jus some photos :)

Just got home. hmm... darling's still outside.

Do you really understand mi?

Do u really noe who i am?

Do u really noe wad i need and wad i want?

Do you noe what i am tinking?

I miss u darling......

yes, i really do.

Every time, every day, every hour, every minutes, every second...

But do u miss mi too?

I am waiting for my darling biibii to come home. :)

I cant slp without u.

I am already used to laying in ur arms everyday,

dozing off to dreamland soundly,

knowing that no matter what happens,

you will always be around to protect me.

the mickey that you caught for mi.

every nite when u arent home yet, mickey will be u, accompanying mi.

A kiss for u biibii mickey.

Muacks, can u feel it?

okie, i shd go bath le.

later darling come back will kena scolding le.

hee...

camwhoring!

a pose with my make up removing wipes.

hmm...

how to open arh?

GD NITE DARLING!!!

come back give mi a kiss and wake mi up k?

**muacks**

went to meet kong ju to celebrate her son's birthdae. it was a long long time since i last seen them.

woke up at 2pm and went to vivocity early to find a present for chen xun. walk the whole of toy r us. haha, bought a car set for him and a pencil case for yong zhu, his sister. wanted to do some extra shopping but cuz there was no time le, thus i wentover to the sentosa gateway to wait for them to drive in.

we ate at a steamboat restaurant in sentosa(i dunno wad name lol). omg i wan to say sth, the soup base there is SO DELICIOUS! trust mi, its very different from wad we usually eat at the eat-all-you-can-for-a-price steamboat. the price, okie larz, abit pricey but hey, its worth it. the tea there,together with their soupbases, are all specially formulated, their own secret recipe haha.

strolled ard the island after dinner, and enjoyed the breeze at siloso beach, relaxing huh? okie larz, but hey plus running ard with the kids u will pass out larz haha. started drawing on the sand for fun after playing catching with the waves. drew a birthdae cake for little chen xun and he destroyed it rite after. the catch? he waited patiently for u to draw finish then destroyed it. at least feel some what better cuz he waited. ha.

played till ten plus and then off to home. they dropped mi at vivo bus stop and i took 131 home.

called darling and he said haven finish eating at the dinner. then ard 11 plus told mi he going illuzion. auntie ask mi where he go, so i said illuzion with kor kor they all. and she ask why i nv go ask alan bring mi go larz. so i called darling but he say ma fan. haiz, very long nv go out with darling de fren mei ling they all le. why darling wun ask mi go down and find him de? isit becuz mi ard he very ma fan or wad? even auntie tell mi " 你去找他啦！" haiz, if i go find him worse ba i guess. darling, why u lyk nv bring mi out with them le? is it because i hav become an inconvenience to u ? sometimes u jus make mi so confused and sad. maybe is i tink too much but then u nv really tell mi how u feel wad...

back from the highlands

Alrite, back from our short trip to genting, with ah boon, mei juan and of course my darling dear.
3 days 2 nites.........

day 1:
scheduled to reach golden mile to take the coach at 6.30am.
thus packed my stuffs and darling's the nite before and i didnt slp a wink. (later cannot slp on bus how? haha) darling slpt at ard 4 plus (still say dun wan slp wan watch tv). when i finish bathing saw him sound aslp in bed. make up, blow my hair and then ah boon called to say meet at market @6am to eat a quick brkfast. went to wake darling dear up but alas failed. he jus turned over and continued slpping. shook him quite violently 3 mins later but then he still nods him head but nv wake up. he finally woke up when i say late le, bus going off le. haha

shared a packet of black coffee with him and the 4 of us cabbed down to golden mile. board a bus numbered 8233 and off we go.

stopped over at yong peng and had a bowl of yong tau hu. damn nice, no wonder almost everyone queued at tt stall. ate my favourite kaya balls, nv had it for years seriously! yum.

doze off for the rest of the journey, experienced a bit of motion sickness. heng i had my mints. :)

reached genting at 1pm but then checking in is at 3pm thus we went for lunch first at "hou mei".
hmm, average tasting but hungry larz, so still swallowed.

checked in to first world's sec tower, the new wan, to a room with the number 12-833, familiar? :) mei juan and ah boon is in the room jus next to us.

went to the casino, a first time for mi, darling gave mi some money to play hee. tried jackpot, and "ta siao" won a few bucks. darling taught me roulette too and bacarrat. jus for fun larz, lyk ppl always say "go genting nv go casino go for wad sia?" hee

next is shopping time, actually wanna buy shoes from vincci, cuz its damn cheap, and they got sales now, but i dun lyk tt shoes so much so nv buy. darling bought renoma stuffs saying its cheap, and we walked ard, looking out for more bargains. bought 2 racer backs at FOS, real cheap haha.

had our dinner at mushroom garden, its a 5 mins drive from genting. the food there is fresh, delicious and a real deal. wads more, they have ard 7 vans for fetching ppl to and fro genting to their place, FOC! ha! i love their ba kut teh and seafood.

went back to our rooms, slpt a while and went to the casino again at 11pm plus for a few hrs of luck. but this time we went to the bigger wan. the ppl working there dress more pro sia. satin and nice colour combi. i lyk haha.

bathing in genting is lyk so so so cold larz. really the last time i go also not tt cold lorz. slp at ard 3am plus. :)

day2:

woke up at ard 10am , had starbucks for brkfast. shopped for a few hrs. bought a casual dress and darling bought 2 polo t's. took the cable car tt day. excellent view, greenery hee. ate at a simple restaurant down at half hill.not bad. bought lots of tidbits and visited a chocolate confectionery. oh my god, they have lots of chocolate flavours haha, even chilli and curry, fruits flavour, u name it i tink they got it all. there's a house made of chocolates too, and bunnies and corals. darling got to drag mi out larz, lol.

took the cable car back to genting. this time, there were fog everywhere, interesting.
bought tickets to they DREAMZ show, featuring the white tiger, white lion and big cute doggies(those with lots of fur lyk mops haha). a magic show cum musical. its lyk ur ur chilhood dream materializing. " welcome to ur inner child, welcome to ur dream...." indeed it is.

then again shopping eatting casino.............
darling and mi din slp on the 2nd day haha...

3rd day:
went back and rest awhile, bathe and met ah boon for free brkfast. but he called to say tt the brkfast not nice, so we go eat dim sum. after dim sum, we went back to pack our stuffs and checked out. left our bags to the bell boy and we went to the casino for a last round of fight back( ah boon say de) haha. and something funny happened. the police there stopped mi and ask mi how old am i. come on, i go in and out in and out uber times and now then u check mi. showed my passsport, and said "1987" then he let mi in LOL!!!

board the bus at 2.30pm and off we come, back to singapore, a stressful place on earth haha.

back again

well, a short post here might end up in a long one so if u dun hav the time, dun read. ha!


first of all, i tink the last few posts was written when i was full of "sai-nai-ness". due to the fact that my baby(biibii) was home in the 'wee of morning' almost everyday, thus the 'tei-princess' in me rebelled.


tok to darling about it, and he realized tt i need him to pay more attention to mi thus all's well now.
SORRY DARLING, IF I EVER ADD PRESSURE ON YOU. I CANT HELP BUT JUS LOVE THE FEELING OF BEING PAMPERED BY U . (by which i dun mean being pampered as in the buying of branded stuffs for mi, wad i wan is jus ur attention and care and the feeling of utmost importance to u. i want to be the little princess tt u will always dote on in ur heart. )
ps: haha cuz i dun adore ***** ******* etc. ( personal joke: only understood by sunny and gang and of cuz darling and mi.

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hee, some random posts:

went buffet-ing with biibii, together with sunny, steph, jarrod, and ah yong. a fun bunch of ppl, ha! wanting to go sakae but then cuz its quite ex(ar la carte) and not tt much of variety hence we ended up eating at sakura instead.

sakura @ clementi woods:

quite a gd ambience, double storey with foodies all ard. yum.

something interesting, biibii and his frenz found something called the "aladdin magic prawns".

the catch? u hav to eat it raw. well, not tt its a challenge but it is eaten yes, RAW!

eww. they tried. its fresh but then it still has tt 'fresh' smell if u get wad i mean. yuck.

went fishing with them after dinner, so its the guys fishing, steph and mi toking, as usual.

haiz, actually, quite envious of the couple. they both know wad they wanted, wad they muz do, wad they cant.

hmm, speaking of which , when will i even gonna know wad biibii is thinking, what he wants? i guess tt the prob with falling in love with a scorpio guy.

hee, darling came home and i asked him to humor mi and tt cheeky baby replied, " ni yi tian yao tei ji ci? " haha, classic!

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darling went fishing with sunnny again.(sunny sucks. hee sunny himself say de cuz someone who adores LV say he sucks and apparently a guy told him.)

sunny came to collect his fishing rod. when he saw mi at home, he mentioned," why u all girls nv make up all look so different de? buay kua leh!" oh my god i am so sad. but i noe he is jus kidding larz.

then when darling came home i told him and added tt i am very sad, in an attempt to get him to sayang mi. but he jus said, " aiyah, sunny joking de larz, u noe him de."

i noe larz, i jus wan to tei, " y u lyk tt de, u cannot humor mi and say nvm l,arz, sunny joking de, darling mi say u pretty can le de mehz? "

so he replied, " oh, so ke lian. come darling sayang u..."

hmph, tt cheeky bii, always lyk tt de. :)

tts why i cant love u enough... muacks!

here again

here i am at home again, waiting for him to come home.
seriously i dun even noe why i cared for so many times.
(other than i love him tonnes but this is really getting out of hand.)

well, i am pretty pretty sure that i am not paranoid as in i dun call him when he's out lyk every 5 mins to half hour so i'm cool rite? And he said he will be out to a buffet but will be back quite early which means somewhere ard 2am to 3am will be appropriate?

SERIOUSLY GUYS, AM I ASKING FOR TOO MUCH? judging by the fact tt he has been out late for lyk at least a whole week?

well, 2 can play the game then but on the other hand, he will be damn pissed and then i'll probably be deadmeat if i follow his suit and my frenz will most probably go down with mi, if u could get the picture tts it.

why?
let mi tell u cuz i tried once okie, twice to be exact and wad did he do?
he called and ask where am i ?
why am i out so late?
why at those kinda places?
and his tone? anger.

and thus he went to drink too with his frens and for god's sake when i get home then he will prepare to get home.
its lyk i cant be the last to get home if i am outside excluding jus work.

u noe, somtimes i jus feel lyk so sad, i keep wondering if we were meant to be together?
if we are, then worse still.
i'm lyk, " AM I DESTINE TO WAIT FOR YOU LYK TT FOREVER, EVEN AFTER WE GOT MARRIED?" (if we ever got married tt is.)

when i asked u what am i to u ? cuz it always seems tt ur frenz, ur brothers are lyk of more importance to u then i do. u said no, tts different cuz you dun noe how to express ur feeling thus unforturnately made mi feel this way. but hey, u need to learn how to express how u feel towards mi cuz i cant read ur mind, i dun noe what u are thinking. (if i knew, i wouldnt hav to go thru so much.)

u said u are not somebody who will always say "i love u."
u said u are not somebody who will show ur affections in front of others.
u said u are not somebody who will know how to pamper ur gf.
u said u are in fact a "woodblock".
but darling, can u at least, the very least let mi feel in every way tt i am someone special in ur life, someone of the utmost importance?
u are way more than first priority in my life, and i am very sure i have in many many ways proven to u tt it is true, indeed very true.
how about u ?
PROVE IT, PROVE IT TO ME.



cuz i am getting too tired to go on.

soon.

I aint happy rite now

yes, u got tt rite!
I AM NOT HAPPY RITE NOW, AT ALL.
u used to be so gd, well i m not saying tt u arent gd now jus tt as compared to when we jus started out, u fell out alot,BY A HUGE MARGIN.
maybe its because i made it clear tt i am already yours, thus u can jus slack down.
u used to consider my feelings, if i dun lyk, u wont do it, well now its seems lyk its nothing to u.
eg:
i rmb a time when u promised to fetch mi to ur house and to spent time with mi cuz i wasnt staying t ur hse at tt point of time. The next nite, u called to say tt u wanna go out with alan (if i rmb correctly).i kept quiet on the phone, being quite pissed off. (the reason i m pissed was cuz i have being working and have not met him for a few days) he ask whether its alrite and i said yah, its fine, u can go find him if u wan. detecting sth's wrong, he called again to say he's not going anymore and came to pick mi up. i replied tt if he wan, he can go, it does matter even thou it matters alot to mi, but he said its okie, cuz he promised mi.
tt was sweet.
NOW?
i dun tink he rmbs wad he promised mi anymore.
and its not lyk i wan him to promise mi an LV bag or a Gucci wallet.
wad he promised is usually to come home early to accompany mi, or to bring mi out cuz we haven being going out for a long time.
and most of the time, hurtingly, he doesnt keeps to his promises.
sad huh?
wad can i do to u?
wad do u wan mi to do?
well, jus a few weeks ago, he said he'll be home straight after work.
wanting to dote on him, i said i'll be cooking spagetti for his dinner and he replied he'll eat it aft he gets home.
(read:straight aft work)
so i went down to buy the ingredients and everything, practically died carrying such heavy weights all the way back to his hse. Prepared, washed, cut, cooked and everything timed to be ready when he gets home at ard a predicting time of 11 plus so tt he can eat it piping hot.
BUT THEN HE CALLED TO TELL MI TT HE IS GONNA FIND HIS FREN AWHILE AND BACK SOON.( read: soon)
thus i swallowed my anger ( not tt anger thou) and waited
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and waited
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(smsed him to ask if he is coming home, he replied he is waiting for his fren cuz he is waiting for his someone, so in short, they are waiting together.but then later he told mi tt they are playing and drinking at illuzion)
yes! and stupid mi here is waiting for him to come home.
he said soon so i still waited.
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he finally came home at ard 3 nearing 4am. seriously i freaking grew older waiting for him.
( i nearly wanted to throw away all the foodstuffs tt i cooked.)

sometimes i dunno why i accepted ur pacifying.
i tink tt why ppl say love is blind.
but they didnt say i need to feel dissappointed or sad for most of the time.
i once told u i experienced my happiest moments with u, but also my most saddest, dissappointing moments with no one but the same u .

to stop mi from tinking negative all the way, i'll sum things up

yah, i am now waiting for him, promised to come home early once again.



my bestie is gonna kill mi.
u said tt i cant always be a little woman, cuz in a matter of no time, i'll get sick and tired.
i hate to say tis but girl, guess u are rite, i kinda feel tired already. its not tt i dun love him anymore but i am sick of having to wait for him at home most of the time and he is out drinking with his frens, fishing etc.
and nw he can take off for fishing even without mi knowing. its no biggy but i guess it shows i m again NOT IMPORTANT.

mixedfeelings??

dayshavepassedsincethelasttimeiblogged.
well,alotofthingsttiwantedtotokaboutbutwell,couldnttinkofanytowrite,
asinthei-have-alot-of-things-in-mind-but-unable-to-express-in-wordsdillemia.
sowell,tosummariesitasmuchasicould:
-dunnowhysomehowsometimeinfactmostofthetimeifindmylifeboring.
-isomehowlostinterestinalotofthings.
-suddenlyitinkiamfat,yesitinkihavegrownfatomfg!
-gotasuddenurgetobuylotsofcollagenandvitaminsandminerals,itinkmybodyiscravingforthemlol.
-ifeeldownandsadcuzdarlingneglectedmithisfewdaescuzhekeepsgoingoutwithhisfrenz.
andalotbehindmybrainandidunnohowtowritedowninwords.

andiwannaconfesssomethings:
-ilovemybestiesbutsomehowidunseemtocontactthem.ttsbadinoe.
-actuallywannagooutwithbestietogoclubbingandallbutcannot.
-actuallydarlingforbidmitogoclubwithotherpplcuzhesaytheplacesvery"luan".
inoeheisconcernaboutmibutistillquitesad.
cuzsomehowitseemtthecancontrolwhereigobuticannotcontrolwherehego.
ifidiediewantogothenhewillreluctantlysayokiebutthenhisfaceortonalitywheniget homeorstraightafterwillbevery"bushuang".
soisactually=cannotgo
-andialsoquitesadttdarlingsaycannotweardressgoclubifgotgocuzdangerousasinwill"zhouguang",
butthenagainalllpeoplewearnicenicegoclubdewad.singleandattachedpplallwad.
isacrificealotofmybestie/frenz-timeforubutiguessuwouldevennoe.butuwouldntdothesameformi,even iflyk30%.sad
-srybestie,alotofthetimeuaskmigooutintheniteididntevenaskcuzasklewill"dio"scoldingde,soi
darenotask.ushouldnoede,ilovealantoomuchtodareriskhimnotlovingmianymoreorworse,hatingmi.
usaidttwithoutalaniwilldie.yesitstrueandunoesoplsforgivemi.

stopforamoment.
iamstillwaittingformydarlingtocomehome.
yes.now.late.alone.haiz.
wadamidoingialsodunno.
dunworry,hedunreadblog,evenmine.
guessi'llwritetillherethen.

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