here again

here i am at home again, waiting for him to come home.
seriously i dun even noe why i cared for so many times.
(other than i love him tonnes but this is really getting out of hand.)

well, i am pretty pretty sure that i am not paranoid as in i dun call him when he's out lyk every 5 mins to half hour so i'm cool rite? And he said he will be out to a buffet but will be back quite early which means somewhere ard 2am to 3am will be appropriate?

SERIOUSLY GUYS, AM I ASKING FOR TOO MUCH? judging by the fact tt he has been out late for lyk at least a whole week?

well, 2 can play the game then but on the other hand, he will be damn pissed and then i'll probably be deadmeat if i follow his suit and my frenz will most probably go down with mi, if u could get the picture tts it.

why?
let mi tell u cuz i tried once okie, twice to be exact and wad did he do?
he called and ask where am i ?
why am i out so late?
why at those kinda places?
and his tone? anger.

and thus he went to drink too with his frens and for god's sake when i get home then he will prepare to get home.
its lyk i cant be the last to get home if i am outside excluding jus work.

u noe, somtimes i jus feel lyk so sad, i keep wondering if we were meant to be together?
if we are, then worse still.
i'm lyk, " AM I DESTINE TO WAIT FOR YOU LYK TT FOREVER, EVEN AFTER WE GOT MARRIED?" (if we ever got married tt is.)

when i asked u what am i to u ? cuz it always seems tt ur frenz, ur brothers are lyk of more importance to u then i do. u said no, tts different cuz you dun noe how to express ur feeling thus unforturnately made mi feel this way. but hey, u need to learn how to express how u feel towards mi cuz i cant read ur mind, i dun noe what u are thinking. (if i knew, i wouldnt hav to go thru so much.)

u said u are not somebody who will always say "i love u."
u said u are not somebody who will show ur affections in front of others.
u said u are not somebody who will know how to pamper ur gf.
u said u are in fact a "woodblock".
but darling, can u at least, the very least let mi feel in every way tt i am someone special in ur life, someone of the utmost importance?
u are way more than first priority in my life, and i am very sure i have in many many ways proven to u tt it is true, indeed very true.
how about u ?
PROVE IT, PROVE IT TO ME.



cuz i am getting too tired to go on.

soon.