food." ,and darling seldom allow mi to come out so just drink enough for mi to loosen my joints and dance, not too high haha.

told lynn tt and she say its okie.. well, i tried to drink as much liao, but well, ate very early and digested le larz before drinking so i dun dare to mess up my chances of going out again. hee.

met hui wen, shanshan and her frenz and erm still got who ar, pai seh forget liao. anyway, enjoyed myself very much haha. meet up soon yeah?

poor girl, keep telling me she tired, all the way at sabai, cuz not her home ground. then at fly dance all the way, then last dance tell mi again she tired and repeated all the way we go chinatown eat and till in cab. lol. working marz, bo bian de larz, physically and mentally stressed tts why tired... take care of urself k? :)

yah yah, i was abit pissed off by a uncle-looking uncle okie larz, wadever cuz he really look uncle, we dance dance then suddely wan to squeeze with us and dance. somemore face us. and the dance floor not tt crowded until muz squesze till lyk tt lorz. super irritating. then i tink lynn also BTH and tell her bf then i tink if i nv hear wrg, got someone warn him about doing this kind of stupid action liao. lol. then awhile then i nv see him liao .yeah. haha. dun spoil my nite wahaha...

oh yah, saw jason at fly, yah, told alicia :) and guess wad, i met someone larz, tink very long then contact everything together and then i was lyk "omg!" haha, then i tink i tink i must hav met him before lol. but if its true then tts very uber long liao to rmb or tt is the wrg person. anyway, nvm larz. haha just tink tt the world really so small..

seetin and edna fly le, hav a nice and safe trip...!!

my god gd nite i wan go slp liao...

my darling long ago jiu doze off liao.

and and and once again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEILING AND LILIAN!!!!!!!!!!

:)

WITH WARMEST WISHES!

:)

so many

2009-04-24T06:35:00.000-07:00

darling, there's so many things i want to tell u... but do u hav the time?

haha... tt busy bao beii... haiz...

at least when i finally voiced out tt i want him to pei mi after work, he did.
happy and appreciated. i noe he cannot afford to have off so soon cuz business is still very new, so after work is all i settled for.

went to loyang to pray on tuesday, ate and came back home. then i noe darling was abit sick. but he nv tell mi. hmmph... baby u shouldnt lyk tt u noe. driving while u r sick very dangerous lehz. still dare tell me no strength to drive liao. haiiz...

darling came home early after work ytd hee... cooked and ate together. happy. cuz darling will be going ah jun's chalet after work today. cannot pei mi. :( home only in the morning. change bath and then go work again. lol.

nvm, i going party also. darling gave his permission.. once in a while marz... hee.. still waiting for my dear fren to make up lol. haha, finally somewan slower then mi... hee

eating eating hee....

laugh out loud

2009-04-19T11:07:00.000-07:00

???????????????

today i was on train on my way out when suddenly reach je station liao then a guy walk over to mi while i wanna go out of the train. i tot he wan to ask for direction sia.
wad the hell in the end is he ask "can be friends with u?"
i tink i very rude larz at tt instant, but dun care larz anyway, ask this kind of stupid question, so i just stared and mouthed a "N-O-!" and then faster walk off.
haha, tink already wanna laugh also hao hao xiao orh...

after finishing my stuff got a free short ride to yew tee haha, so went to surprise darling at his shop! :) then darling stupidly ask mi," Why u here?" just replied i nearby lorz. actually very near marz, so if he not there then i jus take mrt home lorz. if he there then wait for him lorz. hee

then darz sent mi home while he go find ah boon and gang again. haiz... if there is no ethyl alcohol in this world the wad will they do to relax? hmm...

darling, sayang mi!

...

2009-04-19T01:49:00.000-07:00

went to illusion for anson's bdae celebration ytd.
haha... the guys all drink till gone le larz..

darling was busy so till 12 plus then reach.
hah by the tink we already cut cake lorz...

then in the middle dunno how come suddenly they were all pulling darling to dance on the pool table LOL..
HENG darling run away haha... :)

ask darling about tt aft the drinking and darling say they all say if he willing to pei ah boon dance then they all drink finish 2 big mug of beer each. then darling turn the table ard say they dance and he will drink 3 mugs. lol. lyk tt also can arhz?
haha

darling i miss u 24/7 lehz... hmph!

i am so confused now.

i want to return to last time once in awhile.

:(

wad i want

2009-04-15T14:11:00.000-07:00

i just want to be happy.

is it wrg to want to be happy?

but no wan really understands.

i dun wan to go back cuz i dun wan to quarrel.

every little thing will lead to a quarrel.

i grow up quarreling, shouting, screaming and crying.

there were canes there but becuz sis and mi hid them so they dun exist anymore. then every household equipment becomes tt damn cane. not to mention the pulling of hair or ear till i can practically hang by the ear or hair. serious. its damn damn pain.

i was suicidal before, when i was young. however, the thought still keep coming back when i am sad. but i nv told darling before. how to tell? theres no way letting him noe man. he hated girls who threaten with suicide so if i tell him( if i really wan to tell, it will only be at my saddest point) i tink he will assume i wan to threaten him with my life.

i started with self inflicted pain first when i was small. i knock my head onto my bedroom wall, bite myself but mostly i bang my head against the wall cuz the wounds cannot be seen by anyone. just felt by myself.

although i am very scare of pain, at tt point of time, the pain is wad makes mi feel alive, the feeling tt i am still here. scarily, the dwelling pain feels so good tt moment. but at least now i can tink of reasons lyk if i am dead then blah blah blah, tt keeps mi off the knifes, windows and everything.

however, most likely i will opt for things closer to euthanisia. haha. no pain. not ugly. lol. but before the reasons come to mi, i usually draw morbid stuffs when i am sad. things close to death, cutting, dying, falling, blood dripping, blood red wine pouring, broken stained wine glass... the list goes on. some of the pieces are here and there, others i i just draw, appreciate, reason with myself and throw away. at least, this keeps mi away from dangerous thoughts.

actually, coming to tink of it, i am rather extreme too. i can turn from happy to sad to mad to excited to blank to anger to calm to nice to nasty in jus a few moments. yeap. those who experience it will noe. haha. sorry buddies, well, at least i wasnt faking yeah?

okie, i am digressing. back to my point.

if i were to go back, i will not stay long. i will go out early in the morning and come back late in the night or not at all. just stay out all day. but i dun wan u to keep tinking where i am. okie, maybe u wont noe or care but then i noe u will get angry with mi. so wad for ? but i cant stand not going out while i am there.

last time there is sch as an excuse for mi to be outside almost nearly 24/7. meetings, projs, camps, everything. now theres nothing. so i will be just walking and walking around outside. but compared to quarreling it really is a better choice for mi.

actually i also dunno why i write down all these for wad.
but i just feel lyk pouring everything out. haiz..

i am so tired.

boring stuffs

2009-04-15T10:14:00.000-07:00

went to get the stuffs tt i ordered online today. hee really worth the money wahaha...

then headed to lot 1 for some shopping before going yew tee to find darling.
wah, lots of sales lehz. lol. saw lots of stuffs at cotton on. but then having a trip soon so well, ren ren ren ! haha... my blusher gonna finish soon. hmm, tinking of buying borjouris(pai seh arh if spelling wrg lol) de. glittery glittery pink pink de lyk very nice lehz.. haha...

walk ard and saw elaine at kose counter lol. wah, so long nv see u become prettier liao worz.. :)

trained to yew tee and ta bao long john silver for darling to eat. hee. darling's new shop very rectangle lorz.lol. and the auntie damn chatty. the wear specs wan. haha...

wierd and ku ku conversation with her...

" eh, u is who arh? "

"huh? "

" ni shi ta de shui? "

"wo shi ta.. huh ? "

"u his gf arhz? "

"ah, yah, ta de gf lorz. why leh?"

"huh? ni shi ta de gf mehz? tt day come here de is u mehz? "

"huh? "

"huh? tt day got one girl come here not u wad...? u his gf arhz? really arh?"

"yah, i am his gf... ??!!??"

at this point i am totally pissed and blur liao...

then she ask alan who is behind mi, in dialect:

" she is ur gf arhz? "

"yah larz, she is my gf larz, u tink still got hu?"

"huh? tt day come tt wan not ur gf mehz?"

"no larz, tt wan is my customer leh, u say until so shiok then let u say lorz."

then the auntie go do her business liao.

haha, stupid rite?

i am sitting inside the shop, and i buy things for alan to eat, and i call alan not by name but by darling, not clear enough mehz? even if i am a fling or wad larz example only horz, , BUT NOT OKIE LOL, wad i am saying is, where got ppl lyk tt tok wan??? lol wad if ppl quarrel or wad how? then all the misunderstandings will be because of her lorz. lol.
wah, if she toking to those ah beng keep changing flings and girls de how? i tink she dead by tml liao if she tok lyk tt in front of the guy and girl .lol. haha. its the joke of the day...
and her face is of disbelieve cum suspicious , lol, so funny, shit i should hav video it down. lol.

and later i ask darling why tt auntie tok so funny and who is the girl she toking about then darling say its may, the jurong hair saloon there de worker, his customer last time. went to yew tee to buy phone. then very late liao, since alan wan go jurong so ask her wait outside awhile then he fetch her back jurong on the way. lol.

funny rite?

and darling say tt auntie noisy wan. even uncle also cannot win. lol. lyk tt die liao . haha...

home now, darling fetch mi home then go meet ah jun, he wans to change hp, and aka ask darling go drink with him whaha.. once darling say ah jun i noe is cannot leave drinking out de..

haiz. nvm, wait at home, surf net, pack stuffs.

:)

tales of beedle the bard

2009-04-14T06:10:00.000-07:00

i am so wanting to get my hands on " the tales of beedle the bard" by J.K. Rowling.

one of the story was featured in the last book of Harry Potter- the deathly hallows.

haiz, buy online? dunno S'pore hav or not. dun rmb popular hav leh? Times? or Kino? or Borders?

search online and found out tt there were those special collection, handwritten and drawn by JK herself. but the price is freakin skyhigh haha, and anyway there's only one out of seven tt is on auction, which is then bought by rep from Amazon.

see:

the moonstone edition

totally gorgeous rite?

haha, harry potter books are so so so addictive. maybe they had spells in them.

and and random:

i lyk this phone lehz. cuz its slim, simple, and pink!

but then ying say not its not user friendly. hmm...

i wan to be myself again

2009-04-13T10:07:00.000-07:00

all along, i grow to suit u.
everything i once loved i abandon them for u.
but now, i wan to be myself.
my old self, my likes, my hates and everything.

stupid alarm clock keep ringing till i cannot slp. and darling still can slp larz..
haiz...

darling sayang mi before going to work. but i cant help it.
it rained heavily.
drenched.
eyes stung.
a salty taste.

went to my hairstylist to hav my hair cut. haha. finally i cut my long long hair. okie larz, just change the shape. length not much. and my love!!! - the thick thick fringe :)

Pinky standing while i tok the photo. haha...

after tt, change and meet see tin at jp. haha, ate dinner and walk walk. saw a few nice clothes tt i wanna buy but then going bkk next mth le, later there alot how. lol. but anyway, i tink end up i will still buy de larz, haha...

see tin went to find des so i continued shopping ard. haha, i love walking in fp extra. damn lyk giant larz haha... saw a 42 inch plasma tv from samsung selling at $999. lol is tt really cheap? i dunno larz, obviously i dun buy tv. haha.

darlin came to fetch mi after tt and cuz of the suddenly call i forgot to buy my stuff. lol. nvm.

hmm. i tink i noe wad to make liao. still got time... slowly do.. hee...

darling, comehomecomehomecomehomenownownownowcuzimissucuzimissucuzimissu!!!

W-A-S-T-E!

2009-04-12T12:04:00.000-07:00

i guess appreciation love and concern, in front of ur frenz is worth less than nothing.

u said u r busy, working, u would not come home so early cuz u dunno work till wad time.

haha, wad a fool i am to believe in u.

again lyk the last time tt i spend all my time and effort to make a nice meal for u, U ARE OUT THERE DRINKING WITH UR FRENZ.
rmb last time i said i nearly threw the whole pot down the rubbish chute?

just great.

do u hav to drink (relax) every single day?

and tml is mon, meaning u will need to go meet up with them and drink AGAIN.
today cannot finish ur work, which ends quite late le, and come home meh?

i treat u lyk king, and this is wad i get.

i still rmb one of ur buddies said, "wah, if XX treats mi lyk tt jiu hao lorz."

and u took everything for granted.
i guess i should just stop everything. cuz its not worth the price of having to break down and cry nearly everyday.

maybe the girls are rite. i dun hav to do all these things for u. u can pay other ppl outside to do all tt stuff. to treat u as my world will only hasten the crashing down of my entire universe.

i am so tired.

crazy

2009-04-12T10:06:00.000-07:00

i tink my subconscious mind is driving mi crazy. and u are not at all helping.

strange dreams tt i cannot explain. i swear tt wasnt even in my line of thoughts. but it jus keep on appearing in my dreams. everything from him to her. jus nice in my most vulnerable state of mind.

trails of thought leading to lots of "what-if "s...

what if its not j?

what if everything starts with y?

will everything be the same?

will the end result be the same?

what if j most prob dun believe in making the effort anymore?

what if everything is habitual?

what if there is no time to change anything?

what if everything is just a pseudo-screen?

what if i dunno u at all?

and there is this vey big thing tt i wan to emphasize to u again cuz am very positive u dun get wad i meant, i.e.

*o** to mi has already lost its meaning very very long time ago. pls dun ask mi tt question again. new wounds rise everytime u ask.

i am very serious.

if someone smiles, it doesnt means he is happy.
u have to understand to noe the truth.
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studio drowning in flames. my feet kept dancing.

the heart is bleeding. i smiled.

XOXO

2009-04-10T10:03:00.000-07:00

wad is the price of BETRAYAL in ur heart?

wad is the definition of it in ur heart?

will u still give the other person a second chance if u found out tt he/she betrayed u?

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oh! i jus tot of sth, is there couples who stayed together for name's sake but behind the closed doors, they are bedding someone else each? interesting huh dun u tink so? i mean then wads the use of staying together?

oh digression.

I JUST LOVE WATCHING GOSSIP GIRL.

XOXO.

I totally sympathise with Blair. Her mother ignores her, filling the gap with only riches. And Chuck Bass is not what he looked lyk, he is quite a deep character.

okie, fast forward, I HATE RACHEL. behind tt sweet little morally uprite image, she's a total whore! i wonder how Serena will flare if she noes rachel slepted with Dan, once in her house and once in the sch closet. lol. and to tink tt she got Blair kicked out of Yales. yuck! and Serena actually defended Rachel from Blair. Poor Serena. And Dan's a total idiot.

shrewd personality, manipulation, i guess its always present huh?

when social drinking crosses the line

2009-04-10T08:23:00.000-07:00

Before the reading commence,

I WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE IF PPL WHO LEAVE COMMENTS AT MY TAGBOARD WOULD KINDLY PUT THEIR NAMES BESIDE THEIR COMMENTS.

THANK YOU!
this is to prevent unwanted disputes, i.e. what happened in my friends' tagboard leading to a whole lot of shit.
and personally, i hate ppl tagging behind the names of : passer-by, pb, anon, x, ..., and watever shit. if u cared/bothered to leave a comment then i assume u should be able to stand by it yah? if not dun comment.

Disclaimer: any similar names tt i mentioned above if u hav used it before this post, wad i meant is a general statment. but after this post, it would mean YOU. thanks for reading.

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There's a really thin line between social drinking and alcohol dependency of some sort.
What most people do think of themselves is that,

" Oh, I'm just a social drinker, occasional drinks with friends thats all."

But how occasional is occasional? Thats a question to be asked.

By definition from the dictionary, occasional means occurring or appearing at irregular or infrequent intervals.

"irregular" or "infrequent" checked. So it appropriately means once in a while rite? Search yourself. Do these words ring a bell in your head? No. I presume. How about "regular" and "frequent" ? Do they click now? Well, the ironies in life.

"Generally, social drinkers use alcohol to relax and increase good feelings. It's easy for them to limit drinking. Many people say they are social drinkers, and yet cannot imagine dinner or a bad day without alcohol. Some of these people are alcoholics."(1)

Do you feel that way?

So, how do we know that we have crossed the line? Whoops...
Well writing it down here, you are crossing the line if you:

-use alcohol to help you get through painful situations or feelings.
-ever defend or hide your drinking; can't remember what happened after drinking a little too much.
-resent other people's advice who want you to drink less; drink alone.
-have problems you've had trouble solving due to your drinking.
-change in tolerance to alcohol. (1)

It is indeed very saddening to know that one of god's divine plans- the natural fermentation process( to bring things back to earth naturally) is economically manipulated by his own proudest creation.

haha, pardon me for my blunderings. And and pls dun come and judge my sentence. i am just playing with words tts all.

and i certainly dun need anywan to tell mi tt my spellings or grammar nor vocabulary is wrg.

Imperfection is also a work of beauty.

ref: (ps i am damn lazy to rewrite)

1. http://www.memorialhospital.org/Library/general/general-SOCIAL.html

nth much

2009-04-06T10:12:00.000-07:00

supposed to be very free but dunno why things seem to keep mi damn damn busy. wth.
guess wad am i doing now? i am editing my sis proj work AGAIN lol. yes, while waiting for dear darling to come back from sabai sabai.

went to tiong bahru to shop for my cosmetic basics and bought a new mascara; LashSculpture. the brush is damn fantastic lorz, but i hav yet to establish whether it will smudge on me as the time goes by. cuz for mi even maybelline XXL waterproof smudges on me. wth. i love the comb which is 3 rows instead of 1. separates lyk nobody's business. haha... losted my shiny brown eyeshadow, wonder where the hell it went to.

then gotto rush back to crescent to meet genie, who is passing my my AMPOULES!!

Heard tt Seetin? haha, i'll pass to Alan who will bring it down to raymond's shop tml. love ya.

then dun feel lyk going home so early so i called jie if she wans to come down eat and tok. but she's at illusion, alone. thus mi rush all the way down to illusion to acc her. tok, drink, play.

heading out tml to bugis with her or maybe the nxt day. darling dear wans to find shorts and ask mi to go buy for him. he is seriously in need of shorts. not the baggy bermuda kind, but the nice looking, shuai shuai kind, i dunno how to tell u guys lol. wait and see lorz...

my gosh, darling i see so many nice looking necklaces tt i wan u to wear. hee. ur fav steel with carbon fibre.. :)

to seetin: the ring we saw priced at 159 bucks , three-tiered rose gold de with cubic zirconia is actually a copy of cartier de lol. correct mi if i am wrg. haha.. i saw it on a US webby too. but they only got size 8.5. and a few blvgari rings tt is so so so nice larz...

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for centuries, the word sensitivity is totally not to be found in a man's possession. its lyk they are immune or something. but as the 21st century has already set foot onto our world, are man getting something to it? or do they just act as if they hav absolutely no clue as to wad is going to change? despising changes, they simply made use of the "man are from mars, woman are from venus" theorem as a shield to cover themselves, denying the need to learn the meaning of "sensitive" and its uses???
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the more u wan to hide something, the more the truth will emerge. as scary as it can be. the worser it will ever be.
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sometimes u may be very gd frens with a person. u tell her everything and anything. then one day u found out tt u dun lyk her. then the worse got hold of u and u started spilling secrets of each other??
or
is it possible tt u will tell others things tt will delibrately pull frenz apart from the person, lowering the credibility of the person so tt one day when ur ugliest truth comes out, ppl rather believe u than her.

dun be offended, its just a spur of a moment thingy tt i hav in mind.

sometimes being the top-most of the animal hierachy and the ecological food pyramid, humans can be just as scary yeah? read the papers every day, terrorism, murders, etc. animals kill for survival but we being better than them, the honourable representatives of humanity, we humans kill for fun, for revenge, for the riches, or just for the sake of ending ppls' lives..

wad was tt saying again?

oh yeah, "worse than animal..."

wad do u say ?

Careful! u dun noe wad he/she is tinking

2009-04-03T15:03:00.000-07:00

actually from dunno since when, i noe he/she is not a plain character. he/she seems to hav a motive in doing everything. well, let us observe more closely shall we?

scary there, be careful...

i wonder...

2009-04-03T12:56:00.000-07:00

tried the ampoule from genie and i feel great after using. ordered 4 boxes together with seetin. :)
but ppl ppl i am afraid its jus the placebo effect. surely not rite? tell mi the ampoules do work.. hee..

well, cuz i had tt during the time when i changed my facial foam. the galenic foam wash to the himalayans neem facial wash. eww... and i tot the money was well saved. end up its jus mi and my mind. nah. dun tok about tt anymore.

so anyways, seetin and edna, hav a safe and fun trip to taiwan! :)
haiz, goodness gracious! i am so envious. nah, jus kidding.

it will be my turn in may. yeah! bankok trip with love and frenz. mi lyk the sound of it. super duper elated just tinking about going overseas with babykiins. just lyk tt time we went to genting. :)

to my victoria dear. my dear, darling, love and sweetheart et cetera since sec sch. call mi up yeah, when u are free, which i noe the odds is very little. haha. at least for this month. :)

yawns. darling dear where are u. i tot u will be back by now? i need my daily dose of pampering. hee...

hey

2009-04-02T21:56:00.000-07:00

to my dearest darling, i noe u are tired, stressed with work and all et cetera but dun bring the stress home alrite? its not fair to mi. u can choose to tok, i'll listen kays? do u noe it always hurts when u get easily very easily irritated in these times? its lyk my feelings does worth anything to u u noe?

okie, anyway abit of updates.

went to Jurong point for some shopping but nothing caught my fancy so well, money saved haha. renewed my phone contract too with a new iphone. haha, but i sold it to darling. well, at least up till now i am still not a iphone fan so why bother rite?

met up with mei and family and dinner is served at sakura! yeah... er, not literally larz, its a buffet wad so we serve ourselves haha... i ate damn huge amount of food larz, but dunno why not really full lorz.

but i guess i lyk the ambience at the clementi woods sakura better.. the design of the 900plus sakura lyk macham foodcourt lehz..lol...

takeaway sushi for darling ytd, is it ytd or the day before i forget liao hee... was at jp and texted darling whether he wanted anything but i was alrdy tinking of sushi but dare not ask him. later i guess wrg leh? hahaha... but as it turned out. he indeed wanted sushi so sushi it is.

speaking of which, i suddenly hav the urge to make sushi at home lol. but then hav to go buy lotsa ingredients, all darz favorite. :) okok, i tink maybe a few days later..

OMG, gotta rush.. bye all..

wad do u see?

2009-03-30T14:36:00.000-07:00

when u see mi, hav u ever taken any time to notice if i am happy or sad?

when i greet u with a cheerful face everyday without fail, hav u ever wondered a sec tt tt is just a cover for wad is hurting inside?

wad role do i actually play in ur heart, mind and soul?

when i am consoling others i actually do hav saddness in my heart too. didnt it feels stupid?

i just want u to show mi u love mi, u need mi, not just telling mi tt when i tell u about it.
u noe, in actions?

anyway, i guess its the same old ranting. cuz u wun get to read it.

u noe this blog, but i guess u tink u dun need to read.

Everyday becomes a routine to mi. pathetic. at the end of the day, its off to bed i guess...

gd nite.

weird ppl

2009-03-30T10:27:00.000-07:00

some ppl are jus freaking weird.

i just read xiaxue's post today. haha, tt melinda is freaking bo liao lorz. haha.

seriously why the hell ppl do this kind of thing? very fun mehz? maybe they thrive in ppl's sorrow et cetera. haha

i still rmb having this particular girl tt messaged mi in friendster 1 yr plus ago i tink.

guess wad its about?

she is messaging mi just to tell mi how gd my current bf is, and how he is her most raved guy among all her bfs. to top it off, she wants to tell mi to cherish him and the time spent together with him.

for god's sake!
seriously funny/ crazily insane rite?

and i m lyk " i dun need U to tell mi how gd a bf he IS."

"and i dun need to noe he is the greatest guy or wad ever u hav ever meet cuz to mi its redundant and bullshit."

"and i dun freaking need u to remind mi to cherish him cuz FYI u hav no stand anymore."

do i need u to tell mi all these? or u just wan to msg mi to make mi feel sorry for u or quarrel with him or brk up with him ?

well, we all are human so if u r the previous girl, i would not hav mind( maybe just alittle) becuz well, u are the ex. but u are the ex ex. so tt makes alot of difference. tt alone will forfeit u the reason to msg mi in friendster regarding my bf.

(it happens tt she msged my bf too, but different from mine and bf told mi about it and ask mi not to care)

i noe its so long ago and i shdnt hav bring it all up but well, reading xiaxue's blog jus brought this topic up so well, let mi rant abit yeah?

and for a 1 or 2 mths i tot tt was it. peaceful life will return and i can relax in darling's arms. but hell no. she say she got cancer. told the whole world she only had a few months left.

WTF rite??!!!??!?!?!?

Some ppl are just so imaginative. maybe its the influence of the korean drama/soap operas or tv sitcoms. if i am not careful i might hav really tot tt it was real. darling and the whole grp noes about it and they told mi not to be swayed by her so i jus carried on with my life. then one day darling return home to tell mi tt she took her hp for repair at his shop and conveniently told him and his grp of frenz tt she got cancer and now she just want to fulfil her life everyday tts all. lol.

clementi so many hp shops and she oh-so-conveniently brought her hp to jurong. lol then why cant she collect it herself at the same place? why muz let my bf sent the hp to her void deck?

and i ask darling if he believes her story. guess wad is his reply?

"aiyah, she bluff wan larz, she always bluff ppl wan..."

HAV U COME ACROSS SUCH PPL TOO?

its quite hard to believe they existed unless u ran into them huh?

lethargic

2009-03-30T09:00:00.000-07:00

i dunno why but i am so freaking tired of everything these few days.
maybe its the 'emo' period lol, beats mi...

went to illusion on sat for boon's birthday celebration.

was lazying ard packing things etc when dear seetin smsed, asking whether i wanna go shopping. lol, her reason? she jus got her pay hee...

met up with her ard 6 plus @ far east plaza. hmm, bought nothing as bankok trip is nearing. but i am still very tempted to buy dresses and tube jumpers from blossoms. haiz... i super love dresses!!!

seetin was looking forward to spend an amount at a certain shop to get her membership but then haiz, no luck. the current season not tt tempting. :)

late nite shopping at orchard tt nite so we set off for illusion only at ard 11 plus near 12mn. hee.
we were lyk so so surprised tt cine was still very packed larz.

haiz, tired tired tired...

baby, faster settle ur tings and come back... i want sayang, i feel so empty... ( not ur fault larz, just suddenly wan to hav a little tantrum and hope to cuddle in ur arms.)

(".) muacks

funny show

2009-03-27T15:31:00.000-07:00

oh yah, gotta recommend a show for u guys.

its something lyk friends. but its more "chim". there's more substance in it larz. if u dun understand then u wun find it enjoyable. and some characters tok very fast.

its called: the big bang theory
its damn damn funny larz. nice show.
i super love sheldon. he is lyk so so so logical in absolutely everything. REALLY!!!

go watch and u will noe why.

thanks arh L, now tt u recommend mi the show i hav been stuck in front of my com till i finish the whole series. not to mention u got urself "poon-ed" whahaha... "self-poon" ( inside joke)

kk... i go continue my show liao.

oh yah, HOW I MET YOUR MUM also very nice. kinda lyk rubbish rubish type lol. also darn funny.

hav fun everyone.

:)

trust

2009-03-27T15:18:00.000-07:00

one day

u found out

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tt the person whom u trust the most

********

is the person who betrayed u to the ultimum.

***************

wad will u do?

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kill him/her?

treat it as nothing ever happen so tt everything will be like last time?

kill urself?

___

what if

ur fren noes

but nv tell u

wad will u tink?

wad will u do?

hmm...

2009-03-27T13:11:00.000-07:00

i always feel insecure when he/they are with him somemore at tt kinda places. haiz... alot of things tt cannot be said cuz firstly he may deny, and secondly he wun believe, which brings mi back to the first point cuz the evidences are relevant but then again he will deny thus not believing nor understanding why i feel this way.

i noe i noe, everybody will say well, it depends on how much u trust him yada yadah yadah... yes i noe and a big yes i do trust him but then well, if u noe mi, to put it in a blunt and straight forward way, " HE IS MINE. I DUN LYK PPL(girls) TO TOUCH NO MATTER HOW OR WHERE!" sry darling, i dun mean to be crude but then its directly translated from chinese and i noe this is wad u will feel too towards mi so its the same yeah?

a little digression. just a tad.

sian. i always tot homo sapiens are the most superior(spell check anyone, i am lazy) species among all? but well, stories and all always struck mi in awe as to why are we lyk well, degrading instead of improving?

okie ppl not everyone but i am speaking again IN GENERAL. peace :)

jus cant understand and curious, so well...

have anyone ever told u tt :"in order to have something, u hav got to work hard to get it."
i am sure this is the typical teachers, parents teaching to us rite?

but hav u ever hear ppl saying to u :" there's no free dinner in this world. if u wan _________, u got to give ( insert whoever's name) __________ in exchange for it. "

according to this sentence, how far will u go?

for ppl who are curious as to who told mi this or where i hear this from, i will answer only this much: this sentence is the basic element of wad was being told to mi. but i shall not disclose the full story/sentence cuz i dun wan to pick up any fight or rubbish from PASSERS-BY who hav absolutely nothing to do. ACCUSATION IS ALSO NOT MY TOPIC OF THE DAY.

i wrote abt this cuz it jus came back into memory and i was pondering as to why ppl can do such a thing and horrors of horror, there are a whole lot of ppl doing it.

share a story with u guys.

no offence to anyone. i just find this amusing. :)

i was told by one of my customer/client while working at one of the skincare counters tt there's this "in" thing now in the pros*******n industry. haha
she was doing some shopping for cosmetic at this certain counter when she saw this china woman browsing thru the make-ups/skincare and fragances. the china woman was looking sorta scared and then my customer saw the guy standing beside her. they dun look/behave lyk a couple and so tt arouse my customer's curiousity. the woman will browse, pick up something, look at the guy quizzingly, and repeat the previous actions till a product/s tt she lyk is in the suitable price range for the guy(who was suppose to pay for the item/s) and then head off to the cashier. amused by the scene, my customer who was a regular at tt counter chatted with the BA to find out wad was the whole idea behind. it was then revealed tt now, guys dun need to pay in cash for s**. they just have to buy what ever the P wants and then pay( within the range). Amazing rite? Branded, cosmetics etc etc... wad has the world become?
my ex-colleague heard of this too, we were listening to it together lol. :)

in the animal kindom, animals hav wild romps cuz its typical, to ensure life continues, cuz to them, life is short. essential.
whereas in the human world, its nothing about reproduction, its just for the pleasure and sadly, for a purpose( see above to understand). again, hav we forgotten about the existence of HIV(human immunodeficiency virus)? is it worth it?

over-rated?

2009-03-25T10:28:00.000-07:00

well, i must say, W-O-W WOW!

so many things all happening again. and again. haiz, why ppl why?

okie digression...

as i have blogged in my previous post before, the word forever is so darn over-rated! yes, u heard mi rite. it IS OVER-rated.

have ur fren ever told u tt u will be frens FOREVER and then something happened or did not happen but somehow or rather u guys dun tok EVER again?
wait wait dun interupt mi...

have ur bf/gf told u tt u will always be together FOREVER not matter what nobody's gonna leave but then over night or somehow or rather, u guys walked different directions and NEVER EVER contacted again?
aei amigo wait wait a moment...

have anywan ever told u tt something of some sort will lyk last FOREVER or take FOREVER before u finish or somewad similar( u noe wad i mean) but then it really DOES NOT TAKE FOREVER to measure? esp in sales huh? :)

see amigo SEE!

ppl use the word FOREVER so sparingly tt its not lyk the high class cavier served in those uppity restaurant, its lyk it can be poured into bowls after bowls de ketchup/chilli sauce. somemore free of charge. lmao

so well ppl, if anywan tells u again blah blah blah FOREVER, jus give a laugh and take its as at tt point only. well, i noe some ARE meant to be for real, THE REAL FOREVER but who noes? at least u dun get ur expectations too high up ya?

dun expect on the FOREVER. Expect more from the present. cherish the present. its easier, simplier and nearer, rite guys? haha if even for the present u are unhappy or in a messy sticky sorta situation then wads there in ur FOREVER(the future). the continuence of getting stuck? are u gonna get happy then ?

:)

embrace ur precious ones now, ur family and frenz, ppl who loves u, ur mi corazon( sry if i spell wrg, lazy to check) and cherish the present time tt u hav with them and forget about getting ur promise of the FOREVER thingy cuz only when u are happy and blissful now will it then lead to ur future happiness.

cheers!

im off to bed.

:)

UPDATES

2009-03-24T06:26:00.000-07:00

friday-
went bowling with jie and mei ling @safra mt faber.
yeah! got a high score of 156!!

(i am S-sheryl ; i noe for most ppl is lyk normal but for mi its quite a feat le k :) )

there was a sorta sales on the ground floor tt we went to while waiting for jie to reach safra. spent quite a few bucks haha. called darling whether he wants to replenish his stuff but he said its enough le so i didnt buy any. meiling jie was saying i very auntie, always noe got this kind of sale but hey, i jus walked past so of cuz i must noe mar rite?
hee, end up meiling bought lots of stuffs LOL. so who is the auntie rite now? hee :)

ate dinner and headed down to fly with them. jennifer joined us soon after. oh yah, saw alicia there too. haha. sry darling was tinking of going home early but i guess i hav a tad too much. hee.. sry darling dun angry k? considering i rarely go there de. :)

saturday-
giddy and down rite sick. keep wanting to vomit still so stayed at home. hee

sunday-
went fishing with hubbii and his frenz. kor, sunny, tortoise, steph, and anson. terry was SUPPOSED to be there but well, he went of in his aeroplane hee...

had lotsa fun, biibii caught 7 fish in total, not counting the wans tt he let go lol...

the total loot? 20 fishy fishy!!! :)

u shd hav looked at their faces when they are fighting the fish, damn serious man. i love the look on darling's face, so serious so shuai feel lyk kissing him on the spot. lol :) tts why i like to pei darling go fishing. no shopping nothing much to do also nvm. hee

tok to steph on some guys issues. seems lyk her tinking and mine is the same. lol...
the "bangs" hee..

seems lyk tt group of guys tt we belong to lyk their girlfrens to be a plain jane rather than pretties... god noes why, maybe cuz they dun lyk others to see or stare?

but but if ur gf is pretty or makes effort to prettify herself, dun u feel honoured?(cuz its for u) at least she willing to let u hav a better deal or sort( u look better?)

erm, i mean at least ppl wun say "er, huh? orh u mean this is ur girlfren arhz?" then seriously doubt ur taste in the back of their minds.

haha, all in all its just something to tink about. no offends to anywan. :)

so long nv meet u le girl, i miss u man!

yawns, signing off...

bye !

asdfghjkl

2009-03-19T12:13:00.000-07:00

我好生气啊！！！！！
你不理我就算了！！！！

呵！

to go or not to go?

2009-03-17T07:38:00.000-07:00

pel called jus now asking whether wan to go out. watch "race to witch mountain".

I SO WANNA GO LEHX, but then haiz, stupid.
later i keep running for the washroom, sian...

hmm, stay at home recuperate. tml or the day after maybe go back do test check. haiz, see how larz...

watching billy elliot now on funshion. damn touching.
i totally embrace those w.shakespeare shows and stories and movies with dance genre. maybe its also becuz i read the stories when i was young so it felt gd to watch these films. :) familiarity. yeap.

darling went out to drink AGAIN. yea, but nvm, wait for him to come home.
jie they all playing majong, haha, uncle hands itchy jio ka. haha

my sides are still pain damn. darling faster come home sayang mi!

sian-ness

2009-03-17T03:40:00.000-07:00

i am so darn bored.

i am so darn darn bored at home.

i am so sick sick sick of eating medicine.

stupid.

short trip

2009-03-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

jie sms ask whether i wan to go out. was tinking of safra or somwhere near. then she tot of ikea. haha... i immediately agreed. long time since i went there.

i had always lyk to go ikea, since sch days haha...

1stly, it cuz there feels so homely, and its kinda nice to browse and imagine wad my future house will be like. hee

2ndly, i so darn love the spanish meatball served there.... sweet juicy meatballs with that oh so delicious gravy, with potatoes and cranberry sauce...

walked ard looking at furnitures, crap and play, bought a few essentials and then jie say wan to try the meatballs. haha, shared a plate of 15. yummy! jie says yummy till feel lyk orgasm lol.

haiz, korkor jia lat liao...

guess where we headed to nxt?

sing shiong, haha...

we bought 5 bottles of vege oil, 5 litres each lol. jus mi and jie carry lol... with dynamo and bleach, and fruit juices and mee... haha... damn heavy. oh yeah, we saw a mouse in the supermart. lol sorta shouted out and the assistant immediately go chase after it. haha...

was totally out of breathh after carrying it to uncle's house haha.. so headed home instead of going safra. haha... nvm, nxt time.

going ikea again soon. :)

okie bye. gotta eat med and slp liao. haiz... sian ..

to the doc

2009-03-16T04:18:00.000-07:00

haiz, went to the doc's today. sian. this is the sec time liao, argh! got a course of antibiotics for 5 days. sian...
heng arh, tt time i got a big bag full of pills lorz, haha...

wasting myself at home now, jus had my dinner and med...

online watching tv hee. darling faster come home pei mi. u noe i sick very fragile de.
:(

feel lyk going safra haha...

muchas gracis

2009-03-15T10:33:00.000-07:00

thanks baby!

went to my'sia for a little relaxation today with baby, keong, lian, boon, juan, anson, zhen, hong and elaine. first time going in with baby. he always goes in with boon and all the guys only or most of the time, raymond. haha.

actually i didnt noe they were planning a trip there, i tot was fishing or sth.
the convo goes lyk tt:

"darling, u going where tml?"
"oh, i going my'sia tml."
"with kor they all arh?"
"yeah, and boon and dunno who..."
"bii, then mi lehz? i got go?"
"got arh, we go together lorz. where's ur passport?"

lol rite?
sometimes darling tok very funny wan. nv say straight to the point de. need to ask de. imagine if my passport not with mi? lol. i jus suddenly tot of the need to change my passport photo so i took it from home. lol jus nice. haha.

so we went to have ba kut teh first. of cuz after quite a massive jam. haha, but the line of cars were still in constant movement jus tt its a tat slow. but better then stopping and not moving at all! :)

then to southern for car accessories for the guys and we girls went for a walk ard. nothing much to shop. haha. off to holiday for mani and pedi. :):):) ITS THE SAME PRICE AS IN SINGAPORE LOL. BUT IN RINGGIT!! haha, happily did a classic pedi and top with extra colors woots. wanted to do my hands but i just buff and trim and shine it myself ytd so its lyk wasteful and somemore i always manage to spoil my mani outside, cuz its not totally dried actually so jus forget about it. haha

jie, heng and xiong came in the afternoon. jie did a dye and cut. quite nice lehz, and cheap, 280 buck nia. but i haven decide on wad style and i was kinda wanting to rebond again so well. next time. hee...

guess wad we had for dinner? crabby!!!! haha, heng i nv do mani if not sure sure sure spoil. how can i give up my crabby for my manicure? LOL say until lyk crabby is my darling lyk tt.

anyway, was kinda sick, so abit sian. and now, i am feeling abit of fever or headache liao i tink? haiz, dunno larz, die liao, tml go see doc ask darling to fetch mi ....

so feel lyk sai nai-ing now.... coo for darling...

guess wad we had for dinner?

a funny news

2009-03-14T10:57:00.000-07:00

saw this piece of news on yahoo before i went to bed.

i just had to put this up. haha...

LONDON (AFP) - - A British man fed up with his wife's complaints advertised her for sale -- and got a number of offers.

"Nagging Wife. No Tax, No MOT. Very high maintenance -- some rust," wrote Gary Bates, 38, in a small ad in Trade-It, more usually used to buy and sell cars or household goods.
Bates, a self-employed builder from Gloucestershire, southwest England, snapped after his wife Donna on got on his nerves while she was watching television and decided to place the ad as a joke.
"She was nagging me for doing something small, while she was watching some rubbish on TV. So I just thought I'd put an ad in to get rid of her.
"I didn't think anyone would ring up but I've had at least nine or 10 people calling about her. It's gone mad. There was no one I knew -- just people asking, 'Is she still available?'"
The couple only married last year, and Bates said his 40-year-old wife -- whom he advertised in the magazine's Free to Collect section, along with some of his fishing tackle -- initially gave him "a bit of an ear-bashing."
But he said: "She's seen the funny side of it now though!"

isnt it funnny? haha, imagine if u are angry at ur bf or gf and u put them up on sale.

okie, gotto go to bed.
ima waking up early tml.

ewww...

2009-03-12T11:07:00.000-07:00

i love this song

speaks alot...

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
为什么失眠的声音变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些差别
结局还能多明显
别说你会难过别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些差别
结局还能多明显
别说你会难过别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些差别
结局还能多明显
别说你会难过别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

doesnt the lyrics speaks of a whole world?

haha, its of the questions tt i keep pondering about, but sadly u hav no answers for mi.

love hurts

2009-03-12T09:41:00.000-07:00

went illusion ytd to pei jie and yeap since i am outside....

:)

today was suppose to meet one of my frenz but kenna aeroplane lol. when down to illusion near by to hav dinner with jie then went to illusion to hav a drink.
i swear we were there jus to relax and sing and tok... lol...
we drank 2 jugs each day nia.. lol and it was with wendy and jonathan. HAHA.

today we had yummy little cakes courtesy of jie who walk over to glace cuz it was featured in cleo mag i tink. shard it with wendy and all we took a taste at every single one.

IT WAS ABSOLUTELY HEAVENLY! even jonathan(a guy) says so.
(THE LOOK OF PURE ESTASY SAYS IT ALL-------------> we hav a photo to prove tt look. lol)
then jonathan say cannot lyk ah boon see his face in tt photo. he say ah boon will say it looks lyk cum face, lol... laugh till drop on the floor.

but haiz, it wasnt a very happy day cuz jie is sad.

wad to say?
love hurts.
totally.
its when u love someone so much tt it totally puts u down. u throw away ur diginity above everything to find tt he doesnt have the heart to settle down, lyk long term. its lyk someone gives u his heart and u are so protective of it then out of a sudden it dawn on u tt its not his heart, its a granite, time bomb. but u r already holding on to it so long tt u cannot put it down anymore. it explodes once u drop it on the ground. but alas eventually it will jus go off too cuz the time is up.
boom.
no choice.
u have none.

a porcupine without spikes is useless. it cant even protect itself. as good as dead.

do u noe tt feeling?

2009-03-11T13:43:00.000-07:00

feeling very frustrated right now...

who do u tink i am?

huh?

seems lyk u are not telling mi sth.

yeh?

okie, anyway went to jurong east to get some stuffs done and then off to pei jie.
we practically open a concert in illusion. lol. drank very little dun worry we are not drunk.
hmm, tml wad shd i do?

well, depends lorz...

let the time and day decide......

mood: feeling very "wad the " and "huh" rite now.

shows and books

2009-03-09T12:54:00.000-07:00

SERIOUSLY WANT TO GET HOLD OF THIS BOOKS:

the classics of:

-black beauty( the story tt i loved since young)
-twilight series ( all 4 books)

-the promise
-ninteen minutes( if i am not wrg)
-the pact( damn nice story i want to keep it)
-keeping faith
all written by Jodi Picoult( her books are damn touching)

-the whole series of "flowers of the attic" ( then followed by dunno wad "petals in the wind" or sorts)

William Shakespeare classics (my raved novels):
all in FULL Latin versions
-romeo and juliet (romantic, renounce ur name and i shall not be a capulet)
-the merchant of venice ( a pound of flesh to be taken but not a blood could be shed. the cruel jew money lender haha)
-king lear ( "i love u like the salt in my dishes" , the poor foolish old king, selfish older sisters, hate them)
-macbeth (the three prophets, bloody hands)
- a midsummer's night dream ( the betrayal of helena and a stupid bad-messed up prank played)

if can attend the plays even better but i tink darling will not waste time and money for things he dun appreciate. haiz... nvm, can find the books in the correct version or hopefully the vcd or dvd wadever can watch de also gd hee...

I WANT TO WATCH THIS TOO:

-i am david (about how a boy survived running away from the nazi camp and learn things along the long long way till he reach his destination-denmark)
-hotel rwanda ( i watch before but missed a part of the show so wanted to watch again. a show where u will really tear for the lost of the africans' lives, a show to show how helpless the United Nations can be, the intervention came all too late.) ---I FOUND IT AT A CERTAIN WEBBY SO HAPPY NOW!!
-the pianist ( the cruelty of the german soldiers, if i am not mistaken. how music was humiliated, mistreated)

:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

PAIN hur~ sobs....

2009-03-09T10:51:00.000-07:00

went to pulau ubin on sun for cycling.

meiling and lilian they all say i ah dai, go before, still go 2 time somemore. lol

my third time to ubin but different ppl different crowd marz.

this time go with alot of ah dai hee, almost everyone nv go ubin before. whahaha....
tot will be windy, cloudy or rain summore but NV LORZ!!!

TOTALLY VERY SUNNY AND HOT!

AND

WE ALL NV APPLY SUNBLOCK LORZ!!!

Sian, all kenna burnt.
i tink me and lilian most jia lat de, cuz we white sia, our hands look lyk crab meat lorz, red on top white below. double sian. mi kenna burnt on my neck, arms, and legs.
the worse is my arms and neck. even i stretch my hands also pain sia. first time burnt till lyk tt. haiz. very pain. who wan to sayang mi? Darling i wan kiss kiss :(

then we went pasir ris cuz kor kor they all wan to fish. actually is fish in pulau ubin de but too hot. lol. no good spot too.
darling caught 2 fish heehee. kor kor each caught 1. then eat arnold chicken and headed for home. i super super tired lorz, the sun burned part all very pain.

argh!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-06T06:01:00.000-08:00

barney and frenz, haha so funny. the bros code is lyk DUH! lol

was watching comedies online and laughing my teeth off. whahaha...

darling playing mj with mi having nth to do.

Sian. stomach cramp. idiot. along with my temperamental mood. i hate it.

wanna go play now cannot liao. haiz...

....................rolling on bed........................

disappointed

2009-03-06T04:20:00.000-08:00

woke up, cooked some food to fill my stomach, online search on jobsdb, play viwawa, wondering y nokia haven called mi to pick up mei mei's phone.

went online to check on repair status but the job code cannot use, fcuk nokia lorz. cuz when i called them up they say oh, u can check online too, duh, lyk i nv. then manual check and they said, " Oh, your phone is ready for collection." wad the hell. and now i already cannot go down liao so late le. closing soon at 8pm.

haiz. nvm, dunno wad to do at home. stay at home rot. wait for mr chua to come home.

meanwhile, go online search for more things. lol.

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stupid lor, not i tell the person de okie. u dun anyhow tink lorz. "i thought u say marz, i thought u tell de marz."

FYI for ur information i dun even noe u were going to do tt lorz. how am i suppose to tell other ppl u wan to do wad when i dun even noe in the first place? use ur head and tink can, dun anyhow malign mi horz. and u even cor mi names some more. u confirm with him and not he say de tt automatically means i say de mehz? got this kind of auto thing de mehz? somemore it does not concern mi at all how the hell i noe, how the hell i say?

of all ppl its u. disappointing lorz.. seriously.

dun wan to care so much liao.
no point de.
make myself more miserable nia.
when ur sacrifice is way way WAY below what u are getting back, its not worth it. NOW i understand.

2009-03-05T14:04:00.000-08:00

sometimes u really need some things to happen then u can truely see wad ppl mean.
maybe its becuz i choose it this way. cuz i am the kind of ppl that only tink tt seeing is believing.
ppl tell mi i wun tink its true. but when it happen and i see it, then i will believe.

haiz, so bored, why u so busy?

stayed at home today till ard 9 plus then darling bring mi go pray. met up with boon, elaine, huihong and anson before going. but its raining damn damn heavily. ( it was already raining when i went out of the hse) thus we went to eat ard tiong bahru area.

it was already near midnite liao when we finish, and temple close liao lehz, i tink cuz heavy rain since 9 plus so boon suggest illusion and we went down for a drink lorz. then its home sweet home after tt.

tml not going suntec liao. sian. pris somemore tell mi today she go see nv find anything. heng i nv go down. haha. and i search online for marina sands IR job postings liao. its more for ppl who wan to switch job, hav the experience, diploma in hospitality and tourism etc de lorz. LOL.

so sian. dunno wad to do at home. nvm, go jobsdb look look again.

sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes dunno wad to tink, sometimes dunno wad to do. haiz... sian lorz...

why????

muz faster find prog for mi liao. i wan to rot liao... and bored and crazy liao .....

screams!

go slp liao.

nitez...

2009-03-04T06:23:00.000-08:00

haiz, actually very very frastrated very irritated but after toking to you i feel better liao thanks.
see i got xin wan horz, got happy things cor u unhappy also tell u. :)
y u so busy ai yoh, but nvm, got time meet for dinner k? rmb horz. :)

tml maybe wan go pray. dunno wad time. mus wait for them to decide. haiz. i am bored to death at home. feeling damn down damn sian. so went retail therapy these few days, lol. i gd girl liao lorz, at least all the clothes and stuffs i bought is not redundant de and not expensive. if not i broke liao.

haha, anywan wan to sponsor mi lol. joking joking....

:)

2009-03-04T05:45:00.000-08:00

fine.
i am stupid.
becuz i care for u.
becuz u say u r tired and coming home to rest.
then someone say u are going out.
cuz i cared so i asked whether u going out.
cuz i ask so u say i ask stupid question.
cuz i cared for u so i am stupid.
OKIE,
I AM STUPID CUZ I CARED!

i wun care anymore!

i so wanna get my hands on:

2009-03-03T12:09:00.000-08:00

yeap, i so so so want them:

VS the logo weekender bag (big de)

more dresses (lol, i lurvvvve dresses)

heels and flats(girls just get enough of them rite? hee)

bling bling crystals, pearls, tiny metal balls, glittery nail polishes and nude pinkish color polishes

anyone see nice nice color/stuffs above muz tell mi k? haha...

:) :) :) :) :)

kk go dream liao maybe can dream of shopping spree lol...

nitey niteYZzzZZzzzz!!!!

back hee

2009-03-03T12:03:00.000-08:00

back from bowling. whahaha...
today i tink i quite gd le, at least i improve le, hee... for mi larz. haha...

hmm, 5th to 8th march marina IR having roadshow recruiting ppl leh, from dealers to admin positions @ suntec, who wan to go with mi mi mi mi???? hee

bath, drink soup, gonna slp soon. :)

gd nitez everyone...

baggy haha...

2009-03-03T05:59:00.000-08:00

went to collect my vs tote ytd. yeah!

nice?

i love it to bits. yes, its the baggy tt darling promised mi as my birthdae pressie. not very very ex but then since i love it thus it became priceless haha...!

then jiu nothing to do liao so meet pel at bugis for dinner.
jia xin was still working at expo so we went to the arcade below for basketball. lol. played lousying. bo bian, dress too demure liao heehee...

went steamboat at one of the small small street shop. nice lehz. good service, good value for money. somemore is use hotplate not gas. i lyk whahaha...
jiaxin and pel frens joined us when we were halfway full. haha.

eat le dunno wad to do, pel wan to go ktv so we went to top one, cuz very near. chee-na ktv haha. sing songs lyk crazy haha, hav lotsa fun. make up songs and everything. haha... dessert at hongkong cafe then is home sweet home. whahahaha...

yah, i still own u hee. see when we meet. pai seh larz, today bills and repair settle liao already late le. and i gt bowing at nite. pai seh arhz. next time. :)

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mei mei bought 2 dresses at zimple today. whahaha, the offer still going on. good for her cuz she need the dresses for functions. enough to last her for months i guess haha... i bought a more demure piece for work or going out. so not lyk mi lorz, but okie larz. try lorz, since so cheap haha...

kk, time for bowling. update later or tml. any plans for tml anyone?

sat is shopping day!

2009-03-01T02:15:00.000-08:00

woke up ard 10am in the morning. YES, u got it rite, its really 10am okie. cuz wanted to go see sch with pel but then pel msg tt she cant go liao so i just fell back to slp lorz. woke up at 3 plus to a rainy rainy afternoon. wanted to meet mei juan but she hav to go dinner with boon and family haha. so meet later lorz.

went to far east to collect my mineral foundation tt i ordered online. b-e-a-u-tiful hee. shop shop ard wanting to find nice simple spagetti tops but found none. then just as i was about to go off to meet mei juan, i saw zimple on sale. yeah!!! haha, most of my dresses and tops are from zimple, cuz the small size from them is always just nice.

hee... wanted to buy afew dresses actually but then considering alot aunties are buying too( as always when there are sales they always seem to find their way down) so i just bought a dress tt aunties cannot wear or rather not their taste haha. a casual simple dress. haha. bought another spag top in blue and then off i go. rather tempted to buy tt turquoise layered dress lehz, and the color i tink aunties dun lyk to wear haha. see how ba. haha...

went illusion with mei juan and mei ling. meiling was actually tired but then happy hour she sure come de, hee rite? alina aka belle was there too. hav lotsa fun. meiling very bad larz, keep jioing mi drink lol, but i not so easy drunk wan larz. haha. played lots of games and we all drank as much, woots.

where, tell mi where are u? or when will u ?

2009-02-25T11:14:00.001-08:00

i just want someone tt will not only say i am his girlfren.
i just want someone who will not hesitate to show the whole world he loves mi with every bit of his heart.
i just want someone tt can prove to mi i am everything.
i just want someone tt can show mi in action tt i have more place in his heart than his frenz.
i just want someone who will treat mi as an equal and not a child who dunno anything.
i just want someone to share joy and pour sorrow to.
i just want someone who will always know whether i am happy, angry, or sad without mi telling him.
i just want someone who will trust mi to go anywhere, with anyone knowing tt i will always come back to him, safe & sound, pure and untouched.
i just want U to understand all these things which i tink sadly u are not going to be reading anyway well so i am just writing out my feelings tts all.

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u can pei ur frenz go drink cuz they break or wad then how come i cannot go out with her?
its not lyk i go drink with her in the long long nite lyk u but just go walk walk in town eat etc. and i dun meet her everyday, only sometimes.

haiz, i am not arguing here, just a sudden tot tt occur to mi. really hope u can understand. actually sometime if u are sharp, got other person tok also cannot listen de lorz. but i guess u wont believe, cuz u are not girl. dun bother asking. u dunno de.

updates updates!!

2009-02-24T11:17:00.000-08:00

about birthdae :)

okie larz, dun wan a big celebration, jus a quiet simple wan with darling biibii and mi.

woke up ard 12plus to prepare haha. then called darling wake up ard 1 plus.

headed down to the bank to do some instalment stuff before going off.

was wondering where to start when heng kor kor called. guess wad? ASK DARLING TO HELP HIM TAKE FATHER IC AND PASS IT TO HIM AT SIN MING INDUSTRIES. cuz he forgot need ic then can change exhuast lol. LOL! haha.

so we went running errand lorz.

darling got a toy strawberry hammer in the car tt he caught that has a funny sound when hit sth, and i was playing with it all the while during the journey. then when reach i tell kor kor, " i use this strawberry and beat u lorz." and he laugh. haha... :)

then i suddenly feel lyk eating japanese foodies, tink of sashimi, chawa mushi etc etc, all my favourite. so off we went to holland V tinking there got sakae sushi. lol, in the end its the higher end de haha, the broher, sushi tei. faints. but nvm, darling say eat there lorz, already there liao.

had my fill of all my favourites. hee, happy and satisfied. big smile on my face. hee.

next destination: vivo. go there walk walk romantic lol. nv buy things larz, jus walk walk ard cuz darling already ordered for mi my VS bag and also actually hav nothing in mind to buy liao. i love the VS bag.

bought cake and went home with darling to celebrate cuz mei mei wants to eat the cake. want to choose flavour somemore. lol. i jus say i dun care my bdae i choose. in the end also buy one of her favourite-chocolate moose! haiz. wad to say haha. baby dun understand why i wan to so far go home celebrate, but haiz, its a family tradition sorta, so i also cannot dun do, hope u understand. :)

last sun(sry i lazy to check date):

went to kusu island with biibii darling to pray sun sun( pronounced as soon-soon in chinese).

haha. late for the 1pm ferrie so we lazy at home abit and went for the 3pm ferrie.

pricing: ferrie to and fro S$15

cruiser to and fro S$25

which wld u take?

we took the ferrie cuz we not going for cruise wad, why take the cruiser, and we are going pray, not tour wad, lol.

picture will be updated when i clear a space in my laptop. hee

all in all, its a nice experience.

but we got stranded on the island for an hr plus, haha.

got back and went to eat ba kut teh cuz i told darling i miss eating tt dish at alexandra. so long since darling last brought mi there. :)

wanted to go prawning but other ppl jio majong, so my prawning pok liao lorz, haha.

nvm, prisy jie suddenly ask mi to pei her go drink at illusion so went back home, quick bath, change and off we go.

reach ard 10 plus arh? forgot le, keep dialing songs to sing, pris's main agenda. lol. listen talk drink play sing talk sing talk sing eat sing drink talk blah blah blah... told stupid jokes to david haha and we all laugh lyk mad. :)

home at ard 1 plus 2 and they still playing majong. not tired wan arhz? haha. chat awhile before pris went home first without heng.

darling win, happy! hee... slp liao. update again.

:)

yeah!

2009-02-18T21:51:00.000-08:00

all dressed up and ready to go.

woots.

super happy!

(kisses the air** )

LOL...

haha!

yeappy!

2009-02-18T03:05:00.000-08:00

yah, going for an interview on fri.
dunno will make it or not. pray hard will pass.
its one of my dream job lehz... haha.
sat sun off too. hee.

went bowling with jie. but sch slot lehz, so nvm tried our luck catching bears. lol.
we cleared half the machine for white mickeys and minnies. whaahah...
the staffs there where lyk all anticipating with us on our catch. whaha...

the funny episode of the winnie the pooh bear.
will upload the pics later wahaha..

wanna noe wad happen? ask jie lorz. whahaha...
okie okie, we wanted to catch the winnie but its to far in front. so we catch other mickeys. then it sort of slowly edge nearer and nearer to the hole with the amount of mickeys tt we caught and till it fell straight into the hole. lol.

hmm, kk going out to meet girl liao. will be home in time to watch darling play majong ..
haha... gd lucks...

happy valentine's day

2009-02-15T02:37:00.000-08:00

first of all, wish everyone a happy valentine's day!!!

lurves, huggies, smoochies and chocolates = uber sWeetnesS!

my 3rd V-day with my Beloved hubbii :)
didnt do anything much larz, v day is lyk too overrated haha. as the saying goes, if u are in lurve, everyday is Valentine's day.
darling couldnt skip work so well, wanted to watch movie after his work but then theres no midnite slots for look for a star, okie, or rather, its sold out hrs ago when i am checking the slots at 6pm.
wad did i said about being overrated, yeah? haha.
the curious case of benjamin buttons was too long for our liking, yeap, its 166 mins, and we were lyk counting 166mins= divided by 60 u get 2hrs 36 mins, W-O-W! cramp sia!
so in the end we all decided to head to illusion again, with the whole gang, well, almost larz.
biibii came home to fetch mi and auntie wanted to go too cuz uncle went out without her, hee. had our dinner at bt merah before going down.
lady luck was on my side, hee, i keep winning mei juan and ying ying at 5-10. lol. rare man. but our 5-5 game was a mess. wahaha...
den dunno how come suddenly they say going dragonfly. darling actually dun wan to go de, but meiling pysco him go, hee. but he went for awhile only larz, then went hme to rest cuz the next day he had to open shop. muacks, love u darling.
darling let mi stay there with meiling and co, went drinking with lynn, shan shan and raine for awhile. haha, i jus got the feeling tt she will come down so i msg her and indeed she was on her way already.
oh yah, sth funny haha. we we jus reach fly, i saw xue er. i tink she was at heng's table. lilian and meiling tot i nv see hee. then i ask them then they awkwardly acknowledge lol. anyway i am fine everyone. :)
and more coincidence lorz. when lynn ask mi to go cove 3 i was tinking dunno whether will see her there not. jus sit down and i saw her again. lol. shan told mi sth but nvm larz, haha, we dun care can liao lorz.
enjoyed my day with lynn, shan, raine and together with meiling and co. :)
haha, long time nv step into fly liao marz.. hee..

still got 4 days. yeah!
at least got sth to look forward to. :)

updates

2009-02-11T00:12:00.000-08:00

this few days hav been constantly heading out. haha. so not lyk mi ...
time for a rest. shagged.
gotta meet mei juan later in the evening, haha, ah boon u are so xin fu ! haha..

tok to leslie on msn ytd. haha, learnt a new word ( self-pooned) . laugh till i nearly peng.

haven really chatted lyk tt for years, k lar, not tt long lar huh. tok about so many stuffs, funny past times, freaking classmates, lecturers etc etc. i still cant forget leslie tot i was pregnant together with seetin at tt time. lol... laugh. stupid lorz.

relive those times when we went to the library in a big group and keep looking online for funny stuffs, watch movies and russell peter stand up comedies at almost anywhere and even during lectures.. wahaha... golden moments man. not forgeting we pass mini lab test papers from classes tt has taken them then use the answers for our own, haha, gd life lorz. even presentations also can jus take and pass off as our own with abit editting and stuffs, cuz different teachers LOL lor, isnt tt awesome or wad?

okie, i tink i need to go eat abit and prepare le. bye everyone!

孔子的中心思想是个仁。

己所不欲，勿施于人。

身陷其中，不知所措。

亡羊补牢，未为晚也。

众里寻他局已定，蓦然回首，海市蜃楼接眼帘。

haiz..

back back !!

2009-01-31T05:30:00.000-08:00

haha...

my blog looks quite dead now, lol.

well, anyway i jus came back from my trip and u cant blame mi for not updating when i left my lappy at darling's hse. hee waited for uber long and finally darling is back tonite. (jumps around for joy)

willl only be meeting him tml, cuz i 've some packing to do. wahaha.

spent my days upon returning by visiting relatives for CNY, oh yap, went out with seetin to jp to walk ard, tok of cus, and the ting tt i hav been obssessed with? reading the last 2 books of the harry potter series. hee. great story. took mi ard 2 to 3 days to finish it, amist everything. i want my twilight series next! 4 books in total i wonder if its thicker than the potter series, shdnt be so.

having some bks to read at hand certainly helps to lessen the anxiety of waiting for darling's return from his fishing trip. but alas the wait is finally over.

i hav lots of photos waiting to be uploaded, stay tuned, for i still have not got hold of the cable and everything. :) videos of fireworks and firecrackers, but i doubt blogger can support.

hav a happy new year everyone.

2009-01-22T06:12:00.000-08:00

today rush here then rush there.
then wait for dardarz to finish his stuffs before going tiong bahru for movie with darz.
hee, watched Love Matters.

Rate: 5 starz

haha, damn funny. i laugh lyk hell.
heng today watch 6plus show so not many ppl. and the ppl there also toking, laughing out loud so its okie. haha...

Plot somehow predictable but well, its at least this show is a bit different from other Neo productions. it leads u tinking about wads happening alot predictable but then again at least theres a little sarcastic twist at the back. haha... so funny.
issues lyk typical guys, playing around not settling down, no sex equals to not loving u, one nite stand kena blackmailed, child surfing porno sites, sch students fooling ard etc etc are the points surrounding the movie.

sth interesting.
somehow i keep feeling tt the show is lyk helping NEW MOON to sell their abalone lehz. those ppl who watch already can tell mi if u felt it too? lol. at one part i was lyk wah, so extravagant?
know why? there's this part where the guy in the movie was injured by the bookshelve tt fall down and when the girl found him, SHE COOK ABALONE PORRIDGE FOR HIM TO EAT LEHZ! LOL rite? dun u find it funny?

some quotes worth remembering:

“ 。。。我的青春小鸟一去不回来。” by Benny when Hui Ge was in fear of erectile dysfunction.

“ 东西旧了，是这样的。我这样慢慢弄弄着，慢慢就会起来的。。。” (in hokkien) by the carpark attendant becuz the entry barrier cannot go up. lol

“ 嗨，我就是他的妈妈。。。。。。我最喜欢吃香肠了，我们全家都喜欢吃香肠。。。” by the girl's mum with a sinister smirk.

the dream about him barely missed being castrated was true. the whole family wanted to test him. LOL.

him being afraid to eat a hotdog and 2 fishballs. lol

its a must watch guys. rmb go watch lol.

2009-01-21T10:19:00.000-08:00

checking GV for movie timing. lol...

my head hurts...

where for art thou Romeo lol...

i just wan to spent more time with u cuz u are flying off to bangkok soon all thanks to raymond.
and i will be in malaysia- granny hse.

all the fireworks and firecrackers cant even lighten up my mood cuz i am gonna miss u lyk hell but i tink u wont understand...

wads there to be excited when i cant even share the joy with u.

feeling so fcuked up now.

dun even feel lyk going back to granny's hse.

why?

every year we rush in the day before new year's eve or nite before eve. and then rush out on the morning or afternoon on the 2nd day of new year cuz of work and school. pack lyk hell then unpack lyk hell.
and when u are there, u cant expect to slp too much or even sufficient cuz everybody is in the mood of playing, who wans to slp. then so yap, the lack of slp.
and a hse filled to the brim with ppl (yes, tink of 30+++ ppl there. yes its at least this much, but not to worry there's enough space in the huge bangalow ) but there are only 2 bathrooms. lol sometimes me and my sis actually walk to our aunties hse to bath( in peace) lol with my auntie's daughter, my cousin. haha...

then the moment we come back we need to bath quickly and then its off to my father's side to bai nian. haiz... rush here rush there and i will eventually get sick again. LOL.

the pros are nice, tt i get to play with big red long firecrackers tt my frenz here dun even get to touch, not to even say light them up, and tons of different firecrackers and fireworks, sparkles, tt shoots into the air with the sound of thunder, the dancing of flames, the crackling of the crackers etc etc.

the cons is tt it is too too too rush. cant the government give us more public hols for our CNY ( its jus a wish. i noe its not possible) sometimes i wake up in malaysia tinking i am back in singapore already and the opposite too. when its time to go back home, i m lyk huh? i thought we jus reach only ytd. lol. yap confusing huh?

and and and I HATE PACKING AND UNPACKING SO FAST TT I WILL LOST SOMETHING IN TRANSITION!!!!

haiz, enought grumbling. my head is falling off with my nose. gotta get to bed le. nites everyone.

2009-01-21T06:42:00.000-08:00

Alls not well,

cuz

i

am

sick.

Damn it.

Blame the weather lol.

i tink i got the flu, heavy head, hot temperature, with my nose running about.
( nah, its just a figure of speech. :) )

SIAN SIAN SIAN ARH!

I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!

Where are u when i need u ?

anyway, to digress abit,
i hate tt stupid guy. just dissappear will ya?
u jus make the whole male species look damn stupid and outright retarded.
yes.

2009-01-11T04:45:00.000-08:00

baby fetched mi from home and we went to meet the company at somewhere ard bukit timah i tink.

Irvin restaurant.

for peranakan foodies!

see our long table dining , lol. mind u that is lyk half the dishes we had . imagine if i had taken the whole feast. lol. a crowded table tt would be.

busy busy

2009-01-09T22:45:00.000-08:00

baking biscuits!!! wahahahaa....

hungry liao... pix upload later...

:) all smiles...

baby wake mi up later k? love u !!

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kk.. here. a few only larz, my hands oily goowey liao..

butter, sugar, egg yolks .... eww.. :P

fold in the flour

roll in the cereal coating!

pineapple balls before baking...

after baking .. yummy!!

er...

opps, i tink i ate up the rest of the photos ...

hee...

tata..

freaking pissed

2009-01-08T22:57:00.000-08:00

i noe u are stressed about work, u dun hav enough slp.
but tt doesnt mean u can rant ur pent up feelings at me.

i hav my own stress too. but i did not add tt to ur burden.
when u say u go out drink, i let u go out relax.
when u come home, i cook for u, do everything for u.
when u wan to eat out at nite, i woke up early next morning to make brunch for u.
when u come home drunk, i clean up for u, even though i am pissed as to why u drank so much.
etc etc..... no need to say so much.

and and and i noe u are under stress so i have been extra extra nice to u.

but then wad did i get in return?

got scolded, "attituded", irritated.

kept telling myself tt it doesnt matter, but then it got worser by day. you promised to not treat mi lyk tt and the nxt morning u blew ur words away.

"tskk" at every small little thing. even my usual greetings is being treated as bo liao. Fine.
those words may be nothing to a fren but it hurts a thousand billion times when those words where thrown to mi, ur girlfren.

Sorry as u were but u chose to keep quiet as if nothing has happen, ever.
but in reality, its not tt way.

y keep trying to avoid problems when u actually noes tt it wun help at all?
By avoiding, problem will become problems, with an S behind it.

sometimes, i just dun understand wad are men tinking. they cared, but they act lyk they dun give a damn. they are scared, but they act as though its nothing to them.

y do you hav to hide ur feelings?

do u wan to wait till u lose it then u start to tink,
" erm, i tink i really might have lose something."

and

" oh, i tink tt might be really quite important to mi. "

and when its gone,
" well, i tink it wasnt much of my fault."

" she had wanted to go anyway."

" i suppose its okie. its destined to be lyk tt. "

sounds familiar?

HAIZ....

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he said sry, sry he doesnt meant it to be lyk tt. he doesnt wan it to mean tt way.

so wad is it suppose to mean?

asked why he kept quiet when he actually know tt i am in fact very very upset about tt episode, he said he dunno wad to say.

-_-|||

how nice lorz. then at least u can do something rite?
but no. he just kept driving.

later, when asked again, he replied the same. so wad happened to the word "T-R-Y, TRY?
u could at least try to save the situation rite?

enough of tt. alls peace now but i'll keep track.

if it happens again, i am going to turn slowly away. u could blame mi for all u wan but its u who hold the key. its lyk i am only turning on command. haha.

i wanna dye my hair.
had been wanting to have blue black colored hair the for the longest of time but well, haven done anyting yet haha. and i dun hav the color. maybe self-dye some dark red tints will do lol.

making biscuits for CNY!!! yeah.

hope tml will be a happy day.

immortality and eternity

2009-01-06T23:23:00.000-08:00

i just watched twilight.
beautifully touching, extremely saddening. fatal attraction. lethal seduction.

wad is love?

is it a kind of mutual attraction force between the opposite sexes,

a luxury, with pros and cons attached,

or,

a need, a very basic need in life?

how much are u willing to sacrifice for the one u love. to wad extend.

为爱的人，你能牺牲多少？

do u noe? do u have an answer in ur heart?

who has love so great that he or she can even trade his/her life in for eternity?

which brings in yet another question.

wad is eternity?
how do u measure it?

its the same as the word "forever".
honestly speaking, its so over-rated.

Do u believe a person when he or she says, "i love u forever baby. "

anyway, back to the movie.

" i want u. always. " meaningful, short and sweet.

the sentence tt i love most is, " is it not enough just to have a long and happy life with mi? "
to which she answered, " no."

if u have seen the movie, u will understand wad it truely means.

okie, time to come back to reality. and tt is --------- i need to slp liao .. bye.

2008-12-26T07:34:00.000-08:00

alot of overdue photos and some recent ones.

actually alot more but i lazy to upload...

wait damn long ...

haha...

Yeah, bling blings!

biibii and mi at illuzion

random photo with love again

mi, elaine and agnes

(bofore going ph)

doing.....

done :)

waiting for elaine to finish work, haha..

we love to take photo!

meiling and mi at wild wild wet

ling ling at wild wild wet. see my hair?!?!

mmm... yummy!

haha, see there!

Amelia and mi at powerhse!

yeah, caught a minnie! i got one for u too debbie!

mickey mickey!

wad the hell?

2008-12-26T06:29:00.000-08:00

today went down to eat with genie.

wad the f***. walking towards the foodcourt and a china woman knocked mi from behind and continue walking in front of mi, lyk i invisible, lyk she knock onto mi she nv feel anything. wad the hell.

so i exclaim to genie, no manners lorz, in chinese. then the stupid woman nv apologise or wad nvm lorz, she still turn ard and say, is u ownself block the way lorz.

WAD THE F**K LARZ! U BEHIND MI CROSS CANNOT SAY EXCUSE MI ARHZ? AT LEAST MAKE SOME SOUND RITE?

BUT SHE JUS KNOCK INTO MI AND WALK OF, LYK NTH HAPPEN LORZ.

COMEON, U NOT CHILDREN NOT OLD ELDERLY CANNOT SAY SRY ARHZ?

SO I SAY, WAD I BLOCK U, MY BEHIND NO EYES LEHZ.

AND SHE DARE TELL MI, " U WAN FIND FIGHT IZZT? U BELIEVE I KILL U ARH I TELL U... BLAH BLAH BLAH !!!" THROWING ASSAULTING WORDS AT MI.

WAD THE HELL LORZ...

IDIOT LEHZ..

AND U NOE WAD?

I MET ONE SIMILAR WAN AT JP BEFORE.

is all these stupid china women acting lyk tt, tts why all ppl stereotype against other good china ppl.

wow unbelievable!

2008-12-25T00:02:00.001-08:00

wish everyone a happy merry christmas!!!!!!!!!

ho ho ho...

true to the song,

ALL I WAN FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU!!
LOVE U LOTS DARLING DEAR!

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just as i was scrutinising at some other stuffs, i hear a news tt shocked me quite literally.

wow, really? i wondered, but it din take mi a quarter of a second to realise its true.

why?

it goes to the credibility of the person. i figured tt they hav no reasons to paint a bad image of the other person. :)

hmm, why?

this is always the question.

是他本来就是这样吗？还是鹤蚌相争，渔翁得利呢？

反话这门学问，说难不难，但若说易却不易。说得好，能赢得全场的信任。但是说得头不对尾，就会让你的公信力从此贬为复数。

幸好大家都知道他的个性，否哲我岂不是变成了他的代罪羔羊吗？对此，我感到万分的庆幸。

谢谢你把这件事告诉我，不然我就像个笨蛋一样。

My World, My Solace.

argh!!!

boring

the future : unknown

no title; i dunno wad title to put lol

HAHA randomness

back in action

there there, my life is lyk a cycle...

你 不曾发觉？？？

i miss u

gosh!

awsdfgyujkl

totally dishearten..

back in singapore

!!!!!!!!!!!!

a waste of my time

movieeee

sweet

relax @ melody valley

tis true

great show

outing with the girls

asdfghjkl

（ 我 ）最幸福的事

不值得

clubbing

so many

laugh out loud

...

wad i want

boring stuffs

tales of beedle the bard

i wan to be myself again

W-A-S-T-E!

crazy

XOXO

when social drinking crosses the line

nth much

Careful! u dun noe wad he/she is tinking

i wonder...

hey

wad do u see?

weird ppl

lethargic

funny show

trust

hmm...

over-rated?

UPDATES

asdfghjkl

to go or not to go?

sian-ness

short trip

to the doc

muchas gracis

a funny news

love hurts

shows and books

PAIN hur~ sobs....

disappointed

i so wanna get my hands on:

back hee

baggy haha...

sat is shopping day!

where, tell mi where are u? or when will u ?

updates updates!!

yeah!

yeappy!

happy valentine's day

updates

back back !!

busy busy

freaking pissed

immortality and eternity

wad the hell?

wow unbelievable!

你不曾发觉？？？

（我）最幸福的事