I aint happy rite now

yes, u got tt rite!
I AM NOT HAPPY RITE NOW, AT ALL.
u used to be so gd, well i m not saying tt u arent gd now jus tt as compared to when we jus started out, u fell out alot,BY A HUGE MARGIN.
maybe its because i made it clear tt i am already yours, thus u can jus slack down.
u used to consider my feelings, if i dun lyk, u wont do it, well now its seems lyk its nothing to u.
eg:
i rmb a time when u promised to fetch mi to ur house and to spent time with mi cuz i wasnt staying t ur hse at tt point of time. The next nite, u called to say tt u wanna go out with alan (if i rmb correctly).i kept quiet on the phone, being quite pissed off. (the reason i m pissed was cuz i have being working and have not met him for a few days) he ask whether its alrite and i said yah, its fine, u can go find him if u wan. detecting sth's wrong, he called again to say he's not going anymore and came to pick mi up. i replied tt if he wan, he can go, it does matter even thou it matters alot to mi, but he said its okie, cuz he promised mi.
tt was sweet.
NOW?
i dun tink he rmbs wad he promised mi anymore.
and its not lyk i wan him to promise mi an LV bag or a Gucci wallet.
wad he promised is usually to come home early to accompany mi, or to bring mi out cuz we haven being going out for a long time.
and most of the time, hurtingly, he doesnt keeps to his promises.
sad huh?
wad can i do to u?
wad do u wan mi to do?
well, jus a few weeks ago, he said he'll be home straight after work.
wanting to dote on him, i said i'll be cooking spagetti for his dinner and he replied he'll eat it aft he gets home.
(read:straight aft work)
so i went down to buy the ingredients and everything, practically died carrying such heavy weights all the way back to his hse. Prepared, washed, cut, cooked and everything timed to be ready when he gets home at ard a predicting time of 11 plus so tt he can eat it piping hot.
BUT THEN HE CALLED TO TELL MI TT HE IS GONNA FIND HIS FREN AWHILE AND BACK SOON.( read: soon)
thus i swallowed my anger ( not tt anger thou) and waited
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and waited
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(smsed him to ask if he is coming home, he replied he is waiting for his fren cuz he is waiting for his someone, so in short, they are waiting together.but then later he told mi tt they are playing and drinking at illuzion)
yes! and stupid mi here is waiting for him to come home.
he said soon so i still waited.
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he finally came home at ard 3 nearing 4am. seriously i freaking grew older waiting for him.
( i nearly wanted to throw away all the foodstuffs tt i cooked.)

sometimes i dunno why i accepted ur pacifying.
i tink tt why ppl say love is blind.
but they didnt say i need to feel dissappointed or sad for most of the time.
i once told u i experienced my happiest moments with u, but also my most saddest, dissappointing moments with no one but the same u .

to stop mi from tinking negative all the way, i'll sum things up

yah, i am now waiting for him, promised to come home early once again.



my bestie is gonna kill mi.
u said tt i cant always be a little woman, cuz in a matter of no time, i'll get sick and tired.
i hate to say tis but girl, guess u are rite, i kinda feel tired already. its not tt i dun love him anymore but i am sick of having to wait for him at home most of the time and he is out drinking with his frens, fishing etc.
and nw he can take off for fishing even without mi knowing. its no biggy but i guess it shows i m again NOT IMPORTANT.